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![]() ![]() thanks so much for your post, my T is trying to get me to think about the same things & I don't know how to begin. She says that having compassion for others begins with having compassion for yourself; but this makes no sense to me. I feel that I am compassionate towards others - I even remember others telling me so - but for myself, no. For others I can make excuses; for myself I know the facts. It hurts to know what I really am, & what my past is, but how could one ever change it. ![]() |
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in the end he said if you said the things you are saying aobut yourself to a friend woudl you stil have the freind? i said no - he said would you say that to a friend I said no - then why say it to yourself ? ( I hate it when he uses common sense to show me I am wrong
![]() ![]() ((((P7))))) Oh boy do I know this sentence from my t. How we treat ourselves? Its sad b/c why is there so much hate and anger and what the heck did we do wrong? When I have such strong SI impulses sometimes I tell myself what did I do so wrong to want to hurt myself so badly? Would I do that to someone I love? Why cant I love myself more? ![]() You so deserve all good things and to be happy and loved ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() |
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![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() what you really are is a kind person a caring person a wise person - but someone who was hurt by others and who blames herself when if there is blame it should be on them -
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((((P7))))) Oh boy do I know this sentence from my t. How we treat ourselves? Its sad b/c why is there so much hate and anger and what the heck did we do wrong? we listened when they told us we were bad and we still le tthe voices talk to us - we have to learn not to - we have to listen to ourselves an not the voices formthe past. ![]() ![]() When I have such strong SI impulses sometimes I tell myself what did I do so wrong to want to hurt myself so badly? Would I do that to someone I love? Why cant I love myself more? ![]() see answer above lol its hard ot love yourself when you ahve hated yourself for so long... but we have to learnt to do that - its hard but we can do it and we have to learn to belive that we were not at fualt that children are not to blame for what adults do to them.... You so deserve all good things and to be happy and loved (end quote) and so do you ![]() ![]() ![]()
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts ![]() its how many times you get back up! ![]() ![]() (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture ![]() When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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I've heard a little about 12-step programs from friends, though I've never been in one myself. I understand that one of the steps involves making amends to anyone you've harmed. By any chance does that sound like a possible way of getting over your past? -------------------------------- Dear Sir: My conscience has been bothering me so here's $100 that I stole from you. If my conscience still bothers me I'll send the rest. |
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Im not at fault and neither are you and we were hurt as children. And we were very sad children that shut down at some point. But I still feel like I am that hurt child and it takes such mental energy, effort and restraint not to act out and tell myself I DO love that hurt, crying little child who wants so so badly to be happy and have a peaceful life. ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() |
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I've always found it harder, myself, to stop believing something that isn't so if I "know intellectually" that it should be so. |
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FoolZero- Do you mean you feel its harder if you have to try to act your way out of it? As opposed to really feeling that way? |
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It hurts to know what I really am, & what my past is, but how could one ever change it.
![]() SAWE- I also wonder the same thing. I think it is that we wont ever change it. Never. Childhood is over. But we can have something else, maybe something better and heal the wounds enough to be...whatever....happy? You are a very compassionate person. You always have the most compassionate things to say to other people here. But if you had compassion for yourself you might have even more of an internal feeling of understanding for others. Thats the idea. I also have little compassion for myself in some things. But I feel so much for others, especially for my children. As if I listen to the terrible things I tell myself but Id never believe it about someone I care about or let them say those things about themselves. ![]() |
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I don't see it as invalidating. You're not claiming you aren't miserable and never were; you're just discovering that you also have the choice of being happy. I've discovered that I often feel two or more ways about something -- I may both love someone and hate them, for instance. Not only isn't it confusing for me (any more! lol) but I'm satisfied that I get a bigger and more accurate "picture" that way of what's really going on. The few borderline people that I've discussed this with, though, have said they couldn't see doing that; it seemed impossible to them. I've noticed some of them bouncing from one extreme to the other, never comfortable with either. Back to what I was saying earlier: it would be entirely different if instead of "pretending" to be happy (and so discovering that you really were), you were to argue that you had everything you needed so rationally you "should" be happy. That would be invalidating, and would most likely leave you stuck wondering why you had trouble feeling happy. I guess what I started out saying was that "knowing something intellectually" tends to get in the way of knowing whether it's true in my experience or not. |
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hmmmmm sorry - think i got into child mode lol ![]() so the short answer is yes - my logical adult mind understand s and agrees wiht T ![]() and my emotional mind says ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() no wonder im confused!
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts ![]() its how many times you get back up! ![]() ![]() (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture ![]() When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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![]() dunno......... fuzzy headed lol - theres a change! ![]() ![]() ![]()
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts ![]() its how many times you get back up! ![]() ![]() (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture ![]() When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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I recommend being the observer and taking both with a grain of salt.
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will need more than a grain of salt .....lol
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Its not how many times you fall down that counts ![]() its how many times you get back up! ![]() ![]() (Thanks to fenrir for my Picture ![]() When you have come to the edge of all light that you know and are about to drop off into the darkness of the unknown, Faith is knowing One of two things will happen: There will be something solid to stand on or you will be taught to fly. by Patrick Overton, author and poet |
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