How long to wait...

till I post my questioning thread with a poll:
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Do you want me to leave psychcentral?

Yes

No

I'm too afraid to answer

What? You aren't gone yet?

Suck it up, Sky and quit your bellyaching.

HA HA HA We win, go away fast.

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I'm really wondering how long I should wait... to see if things are really settled or just waiting for another round of attacks against me. Waiting to see... what? Why should I bother? Nothing changes, it seems. Sure, T says progress... T says PTSD takes time... T says ,,,, gee, can I even be sure of what T says? Not sure of anything anymore. Except there seems to be a growing group of more members actively against me than supporting me... and then there are those who I view as both and that is truly working a number on me. I don't like the split group sentiment... us and them or whatever... and if I say anything (I haven't have I? oh, forget about this time) then it's my fault or distorted thinking that imagines anything but peacable members... certainly they show more hurt than I can muster in public... they must be in the right and I wrong.

Anyway, my thinking, for those who really care to know, is that if I am continually in the mix of things here then there's no real choice but to leave. Just don't know if I want to know how few of you really like me. (I would just have to deal with that later.)

I've removed my avatar, my signature, I try to not use but the BLANK smiley space, and promised DocJohn eons ago not to post in the lounge forum... trying to keep peace. I guess the only way to please the group is to not post at all. I'm seriously considering their choice.

Sky,

I'm still too much of a newbie to know what you have gone through at PC, but all I see is that you are an extremely supportive person who genuinely helps me. Please don't consider leaving. As someone new to PTSD with so much to learn, I've relied on your posts to help educate me about the disorder.

There are very few people that post in the PTSD threads and I greatly value your opinions and support. Please don't leave. Please find comfort in knowing that you truly are helping others with PTSD. If people are going to attack you for trying to help others, then ignore them (it's difficult, but you can do it). I know we don't know each other very well, but please understand that I value your intelligence, wisdom and experience in dealing with PTSD.

I hope you change your mind and stop considering not posting anymore. If there is anything I can do to help, please let me know.

Missi

Sky - I don't know who you think wants you to leave...but who cares? If someone actively wants Sky gone, you can bet there is someone else who wants THAT person gone. It's just life here on the Internet. We are ALL annoying to someone at some time! I know I am and I ain't going any where.

Stay if you find benefit in being here. That's the ONLY criteria for this decision.

I hope you stay.

emmy

I agree with emmy. Can't please all of the people all of the time. Please yourself.

Take care.

Missi

Sky,
I don't spend much time on the computer any more. But I have a few things to say.... When I first discovered this site and went into the chat room, you were so friendly and helpful, supportive. I was a disaster at the time, but it really helped me to meet someone else with PTSD.

I think that sometimes PTSD can make you see everything, read everything as a potential threat. It is so easy to imagine that other people are out to get you or force you to leave. But I think that is the ptsd talking. I know there have been a few misunderstandings on the forums... I think that it is hard for someone to understand PTSD unless they also have it or care for someone who does.

Please stay. Please don't let a perception scare you away. There may be people who don't like you. There are probably people who don't like me either. But there are people who like you too and care about you.

And if there is someone who has a big issue with Sky, feel free to PM me. You can rant all you want about her in a PM. Just keep it off the public forums. There is NO reason why anyone should feel unwelcome or threatened here. I came to this place to find peace.

Obsidian

_Sky,

I see some heartfelt replies of support here for you. Please keep your heart open to those who care enough to let you know as honestly as you would let them know. In other words I see some straight shootin here that is offered up kindly but not sugar coated.

I have no response to your post as I've read different versions of this type of post before and think that answering it point by point only creates more food for the PTSD thinking to feed on.

I am NOT saying that your thinking isn't valid. I am NOT saying you are wrong. I AM saying that you have expressed similar things before and each time there has been a rallying of ppl reminding you that you're wanted here and if you need a break for your own safety to please do that.........but you're welcome to return anytime. When ppl say that they mean they want to see _Sky safer and healthier. Folks have different limits of what they can handle in a community setting. We all take breaks if needed and I know you will make the best choice for your health as you ultimately do in these situations........even after periods of not caring enough to eat and such.

Start slowly again with steamed veggies and brothy rice or whatever your comfort healthy things are. Your well-being is far more important than what anyone here thinks. Take care of you and when feeling better please return to posting as you have been doing for about eighteen months in this community. Quitters don't last that long and I can't imagine you giving up now.

Be well _Sky.

i dunno, but i see nothen wrong with wanting to be reassured that one is valued. real life and on line life has its bumps and to hear a positive word that yes you are valued and to reassure sumone is a good thing to do. even if one has to do it more than one time.

anyway just my two cents

Sky,

I for one certainly do not want you to leave. You have given me lots of support and I appreciate it greatly, and I would miss you terribly. It sounds like there are others who feel you are supportive, and are glad that you are here too. You are a valued member of this community. I understand that PTSD makes it easier to feel like people are against you when they aren't, and then your reactions to your sensations trigger reactions in them, and it spirals downward. It can be worked out though, and nobody has to leave. We're all here for a reason.
*hugs*
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