[Just keep swimming]

I've been sleepy the whole day. Being overtired makes me vulnerable to overeating so I'm going to try to go to bed early today. No spending hours looking at all the forums, no matter how reassuring it is. I bought some garlic today and I'm ready to try out my new basic recipe tomorrow: oil and vinegar dressing. I know, I know, it hardly counts as as recipe, but I wanted to make sure I couldn't fail, so I set my first "learn how to cook" goal really small. Goodnight, Swim

[Standup2me]

Originally Posted by Just keep swimming

What's really frustrating for me is that no matter how hard I don't want to binge, there are still plenty of times when I end up overeating. I was wondering what's worked for you in the past when you were able to keep from overeating? I know sometimes when I can keep from getting too stressed out, food is less of a problem. And I know getting enough sleep is a major factor too. How weird that so many things other than not wanting to overeat, so many things that seem to not have anything to do with food are the things that help or hurt me in my efforts.

I saw a therapist, who specializes in oe, and it was helpful.
One of the things she taught me was to have a mantra (I am stronger than this, I am a warrior and I will win)
Sounds funny, but it did help me then, but now it does not seem to
Not enough sleep for me is a huge one.
I know I can quit it again, and I am trying

[Standup2me]

Originally Posted by Just keep swimming

I've been sleepy the whole day. Being overtired makes me vulnerable to overeating so I'm going to try to go to bed early today. No spending hours looking at all the forums, no matter how reassuring it is. I bought some garlic today and I'm ready to try out my new basic recipe tomorrow: oil and vinegar dressing. I know, I know, it hardly counts as as recipe, but I wanted to make sure I couldn't fail, so I set my first "learn how to cook" goal really small. Goodnight, Swim

I am not too sure if you like mustard, but a little mustard in it is really good

[Just keep swimming]

Well, this was my first week back at work. I'm trying to not get too anxious or pessimistic. I worry that I'll go back to all my unhealthy habits and just give up on forming any new ones. And just end up getting depressed. Well that's my worry.

My hope is that things will go differently. I hope I've finally got it through my head that I need to set goals that I have some control over, like learning how to cook yummy things so that I don't feel deprived and tempted to go out and eat. In the past, my goals have always involved numbers. I noticed that when I checked my blood sugar I was trying to "will" it to be low. I used to try to do the same thing with the scale.

Thanks to all of you for being a part of this forum. Getting support is definitely a different approach for me.

[Standup2me]

Does anyone ever feel like they need extra support somedays?

I feel like that today.

[Just keep swimming]

Originally Posted by Standup2me

Does anyone ever feel like they need extra support somedays?

I feel like that today.

I sure do some days. But I'm still learning how to ask for and give support. Do you know what types of things might feel supportive? I like all the hug smilies.
Did you have a rough day? I'm glad your here.

[GALAXYGAL]

I am pouty today and there's no smiley for that here. There are some days, like today, that no amount of support will help me at all. I'm angry at myself for letting my weight climb so high. I have no drive or energy today. I've been snacking all day and now trying to talk myself out of having dinner. I've been doing a lot writing lately, I look back on it and think my life is a cliché.

[waggiedog]

Originally Posted by spondiferous

It's been such a long time since I've been in this forum. So much has changed...and yet so much has stayed the same.
Every day is something of a battle. Even when I manage to not abuse myself by stuffing food in my body all day, I obsess about it. What I could do better. What I'd rather be doing. Blah blah blah. Will it ever end? That's what it comes down to now. After dealing with this for 20 some-odd years...
Will it ever end?
And why is my success in life and my worth as a person tied to my size, my weight, my appearance, etc? I want to break the chains. I want to be healthy for the right reasons. I want to not be obsessed anymore. I want to get on with my LIFE. I was doing SO WELL last year. And then it all went away. ARGH.
Wishing you all a good day. An obstacle-free day. A safe, peaceful, sane day.

. Hi there, oh YES YES I soooooo know exactly what you mean, I've also spent some long long years wasting over every eating disorder known to man/woman, some 33 now. Does it ever go away, no, not for all of us. Mine is tied in with BPD and that I know now I was born with. We go on though and if we have places like this to come to, where we can share, then share we must hunny. Hugs. Xxx

[waggiedog]

Originally Posted by Just keep swimming

I sure do some days. But I'm still learning how to ask for and give support. Do you know what types of things might feel supportive? I like all the hug smilies.
Did you have a rough day? I'm glad your here.

Hi there, you know, it's not much to ask for hunny, so here's some extra special HUGS and LOVES and we are always here. Xxxxxxxx

[waggiedog]

Originally Posted by GALAXYGAL

I am pouty today and there's no smiley for that here. There are some days, like today, that no amount of support will help me at all. I'm angry at myself for letting my weight climb so high. I have no drive or energy today. I've been snacking all day and now trying to talk myself out of having dinner. I've been doing a lot writing lately, I look back on it and think my life is a cliché.

Yeah, have to say and admit, snacking is my big problem ~~ always feel so gross at the end of the day. Yet every morning I promise myself I'll be extra "good" today, yet I'm never that good these days. Xxxxx

[Standup2me]

Originally Posted by Just keep swimming

I sure do some days. But I'm still learning how to ask for and give support. Do you know what types of things might feel supportive? I like all the hug smilies.
Did you have a rough day? I'm glad your here.

I feel so needy, but I also feel weak when I ask for extra support.

What I like about being here is that people understand exactly what I mean

[Just keep swimming]

Well, I reached my first micro-goal of learning and making a ridiculously easy recipe. What's strange was how much I resisted doing it. Goodness change is hard for me. I'm glad it was super easy: balsamic vinaigrette! Anyhow, I was really proud of it when I finished and I ended up eating some salad and vegetables today without complaining.

[Just keep swimming]

Originally Posted by Standup2me

I feel so needy, but I also feel weak when I ask for extra support.

What I like about being here is that people understand exactly what I mean

I don't think you're weak when you ask for extra support. I'm kind of proud of you and impressed that you are asking for what you need. It also reminds me that I can ask for extra support when I need it.

[Just keep swimming]

Originally Posted by waggiedog

Hi there, you know, it's not much to ask for hunny, so here's some extra special HUGS and LOVES and we are always here. Xxxxxxxx

Thanks so much. Funny how happy and warm all the HUG and LOVE smilies make me.

[Standup2me]

Originally Posted by Just keep swimming

I don't think you're weak when you ask for extra support. I'm kind of proud of you and impressed that you are asking for what you need. It also reminds me that I can ask for extra support when I need it.

I like that, you've made me feel really good. Good about myself and what I need

You are amazing at reading people's emotions

[GALAXYGAL]

Originally Posted by GALAXYGAL

I am pouty today and there's no smiley for that here. There are some days, like today, that no amount of support will help me at all. I'm angry at myself for letting my weight climb so high. I have no drive or energy today. I've been snacking all day and now trying to talk myself out of having dinner. I've been doing a lot writing lately, I look back on it and think my life is a cliché.

Feeling better today. I have learned to recognize self-pity (in myself) and that irritates me more so than failure. I plan on starting the week off strong by eating healthy tonight and doing a ½ hour brisk walk on the treadmill.

[Standup2me]

First day back at work from a week off
Very stressed...and am stress eating, but...I can stop
Right now I will
I can do it

[Just keep swimming]

Originally Posted by Standup2me

First day back at work from a week off
Very stressed...and am stress eating, but...I can stop
Right now I will
I can do it

Hey, how's it going. Was it worse today? I see that your mood is "in pain" and I was wondering if you wanted to talk about it. I know that work is really, really hard for me to return to after a break. I also know that when I'm stressed out, overeating can hit me especially hard.

[Just keep swimming]

Originally Posted by GALAXYGAL

Feeling better today. I have learned to recognize self-pity (in myself) and that irritates me more so than failure. I plan on starting the week off strong by eating healthy tonight and doing a ½ hour brisk walk on the treadmill.

How'd it go? I like the idea of just hopping on the treadmill and doing a quick walk. Are you sure it's self-pity and not just plain sad or something else? I know that my instant reaction is to be hard on myself sometimes. I read something that said that people do better with food when they're better at recognizing emotions than if they were taught nutrition and exercise info. For me it goes so much better with food when I'm feeling kind to myself and patient.

[Just keep swimming]

Dang it, I've been trying all these new healthier habits and this morning my blood sugar was higher than when I was on prednisone. I'm going to try to monitor my carbs today and see what's up.

[GALAXYGAL]

Originally Posted by Just keep swimming

How'd it go? I like the idea of just hopping on the treadmill and doing a quick walk. Are you sure it's self-pity and not just plain sad or something else? I know that my instant reaction is to be hard on myself sometimes. I read something that said that people do better with food when they're better at recognizing emotions than if they were taught nutrition and exercise info. For me it goes so much better with food when I'm feeling kind to myself and patient.

Well, I haven't been on the treadmill so far this week. It's almost like I'm resisting doing what I want to do. I don't get it. It feels like there's a second person inside me trying to sabotage me.

I think I’m trying to psych myself into a good mood and not just weight loss (been mildly depressed for months). Also, I am more sensitive to feelings of self-pity this time of year due to the seasonal ads for charitable giving to those less fortunate. Those commercials really tug at my heart strings.

One thing I noticed after my last post was my black and white thinking – all or nothing. I think I have found a new therapist who can help with eating disorders among other things so maybe I can work on my emotional responses – I know I need to.

[GALAXYGAL]

Originally Posted by Standup2me

First day back at work from a week off
Very stressed...and am stress eating, but...I can stop
Right now I will
I can do it

I hope you are having a good week at work and enjoy eating whatever you are eating.

[GALAXYGAL]

Originally Posted by Just keep swimming

Dang it, I've been trying all these new healthier habits and this morning my blood sugar was higher than when I was on prednisone. I'm going to try to monitor my carbs today and see what's up.

I hope you find out what is causing your blood sugar to spike. It does seem odd that healthier habits would lead to an unhealthy result. That's got to be frustrating if you are trying to make permanent changes. Do you struggle with diabetes?

[Standup2me]

Originally Posted by Just keep swimming

Hey, how's it going. Was it worse today? I see that your mood is "in pain" and I was wondering if you wanted to talk about it. I know that work is really, really hard for me to return to after a break. I also know that when I'm stressed out, overeating can hit me especially hard.

I had a bad migrane yesterday, and it just knocks me out. Maybe from the first day back??

Ate an entire medium sized pizza... not good

[Standup2me]

Originally Posted by GALAXYGAL

Well, I haven't been on the treadmill so far this week. It's almost like I'm resisting doing what I want to do. I don't get it. It feels like there's a second person inside me trying to sabotage me.

I think I’m trying to psych myself into a good mood and not just weight loss (been mildly depressed for months). Also, I am more sensitive to feelings of self-pity this time of year due to the seasonal ads for charitable giving to those less fortunate. Those commercials really tug at my heart strings.

One thing I noticed after my last post was my black and white thinking – all or nothing. I think I have found a new therapist who can help with eating disorders among other things so maybe I can work on my emotional responses – I know I need to.

Galaxy, you sure hit a note with me.
Black and white thinking. I do the same
Do we do it to sabotage ourselves?
Do we do it to cushion our emotions?

What do you think?