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Old Jul 27, 2004, 01:48 AM
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I was married for several years. He was an abusive man. I hate going to sleep, I try to avoid it. Ha, not that easy. I have nightmare after nightmare. I will never get him out of my life, we have two kids together. I also just lost a baby and it plays in my mind over and over again. What does someone do to get over this. I don't think I pity myself but I do feel remorse for what has happened to my family. It hurts to much.
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Old Jul 27, 2004, 10:20 AM
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Welcome to the site.

PTSD is tough to deal with and usually requires the help of an expert.

Try changing things around so you know in your mind and your eyes that things are different.

Try sleeping in a different room, bed, sofa, lighting, sounds, coolness etc. Seek MD meds for night time sleep.

Talk with a T about how things are NOT the same and how it isn't happening NOW.

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Old Jul 29, 2004, 06:37 PM
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You've been through a lot, and to carry that load you might need some help.

Talking to a counselor sounds to me like a good idea. You could get help from a support group, or from therapy.

And, we can also be a source of support to you. Talk, talk, talk. We're here to listen.

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Old Jul 29, 2004, 09:11 PM
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It takes a lot of time to get over so much. I have a lot more time to think about everything with myself, too. It's harder when you have kids with someone who hurt you. I am still fighting that life. It's very hard. I want him out of my life, but it's impossible because of the kids. I think that you do pity yourself. I think I do it, too. I think it's like separating ourselves from the hurt in a way. To keep ourselves from hurting, we want to shield and protect those we love from the hurt that we already feel. Only time, therapy and our dedication to doing better will help get over this. {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{itsjustme}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}

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Old Aug 01, 2004, 02:13 PM
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This is how I started to live again. I felt exactly how you felt, I was plauged with PTSD , nightmares, body memories, triggers, 'daydreams' etc.. the whole works, I was confused and didn't know what to do. I was in an abusive relationship at 16 that lasted 11 months, he sexually assaulted and abused me, as well as mentally, verbally, physically, emotionally and mentally. After him I was sexually assaulted and or harrassed and threatened but 8 other guys after that all between the years of 1996-2001.

When I started to realize that this wasn't going away I told my psychiatrist, talking about it was the best thing to do, understanding it, learning how to cope with it, I had to stop being in denial about alot of things, I was stuck in the past and couldn't get out, he controlled me even though I haven't seen him in years, or talked to him, and the other 8 as well. Sometimes like this does not go away, it follows you wherever you go, sometimes PTSD suffers don't get symptoms or memories until years later... but it always does come back... I was already seeing a psychiatrist for GAD and Depression, I Was diagnosed with PTSD and was shocked, I thought that what happened to me wasn't as bad as most people. But it affected me non the less. I lived with the fear, guilt and shame, always blaming myself. What the turned point for me was that I had to change the way I was thinking, I was a victim, but I turned that around and instead of be stuck in the past living it everyday I learned to Regret that it happened. That was literally my turning point and that happened about 3 or 4 months ago now. Regret that it happened you are able to let it go, literally. That was the best thing I could have done.

Therapy helps and is the best thing to do when you have been abused, talking about it helps a great deal. Even if you start to remember certain things, or get flashbacks it is a part of healing... It's scary, I was terrified, I would be triggered at least once everyday, but it's part of the healing process. I also bought some self-help books on trauma and PTSD and that helped.

I wouldn't get flashbacks like seeing a movie, but in body memories and that was the most confusing I didn't understand it. But the more I talked, the more I wrote down triggers and brought them into every session it got easier.

Like I said when I learned to REGRET that it happened instead of putting blame on myself that it was my fault that all that stuff happened to me it literally freed me.

I have been PTSD free for about 2 months now ... Still seeing my psychiatrist, the same one after 8 years... I still get triggered but it doesn't scare me anymore. I know I'm safe and for me I guess it's a bit different because I never had kids with any of my Perps, still don't i'm 24 now and in 2001 was the last time anyone hurt me. I met my now BF of 3 years and know that I'm in a better place and that there is a life after what happened to me. Now I live a wonderful life.

I probably will always live with the fact that all that stuff happened to me, still get triggers but I deal with them as they come.

That's how I got help for my abuse issues and assault issues. Getting help from a professional is the best bet, you cannot go wrong with that. And the sooner that you talk to someone the easier it will get.

There is hope out there for anyone and everyone, look at me now. I'm free!

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Old Aug 01, 2004, 11:00 PM
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(((((sundance))))))))) That was beautiful. Oh my; it sent chills down my spine. I could relate very much to what you wrote. I am sorry that you have gone through what you have but you should be PROUD of your acheivments. You are amazing and I thank you for sharing this with us. Keep up the good work and thank you for the encouragment.
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Old Aug 02, 2004, 11:02 AM
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Thank you for the encouraging words, I have been through alot, but I can't allow that to take over my life any longer, when my psychaitrist told me to regret that this stuff happened it was a the icing on the cake and since then my nightmares were gone, my body memories were less as well as my triggers and 'daydreams' Even though I had one really bad 'daydream' in the car 2 days ago, but I wrote it down and I am going to bring it into my next session.


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Old Aug 02, 2004, 11:10 AM
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It was really neat to read your story, Sundance.

Mine is somewhat similar... I also have had huge success through therapy and recognizing triggers, etc. I really do believe there is hope for everyone, although it requires boatloads of patience and determination.

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Old Aug 02, 2004, 11:46 AM
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I agree with you mandala.

For me it took me 8 years to not have PTSD anymore, triggers still come at me from time to time, sometimes new ones, but now I write them down, all the info and always bring it into my sessions when they do happens so I can target them on the spot.

There definatly is hope out there for anyone and everyone, and you are right it does take alot of paitents and determination....the road to recovery is not easy, it's long and bumpy... and sometimes discouraging, but you got to keep going forward no matter what even if there are walls, you got to knock them down.

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