my big brother just committed suicide

He shot himself. I'm lost like i'm underwater. My sweet tenderhearted brother. I want to hold him and comfort him.

I'm so sorry to hear that Suicide is one of the hardest types of grief. I know that there is probably nothing I can say which will take away the pain right now but I am thinking of you and your family.

((((likewater)))) - how dreadfully sad, I am so sorry to hear about your brother, I can't imagine how hard it must be feeling for you right now.

Do you have anyone with you?

((LikeWater)) Many many soft gentle hugs your way and well thoughts... I dont have much to say besides my heart does go out to you as well. I am sorry to read your news. Many hugs to you.
Suicide is very confusing (or at least for me, and in many ways it is) or like CatGoesMeow says- hardest types of grief. I am sorry that you have to go through this.

(((((likewater))))) so sorry to hear about your brother. Sending gentle soothing s your way. I hope you have someone with you, please take care, you are in my thoughts dear 1

That's awful, I'm so sorry, my thoughts are with you likewater.

Words just are enough likewater. Sending you thoughts of peace among all the other stuff.

awh, I am so sorry to hear this... words cannot even begin to help how you must be feeling right now but please know that you will be in our thoughts ((((HUGS))))

(((((likewater)))))),

((((likewater)))) i am so sorry....my heart to yours.
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I'm so sorry. Sending you lots of love and hugs

Thank you. My bfriend bought a bed so my dog and i can stay at his house as long as we need. I think this is as bad as you can hurt and still be alive. My bfriend never even got to meet my brother. His name was Chris. He was the kindest smartest sweetest soul. I
told my sister things will never be ok again. She feels the same. He had been sick. The doctors were going to send him to the Mayo clinic to find out why and make him better. He tested positive for cystic fibrosis which is really rare and he had neurological and circulation problems. He was just so sick and tired of suffering. But his calendar was heart breaking. A couple days in June it said
,"nobody called." For the whole month it said at the beginning, " life is Hell, " and at the end he asked, "Does God love me?"
I wish i had a time machine. I'd call him every day and tell him i loved him. I'd drive up and take him to the hospital so they could make him more comfortable. We kept trying to get him to go and he wouldnt. He already had a plan i guess.

I'm so sorry...

(((likewater))),

I am soooo sorry about your brother. Try not to go back and think about the things you "could" have done. It may not have made any difference in his decision. When someone is suffering with health issues like that it is hard to know how hard they are struggling and dealing with pain all the time.

This is going to take some time for you to process. I am glad you are coming and talking about it. It is healing when we open up and can talk as we need to.

((((Gentle caring Hugs))))
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Just know that there are always kind people who are willing to listen, advise, and comfort, here at PC. We're all just a click away.
Gentle huge to you and your family.

I'm so sorry...sometimes there really are no right words.
My prayers are with you and your family.

Thanks. Now it got worse.this is triggering guys . Beware. about a year ago our mother was hospitalized.after trying to kill my brother and our stepdad. Throughout our childhood she repeatedly was locked up for trying to kill us. When I was 13 she showed me the correct way to slit my
wrists, always had razor blades in medicine cabinet and wrote a short story where main character attempts to kill herself by slitting wrists. The character was a young adolescent girl and my mother told me character was based on me. She.was alone with my brother when he died. There are all kinds of holes in her story but detective says we will never be able to prove anything. At the very least, she encouraged him to.do it and let him bleed out while she shredded his diary. At the worst she may have pulled the trigger. Oh and I forgot to mention she will collect a 200k life insurance policy.

Oh I forgot to thank everyone for your kind words. It means the world to me. Thank you.

((likewater)) - so very sorry you lost your brother to suicide and he was suffering so much. I know some of how you feel because I lost my older brother to suicide 4 yrs ago. I'm also sorry your mother is/was a horrible mother. Regarding your last post - I hope the police are investigating what role your mom played in your brothers death. I also don't think she'll get any of the insurance money, because it was suicide - I would hate to see her benefit any money from this.

Lynnp.sorry to hear you lost your brother. My sister and I think things will never be ok agsin. Ive never felt pain like tjis not even when my dad died when I was nine.

I am so sorry for your loss. My thoughts to you and your family and his friends for this awful tragedy. With love and hugs.

((Likewater)) I am sorry for all the pain that you have been put through. (((many hugs to you and your sister))) I hope you have someone you can talk to in Real Life about all of this- by no means don't stop posting on PC, but i do hope that you have someone like a therapist or good confidant to talk to in real life.

I must agree! I am glad that your friend is their for you. Lean on his/her shoulder for support. You and your sister hopefully will continue to be their for each other for support. I am sorry about the struggles with your mother and all the health problems your brother faced. Just take each day as it comes and don't forget to remember all the good times, that will def help. With love and hugs.

Oh my goodness, how terribly sad and tragic

((((((likewater))))))))
Having lost a loved one to a suspicious suicide recently, there may not be any answers as we may never know why. No matter what, do know that it does not affect or diminish the cherished times, memories, or feelings for your relationship. Hold on to those and be kind and gentle with yourself right now. Trust in what you know and those you love for support; and if there is a T or counselor, please let them in to help. Sending the warmest and kindest of hugs, hang in there.