Grrr

Little bit of a rant.



My friends know I have PTSD. They know I don't like to talk about it. So we don't talk about it. They're my friends and it would be weird to talk about it with them.
But that doesn't mean they should pretend I don't have it.

They must try to think of each and every one of my triggers and somehow incorporate it into conversation Maybe I'm invisible and so is my suffering and that can't see how badly they're triggering me, or I don't matter enough to not be triggered so often.

Last night I was trembling, I couldn't talk, I was hearing my dad's voice again and I could feel it. I was freaking out. So what does my friend say?



He laughs and says 'Vince, man, you look really stupid right now! Take a chill pill!". I wanted to yell and scream but I had to stay silent.

And on the rare occasion they notice how badly I'm suffering, they pester me with questions. They won't stop asking questions. Do they really think the best time for me to answer questions I don't want to answer in the first place is when I'm reliving all of this in my head?


How can they blow it off like that. They don't care that they trigger me. I've even told them to change what they're talking about when I'm around and they always just laugh. When they're mad at me for whatever reason they take low shots at me and make insults making fun of my trauma. The only time they register that I have PTSD is when it comes time to insult me

I don't like myself very much but I think I deserve a little better then this But who am I kidding? I've always been treated like dirt. People are such idiots in real life. Can't I get a LITTLE bit of peace? It's far too much to ask for it would seem As if I don't get enough nightmares and flashbacks as it is.

Good Morning Griffe...

I am sorry you are feeling this isolated. It sometimes comes with the territory. Compassion is a feeling born from exposure. When we suffer we understand suffering.

Some folks suffer little and live compliant somewhat superficial lives...That's OK,,that too is part of natures plan.

Then there is the simple concept of being polite. Politeness, along with the immortal concept of duty is following the ice caps I'm afraid. It is sad when people become so self centered that they no longer consider the value of anothers feelings in the creation and substance of their own universes. That is true isolation.

Try to be assured that your feelings are like roots,,sometimes the lack of water(compassion) only makes them grow deeper and stronger...

Yours are...

IMHO.

Lenny

I think your frieds are disgusting bad %#@&#! ups who don`t deserve your company

Try to spend less time with them and find new friends.

Have you ever tried a support group for people with PTSD? Maybe there you could make some friends who understand you.
I am lucky not to have PTSD myself but i but if i were them i would do the best i can to aviod triggering you!

((((((Griffe))))))

i'm sorry you're friends are treating you like this.

you DO deserve better!

maybe it's time to think about getting some new friends?

maybe a good place to start would be a ptsd support group as they will all understand with having it themselves.

please think about it for your own sake, you deserve it.

TY everyone.

Honestly support groups scare me I'm scared I'll freeze up and not be able to talk or make a fool out of myself or something. I could try looking into it though, and maybe even drag one of my nice friends along with me. Not all my friends are mean.

Any of you in support groups for PTSD?

A mean 'friend' called earlier and yelled at me He's still blaming me for a guy who used to be a mutual friend between us getting reported. I get abused by him and so this guy calls me and apparently thinks I deserve to have his anger shoved in my face He says I cost him a friend. How could he want to be friends with someone who hurt me?


This little dude gets how I feel very well. Better then my own friends do!

I won't bog all you guys down with all the stupid drama in my life, but thanks for being here.

((((Griffe))))

you have never bogged us down with anything...this is a support site and we're all here to support each other...and you do your fare share of supporting too...so please NEVER feel like you are bogging us down...true friends take the ups and the downs, the good and the bad.

to answer you're question...i've never been to a support group specifically for ptsd...i've been to mental health support groups where it's like a social club. we all got together to play pool, cards, talk and we all learned as we went along about each others problems so we could support each other.

and as for this "friend"...can you change your phone number so he can't abuse you like that? just a suggestion, sorry if it's a silly one.

and please...DO keep posting, we like helping and supporting you as much as when we like it when you help and support us.

also please remember....TRUE friendship is a two-way street.

(((((((((((((((((( Griffe )))))))))))))))))))))))

I am sorry that you have been treated so poorly, you deserve much better.

Sorry to post again. I really hate posting this much but no one else to talk to. Today lots of people must hate me because it's been an awful day for triggers.

I was chatting to a mate on Yahoo who was trying to get my attention and I told him and never to buzz me (it says **Buzz** in big red letters and shakes your conversation window).

He asked why not, and I said it's very scary for me and will trigger my PTSD so please don't So what does he do?

He says "LOL how can that bother you?" and goes on to keep buzzing me I was taking time to talk to this friend who wanted advice and this is how he treats me. He wouldn't take me seriously.

Now I'm scared and feeling shaky and unable to distract myself very well. Right after he got bored of buzzing me I asked him why he did that and he said it was funny, said I shouldn't be mad, and I'm way too uptight.

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if you change the inviroment on yahoo for this person your buzz wont be the same they are diferant the fallling heart one kisses the screen and so on hopefully you will find one that is better for you

i thinking your friends are thinking of themselves more than you

I changed the buzz sound and made it so it won't shake my screen, thanks.

I feel silly for getting triggered for something silly like that It just feels like people go out of their way to trigger me sometimes.

I can never get any support from my friends and I offer them so much I know it's my fault for not talking about it much but I hate keeping it all in sometimes.

Now I'm getting scared and I keep checking to make sure my door is locked and glancing over my shoulder every few seconds. If I sleep tonight I'll be plagued with nightmares

(((((((((((( Griffe )))))))))))))

((((( Fuzzy )))))

Mean friend called me early this morning because he is still mad at me. He is mad at me because I was abused. How can he be mad at me for that It was bad enough to have nightmares.

May is over soon. June was my dad's Birthday and Father's Day. I hate June. It's like a storm I can try to prepare for but it hits worse every year

(((((((((((Griffe)))))))))))

I'm sorry that these supposed "friends" are such jerks. You deserve better, and if they are that cruel and that mean you should take them out of your life. I had to do the same with some friends irl that didn't understand how extreme my anxiety is and how it wasn't funny for them to trigger it.

This guy has no right to call you and be mad at you over that jerk that did such horrible things to you..I wouldn't answer his calls anymore. I understand how you feel..my mom just doesn't get that I don't want to talk about the car accident and yet she brings it up all the time, espically when we are in the car, which just makes me shut down and kind of float off into my own little world.

I hope things get better and I'm always here if you want to talk. And Griffe you should like yourself you are an awesome and caring person.


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griffe my advice at moment is distance yourself from these so called friends
get a caller id for your phone so you know who is ringing you only answer those calls you feel safe answering

if they ask tell them that at the moment they are not making you feel safe like friends should so you would rather not see them

ppl that have never experinced any of the things we do dont always understand but a friend should try
stay safe

Decided I'm not going to pick the phone up today if any of my mean friends call.
Not going to talk to them on any chat programs either.
One of them was terrible to me last night so I'm not gonna be baited into one of their traps again Flashbacks were so awful last night. So vivid. I hate this

Don't mind me for a minute while I express through emotion icons.

((((((((((((( Griffe )))))))))))))


at the "friends"

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use as many icons as u want

(((Griffe)))

We are all here for you..it is always safe for you to express your emotions here.


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I so understand where your coming from with the triggers. I'm not understanding how your calling these mean people friends.

June is a hard month for me too. I was abused by my Dad and his birthday is June 5th. He's no longer on earth.

Take care. ((((Griffe))))