Oops..I had an accident...

I had issues with this as a kid, and even then it ruined my entire life. Because of the sexual abuse I had horrible issues with having to feel like I had to pee and would want to get rid of it as quickly as possible. I also wet the bed a lot. I was the youngest in my family and got made fun of horribly for this and carried the embarrassment with me until recently when I was able to admit it to my therapist that it was like that growing up.

Lately within the last 6 months while working in trauma I have issues again with being able to hold it, because the very feeling of having to pee makes me panic. I am unsure of why though. As a kid I would get nervous just being naked at all, so I wondered if this was part of it.

TRIGGER::: I also questioned that while being raped as a child if it caused me to urinate, as it can happen in grown women since the bladder is right there and I unknowingly crossed the two.

I have yet to wet the bed at night since I was young. But every once in awhile if I get really nervous about having to pee I just go without trying. I haven't had the guts to tell my T though. He's a young male and I know he wouldn't judge me, but it's just uncomfortable to talk about. But thanks for bringing it up, because it's quite personal.

but I might MISS something fun if I go potty now! (this is what my boys say......)

You need to go potty now Young Lady!

Thanks for sharing your experince with me. Maybe you have a bit of urge incontinence?? Just a thought. I would be embarassed to tell my T if she was a young male too. Luckily she is really supportive but I think that she really wishes that she can help me with it. She is so funny whenever I am with her she always says "Cats, do you need to pee? Maybe you should go try..." -Jesus. I am toilet trained T! It's the nighttime where I gots the issues!

Yay for your Dad!

Hey Sannah, I am not sure what you mean by this...

What I meant is that it seems that you are really embarrassed. Embarrassment is shame. You feel bad about the way you are? So my question was, what do you think it will take for you to accept who you are at this moment? That who you are at this moment is okay?

one thing my boyfriend told me that helped with his bedwetting, is something real simple that I'm not sure if it would help or not. but every night he would clinch his muscles down there and tell himself "i will not wet the bed tonight", and it would help him stay dry. Not sure if it has anything to do with keeping the muscles from relaxing too much. but it worked for him.

It's not anything physical. It didn't start back up until I started processing memories which made me feel more traumatized. We laid off because I couldn't handle the memory processing and the incontinence went away.

Oh that is a hard question to answer!...I am going to have to think about that one for a it before responding to that....

I have also tred thinking that however I haven't been so lucky with that...

I am glad that it went away.

I don't think that who I am right now IS okay even though T tells me different....guess I still need to work at that...

Or maybe it isn't that I am not Okay with who I am at the moment but it is that I don't like WHO I am...Yikes.

Good work PTSD! Keep me posted on your thoughts and work on this.

I told T yesterday that I don't like me. She asked why anyone would like me if I didn't like me. I told her because I am nice and I care. She said exactly. These are things that I need to start to do for myself now...

...If only it were as easy as it sounds. Why is is that it is so easy to take care of others but when it comes to taking care of myself, it is like speaking a foreign language??

Because this is what you know and how you respond. You must have grown up with your needs being neglected and you met the needs of others?

Awareness is the first step, then understanding why you do this and then catching yourself doing it in the moment and choosing a healthier response instead (meeting your needs).


Have these thoughts about yourself helped recently?

You hit the nail on the head Sannah. I seldom got my needs met as a child and I was constantly meeting other people's needs instead.

I wish this would end already!!!

Could you see a specialist with this, or a physiotherapist for women's health and pelvic floor dysfunction? It might be worth going back to the GP and asking them to refer you on.

I already have and everything came back normal. Which is good but still...

My T wants me to tell my boyfriend about my problem so I can quit avoiding it...

you never told him?

What do you think of that?