Intrusive Thoughts/ Daydream/Daymares

This is something i've dealt with since a young age, what age I can't remember but I know it was young.
I know th at some of it is due to my trauma's and PTSD but why did I start to get this at a young age?

I see things in a daydream and they are very VERY vivid, I tense in fear etc, and 99% of the time they are situations i've never been in.

At a young age I kept having the same imagse over and over again about the same girl etc. I had it for so long that I wrote a book about it, had it called the juror and ended up being a woman who was on a jury for a murder trial I believe, even though my repeated daydream wasn't a juror but I decided to put it in that setting, not sure why.

Anyways I wrote about the same things she went through as the girl did who was taken off the school yard or nabbed off the street always by the same set of guys. Faces I couldn't see of course.

I printed the story out when it was finished and put it in a white binder. I still have it to this day and no ones read it.

I've told my pdoc this a few times in our 10+ years of me seeing her and she told me that they are fears and to change the negative outcome into something positive, the police coming, running away, breaking free etc.

That worked maybe once. If I hear a noice it will go away ,but when it's quiet it comes back.

I don't get it.

Hello and welcome to Psych central. It is good to hear that you are having sessions with a therapist. If the thoughts are bothersome, then maybe you should keep a journal so you wll know what to tell your therapist. Fear can manifest itself in dreams and it is very important that you dont let the dreams create a void in your life, or cause harm to your mental health. I feel that you really need to stress that these dreams are very vivid and you would like help to persuade the dreams to be lessened and create less harm to you in the future. There are many therapies available for what you are going through and if the therapist is not aware of the therapies available or is not capable of helping you in a manner that is productive for your future then perhaps looking for a therapist that takes your case more seriously may be in order. I am glad that you have joined Psych Central. I think it is very admirable of you to seek the help you need for your dreams, and I hope you get the therapy you deserve soon from your therapist. Take care and good day. Soidhonia

Thanks however I'm not new to the forums i've been here since 2004...

I know it is ptsd related, but since my current pdoc of over 10+ yrs hasnt really helped me with it i'd like a second opinon, get another doc all together as I've been unable to get to see her on a regular basis....

So it's something to look into when i see her on Tuesday which will likely be my final appt with her.

Hi sundance!!! Long time no chat!

I hate those kind of dreams

Pdocs don't usually help in these matters...anyway, from what I know. But at least they don't push the patient into discovering..but allow it to happen.

I would caution you to go slowly still on this. But that it keeps coming back up means, to me, that you are ready to deal with more of it???

Usually whatever the dream feels like it means to the dreamer, is pretty much what it is. Trauma related dreaming can be harder though. My T has always helped me with mine.

Have you tried to learn lucid dreaming? It's becoming aware IRL that you are dreaming, without waking, and changing the dream to a better outcome. Sometimes while in the dream, you have a better way of understanding it to... but I've been working on lucid dreaming for many years and still don't have it down to a science

From what I learned, the brain is trying to file this memory away... and needs your help to do so. It will keep shifting some of the aspects of the dream to try and do this. That this dream began as a child, try and think the way you did as a child. Some images and things might be misconstrued, as a child might see them?

IDK if I can help, but will if you think you need it...

For me, it's been easier having "made up" nightmares than dealing with whatever is on my plate at the moment; some part of me knows it's not real whereas when I start messing with real problems that are harder to solve or get to go away it can be frustrating and make me lose hope. But when I was 20 I faced the fact that they weren't real and decided to get rid of them (and couldn't) and that's how I got into therapy. Over the years (I'm 56 now) things shifted and changed and eventually all came out so it's "quiet" now, no untoward thoughts, daydreams, daymares :-)

It sucks beause the "daymares" are things that never occured, I can see them as clear as day whether my eyes are closed or if i'm for instance staring at this screen.

I do have r#ape dreams here and there etc, but nothing as vivid as when i'm awake. Sometimes it seems that the person isn't even me.

i've had to tell myself literally to STOP or shake my head.
When they happen at night while in bed if my bf makes a noise it will go away, but then come back again when its quiet.
I've changed the out come before, not always able though only done it a couple of times. But it doesn't stop it.