How am i supposed to know when i am lying and when i am not? Obviously when i am being pathological i can sometimes tell as i know what my real name is etc. but when it comes to my personality and emotions; how on earth do i know?
i vividly remember lying and putting on a facade when i was in nursery so about 4 years old.
this has been going on so long; i adapt to each and every person i talk to and put on feelings and emotions and personalities to suit them. i have no idea how i feel or what i am like. i don't know when i am telling the truth about my emotions and when i am not.

[Perna]

Hi, hellishlygood. I'm a little confused; lying is usually in words about "facts" rather than not knowing how we feel, that's a different sort of thing. I think we all have various facades but we don't make up literal lies on the spur of the moment to support them. Is that what you do?

I don't know that I'm explaining myself very well. This link explains what a pathological liar is like better than I could, does it sound like you or are you talking about something else?

http://thelastpsychiatrist.com/2007/...cal_liars.html

I have been told by various doctors that i am a pathalogical liar yes. But this is probably more about my compulsive lying. I create personalities i suppose to suit people. i.e. around one person i will act dopey and fun loving and around another i will be sharp, quick witted and cynical. The difference in how i act is shocking.
Yes i make up literal lies to support my feelings often. Different stories for different people i suppose. I just don't know how to stop this because i don't know what my emotional reactions TRULY are and i don't know what my personality truly is i suppose.

[PsyChris]

I think it will help you to look at your motive. If you are trying to impress someone then it is likely you will start becoming pathological. I think the focus of any treatment should be on any underlying anxiety and depression that may make you feel like you need to invent these personalities.

Do you find that after your out of the situation -- you realize you were lying? But while in the situation, you do not think it is a lie?

I tend to think that whether i was lying or not it is irrelevant but often a while later i get confused and think it was the truth. I have been diagnosed with schizophrenia, depression, pathalogical and compulsive lying and schizoid PD.
I am not trying to impress anyone; these are purely because they just come out. they have no benefit to me.
I also could not remember acting like some of them until i was told about it later on.
How are you supposed to know which feelings/emotions etc. are real when usually you make them up to suit a character?
any ideas?

[Perna]

Do you have meds that help with the sz? I would think it would be very hard to figure out who's doing what to whom :-) normally with your dx's.

I would think of something, a trait, you would like to be or have and emulate that; honesty, friendliness, intelligence, humor, whatever. Figure out what something would look like and then try to copy it whenever/however you can. Insofar as you succeed according to your judgment, that would be what you want?

Right now, here, you're saying you want to tell the difference between you and made up stuff and you're honestly "working" to understand and engaged in that particular desire of yours. You didn't make up wanting this so that's "you"/yours. Whatever it feels like to you writing and reading and responding to a post like this, that's what you want and are trying to do, be, copy, find, experience, recreate, etc.

[PsyChris]

Well in light of your new post I suppose my previous suggestion will not work.

Is your Schizophrenia controlled with medication?

I think your disposition certainly lends you to additional confusion between truth and imagination. The disposition of your personality may be that the normal mechanism of guilt and responsibility are not functioning well enough to identify the lie.

Are you in therapy other than medication management?

[RiverX]

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I am not trying to impress anyone; these are purely because they just come out. they have no benefit to me.
I also could not remember acting like some of them until i was told about it later on.

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Well, part of that sounds like you are describing a black out.
People with multiple personality disorder do have black outs, I've recently finished reading a chapter on this.

Is there anything in your history, trauma... ??

I'd say, go carefully with this and investigate thoroughly..... it sounds like theres something going on that needs proper understanding.

river

[IxCantxBreath]

i tend to create different personalities to fit different people too. i feel the same way. and I may not be a total liar, but im certainly good at it. i actually lie about every day. i know i didn't really help, but maybe it helps to know that you're not alone. =]

[lauren_helene]

Well maybe the post I just put in the DID forum belonged here.

I'm so confused! But in short, I have done something very similar.