Am I boring? Long rant, sorry...

Someone on a LJ community just said I was boring.
I posted and said how I felt 'I had no personality and why doesnt anyone like me, etc'. And someone posted an anonymous comment saying they thaught I was boring and that must be why...

I try to tell myself theyre just being mean and they dont know me, but I cant help thinking its true...

I have hardly any friends and the ones I do have when Im with them Im just going along with what they want to do, I dont feel Im being myself around them.

But I feel Im not myself around anyone, not even my family.
Its like I act so different with other people and just act how thay want me to act that I dont know who I am and how I want to act.

I know I shouldnt be putting so much thaught and getting so upset about one stupid comment...
But I always get upset about the bad comment, but whenever someone says something nice to me I just dismiss it...
I dont know why, it just seems people would say nice things not to upset me, but if someone says something bad it must be true...

Its so bad.

I keep trying to change myself so people will like me but it never works. I know I should just 'be myself' and whatever. But if I dont like the 'real me' and other people dont, whats the point in that?
And then no-one seems to like me whatever I do and I always fail at 're-inventing myelf' So...

I dont know what to do...

Yes a comment like that when your not feeling your best is hurtful. I would say, don't take it personally what the person said to you, but I know in those moments when thats all we can do it does feel personal. I don't think anyones really boring, perhaps we are drawn to different types of pepole and perhaps ths person hasn't realised that not everyone is out to keep "him/her" happy? Just carry on being kind to you and let the dumb piece of %#@&#! fall in her/his own %#@&#! as they will one day.

I see a lot of myself in your post here, I oftne feel like I have nothing of real value to contribute to others. In conversation I become a non entity out there.

I know how it feels and I just wanted to let you know you are not alone in this

TJ

Boring is in the eye of the beholder.

As to what one can do to make one's self interesting to one's self -- start thinking about all the things that you think and feel and like, that you think no one else really wants to hear about. The things that you think are "forbidden." You might be surprised how many people are trying their best not to know about those forbidden things too.

BTW, what is a LJ community?

It sounds like it might help you to take some time and learn about yourself and find out what you like so that you are not simply going along with other people around you. The way that you described yourself sounds something like a chameleon, changing to match your surroundings. But why do chameleons do that? It's camoflage, to hide, or to keep from being noticed. Maybe you do blend in and get overlooked. If so, you probably do that for a reason. Maybe you were socialized to think that who you are doesn't matter or isn't acceptable. It probably worked for you in the environment you grew up in. But now it's starting to cause some problems for you, so it's time to take a look at it and see what you can do to express your own personality more. Basically, get to know yourself.

There's a movie that might be good for you to watch if you can get it. "Runaway Bride."

Come back and let us know how it's going, okay!