things are bad again

This stuff has to come out in order for you to move forward. It is going to be a ride, though. Nailing down your supports will help you to get through this. Your supports are your husband , your doctor, your therapist, that human resources woman at your work, us, your friends, etc. You can get through this granite. You survived it the first time and this time you are an adult and you are in a much better situation and it really isn't happening this time.

It sounds like the session stirred things up as you said but hopefully it means you are working through important feelings, even if they are scary and icky. So glad you are resting at home for a few days and that you are feeling a bit better.

Many hugs for you (((granite1)))

I agree with the others that your session stirred up a of feelings that have been sitting around inside of you for years. I can't lie and say it will be easy to talk about them; therapy is very hard. But, "the best way out is through." You CAN do therapy. You and your T will go slowly at your own pace. It's understandable that you feel bad right now, but it WILL get better. Again, to quote my T, it takes time.

(((((((((Granite))))))))))

Just wanted to let you know that I am thinking of you and hope you are feeling better today. Hugs.

god i get no F__ING break at all i am supose to be home relaxing untill monday.this anxiety has caused a lot of physical problems my heart rate is really high causing problems,my BP is 210/99 normal is 120/70.i spent yesterday sleeping and my husband said i was even crying in my sleep.no i get up thismorning in a panic over work.my husband just shakes his head and then my farther calls saying my stepmother is in the hosp.my farther cannot funtion without her around so off i go to be at hosp and deal with my step mother and this horrible man all day max stress.I CANT DEALmore ativan please.when will i be able to rest.i want to feel better before T on monday.at least i only cried twice today and i was able to regain control

(((((((((((Granite))))))))))

I'm so sorry I wasn't able to read/respond to your post earlier. I am glad that you went to the doctor and got help, even though you were scared. That shows so much strength.

It sounds awful that you have had to take care of your dad because your step mom is in the hospital. I'm sorry that he depends on you like that. Remember to breathe. You can do this. You are amazing. I'm so glad that you are safe.

((((Hugs))) Granite, I wish that we both felt better....

What did your doctor say about your BP?

he said it was criticaly high and made me promice i would take all the meds he perscribed and this included a bp med again an i nee to go see my doc on monday

called out of work again for tomorrow i jut cant seem to pull it together enough to do it.i have enough on my plate dealing with my usless farther as my step mother is quite sick and he cant function without her.so much for the doc saying i need to just take it easy try to calm ddown and letr the meds work.i have been taking most of my meds and when i go back to my primary she will deal with the rest.in a way this is kind of a good step for me as far as taking care of me because i havnt been taking my meds for physical problems i have.i have been to scared to go see her.but now hubby says i have no choice.i do believe if i can get a day away from dealing with my farther i may be ok to just rest and get back on track.i dont know i am so scared to go back to work

((((( granite ))))))

I'm sorry you're not able to catch a break. I hope you can find a way to make yourself a priority in all this and get the rest that you need. Your health is important. YOU are important. (( hugs ))

I can very much relate to not wanting to go back to an awful work environment. I have been on disability the last couple months and the idea of going back to that place makes me want to vomit. I hate walking on eggshells and it's been a huge relief to not have to deal with that on top of my severe migraines, etc. Do you think it's possible that you can get on some short term disability for a while?

probibly not without a lot of hassle i just dont want to deal with.thanks for your support MUE i know you are well quainted with rotten work ethics on the part of other people

So what is going on at work?

basically i think because of my behavior and the fact that i complained about some stuff and it caused all kind of drama.they are pushing me out of my department and i freaked again.i dont think it is all work sannah i just seem to be having a huge hard time dealing with life and the stuff at work isnt helping.either way when i am at work these days all i do is cry and i just cant be this way at work and i cant seem to stop.i'm scared ill get pushed over the eadge.