don't wait as long as me...

i just wanted to vent this....

i was abused from the age of 8 to 15. my abuser was someone my mum was having an affair with. he was a psychologist.

problems

1.......betrayal

2.......no self esteem

3.......trust no-one

4........fear of rejection

5.......flashbacks and dreams

6.......don't deserve to be loved

any of these sound familiar?

for the younger ones in here.....please do not leave it as long as i have to start healing. i'm 42....i should have been here and seen a pdoc many years ago,learn by my mistakes. get help and get it out. i've really only had half a life til now. yes i have 2 beautiful children, live fairly well but through a mask, some happy person on the outside, not on the inside. i want you all to be happy from inside out from now....get help, talk, cry but let go, i'm 42, i am just letting go, i refuse to let the b.....d ruin the next part of my life

jinny xx good luck xx

pmme anytime day or night on this subject. i feel very strongly about it.





by the way, i'm not sad today lol, just really want my little e.family to listen and take my advice. don't wait to sort it.

((((((((jinny)))))))))))))))

You are so strong and brave....I look up to you and admire you!!! Good luck in what you do and what you are facing!!! Your words are lovely sounds of encouragement !!! Your heart is sooo big....

Love, Inny

love you inny xxxx

bet you can't look up to me i'm only ickle lol

thankyou for your words sweetie, much love

(((((jinny)))))

It matters not how long it's been and when you started accepting your issues and getting help with them. What matters is that you DID do something for YOU! I think many women bypass their own health issues when raising a family. Everyone else comes first. As we get into our 40's we find there is more "ME" time because the kids are getting older and don't need us 24/7 like they used to. My 40's was when I finally was able to concentrate on me for a change. Big changes were made to my way of thinking and my lifestyle. But, I refuse to believe that the time before that was wasted. It was a complete learning experience that gave me the basis to grow on when I was ready.

But, I totally agree with you that there is hope, and the sooner one can get help with their issues, the better. We all deserve "ME" time....for if we can't take care of ourselves, how will we care properly for our family now and in the future?

Hugssssss 'n Love
J

((( jinny )))

I'm so sorry for what happened to you. Yes, your list is very familiar.

I think You are very kind to encourage others to not wait. I am 53 (I don't know how THAT happened!!) and starting new therapy and have been honest this time. I wish I had got help years ago, but I guess I wasn't ready. Maybe you too?

It's true that we only have this moment. We don't even have tomorrow yet. We're making the most of this moment by getting help now. Good for us!

Letting go is so hard. It's hard because it starts with acknowledgement, awareneess and that is a hard place to be especially after stuffing it away for a long time. It's hard to sit still with it and not run away in some form or another.

Thankyou guys, things in life happen for a reason i suppose, and waiting this long to get my head sorted perhaps has made me a better/stronger person idk.

thankyou for all your words of wisdom, and yes sab and echoes, you are right, never been time to sort me out before.

me time now. never said that either, confidence must be growing

learning how to be just a little bit selfish lol

xxxxx

Jinny, your list is familiar to me You're very brave and kind posting this (((((((((((((((( Jinny )))))))))))))))))

xo Fuzzy

((((((((((((((((((((((((((I'm so sorry)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

That made me very angry Jinny. I know you are all hurting and that's why we're here, but I am so mad that I "feel" for you guys and know that ppl have hurt you. I hate them for that.

I know the list as well. I wish it wasn't under these terms that we connect. But, I guess without it, I may never know the brilliant star that is you--and the others here who are my friends and know the sicknesses and evils that pervade this world. This ties us in a twisted way, but it's incredible the souls that I'm tied to......

sorry if i'm being weird, I'm hurt that you're hurt.

talulah ((((((((((((thankyou so much )))))))))))))))

you are right, without this happening to me, i would never have met the most wonderful people in the world. i love you so much for these words. we're all stars here, all of us.

thankyou

jinny (kerry) xx