Originally Posted by ShyPoetGirl

my dad is bringing home pizza after work today. i know i ate way too much pizza last friday. pizza's a weak spot for me. i'll have to exercise a great deal of restraint. please wish me luck.

pizza is a weak spot for me, too.

yet i still have it once a week

and sometimes more if i'm really craving it

despite having food here, (my brother braught some spicy chips), i've not been tempted to open them yet

though that's all about to go down the drain... the choice i made for tonight's dinner isn't exactly a healthy one, and i hope that afterwards i'm not going to go for the chips

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

(my brother braught some spicy chips)

ah spicy chips... another one of my weaknesses.

my dad got spicy chips today. i ate the leftover pizza for breakfast.

i had a hard night last night and likely will again tonight, so part of me doesn't care how much i eat today. the food is all i have. i just can't be the only one holding me up anymore.

even the most well-built structures crumble when there isn't enough support.

[Angelique67]

Yesterday when I ordered my sandwiches for the week I also added a piece of cake, but they keep it in the freezer. I just ate it and it was stale and yucky. I feel depressed and slightly nauseated.

was food, now more beer. which still has quite a few calories. (budweiser - 145 cal. a can).

an 18-year-old girl with -gasp- a beer gut... imagine it!

that's what i'll be here pretty soon, if i'm not careful.

then again, i'm already obese, so what does it even matter? i'm ugly anyway.

sorry if there's typos... i'm quite drunk.

not quite sure what happened... wasn't thinking about food at all, and suddenly- it just hit me. you know the feeling you get when you just have to eat.

so let myself down today and gave in to it.

shameful.. really shameful. a family sized bag of chips gone in less than half an hour

correction, two bags of chips. i already ate one.

all i've eaten today (up to now), is a bowl of strawberries

of course i've still got my dinner to come, but i'd say that's a success

i've already ate too much today, no wonder i'm not losing any weight. time to get strict with myself.

[LifeGetsBetter]

Focusing on eating healthy and trying to get used to feeling hungry most of the time. BLAH!

[waggiedog]

OMG, really messed up big time diet wise over the last four nights, night times are ALWAYS a trying time for me to be sure. I KNOW that the longer the 'pig outs' continue, the harder it will be to get back into my fairly strict restricting BUT, it's the only way I know works for me. So, four days in on my restricting and feeling a bit better, well, a lot better AND the llbs are dropping on the scales. My life has been a constant roller~coaster which never stops twirling round and round. This is not all due to my Borderline Personality Disorder, it's also down to 'atypical' anorexia and depression, plus general anxiety which is there in all my waking moments.
Stay safe my friends and share as much as you feel comfortable sharing! HUGS and LOVES, as ever. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX

'i really need to start losing weight' i think while eating ice cream.

[LifeGetsBetter]

I know that feeling shattered sanity just described. I'll be busy for hours, not hungry, not thinking about food. Then bam! I am suddenly famished and feel a need to really eat. Nothing healthy will satisfy that need. Knowing the damn problem and fixing it are two entirely different things.

it's been 1 of those in the middle sort of days.

had a nice healthy breakfast of fruit, but then spoilt about an hour afterwards by eating a packet of jaffer cakes (which i didn't really need i guess), but it wasn't exactly majorly bad either.

after that i sort of left food alone until dinner

dad is bringing pizza again today. i'm hungry and can't wait. but at the same time i don't want any. my stomach is growling. why can't i convince myself that eating when i'm hungry is okay? (because i live in a society that says that, as a girl, my weight is my worth, and that to lose weight i must survive on kale and water.) i dunno... i love pizza, but i hate the feeling i get after i eat it - like i failed or something.

in other news, the scale yesterday said i lost two pounds, but i don't know if that's legit weight loss, or from the undigested food i vomited that morning (i was sick). so i don't know if i should celebrate just yet or not.

the pizza didn't last nearly long enough. i was enjoying it so much, and then it was gone. i want to get more already, but i know i can't, because it's for everyone. i do not get it. why is two pieces of pizza not enough for me. what now? sit with this feeling the rest of the evening?? i have to find something else, but there's no snacks, no ice cream, nobody to talk to.

[LifeGetsBetter]

Moderation is not a word in my vocabulary. I am craving all sorts of sweets. Ate some mellon and grapes. Blah....fruit just doesn't do it.

and i'm back to the extreme overeating

last few days my eating's been a mess. though i have managed to keep to my healthy breakfast of strawberries (which does not count for much, if you're eating junk food the rest of the day)

[Angelique67]

I bought a bunch of burgers today and that's what I'll be eating the next few days. I feel very upset with myself because I always gain more weight by eating fast food and I can't take the weight off with my bad back.

i lost 3 pounds. it's not enough. the scale said 282, i wanted to be 280. i must get to under 280 by next week.

i slipped a bit on my diet today and ate some pizza & doritos. plus i'm sore from the 100 crunches i did yesterday morning. my whole midsection hurts. crunches for me today are not an option. squats, maybe? i have to burn off the pizza & chips. if i want to keep eating things like that, i'll have to work.

good thing is that i drank a lot of water today and didn't have a single soda yesterday (and probably won't today either!)

[LifeGetsBetter]

Exercising more, but snacking more too. Arrrggghhh!

not done so bad these last few days.

actually in a pretty good place.. not starving myself stupid, and not overeating too much either

i slipped all weekend, now i'm back on track. well, starting over. back to drinking a lot of water, cutting out pepsi. now i've introduced green tea, so hopefully that will help me lose more weight. and i found a lower calorie alternative to the spicy chips i like - saltines with sriracha. (no really, it's good!)

[waggiedog]

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