Welcome to couch # 18

Yes - It's just out of character for me.

do you see your T today? so you can talk about whats going on

so whats everyone doing today

No - not until Wednesday.

If I do have a short day at work today I may go to some museums. The weather is perfect.

What are you up to Granite?

i'm going out tonight with hubby and maybe to a scrapbooking store today.other then that not much planned

Morning all....Happy Friday ( except Apt as I know you hate weekends ). I have T at 1 if anyone wants to pocket ride. I am kinda nervous but also ready to get it over with....this will be an interesting session I hope I survive it.

Jersey-Hope your day gets better, would love to hear about the dreams
Healed- Let us know what the Doc says on you and puppy
TB - will your T respond to the email? I'm glad you have no regrets.
Wiki-Sorry you are not feeling well either , I HATE physical pain, hope the mood improves
Apt- congrats on the paper, can we view it online? I love having dinner with new and interesting people. That is awesome!
Granite- Excellent idea for the evening, maybe Ill have date night too...

Enjoy your evening out Granite! I know actually have to get ready for work.

Morning Lola - Have a good day!

lola what ya got planned for T today.

Morning all.
I could spit nails this morning. For the first time ever I wanted to call in sick for a mental health day. After yesterday's t session I just wanted to lay in bed and stare out the window. But, the other full time person in our office wrote down she was off today. That means I had to come in. Well, guess who is here when I arrive? Yup. I am so angry right now I can't even confront her about it. I am going to hide in my office.

I guess it doesn't help that I am still upset about t yesterday too. Ugh.

i'm just trying to accept my last session for what it was.i really connected with my T and it doesnt need to be scarey and it can be ok.i think part of this last downfall hassome to do with her being so suportive with what went on with my aunt.i think it triggered trust stuff .i think i was scared to feel ok about her being that person.i know it sounds stupid but thats todays thought.just trying to be ok with being ok with my T

can you just say you are not feeling well and go home early for the day

I would like to do that, but now that I am here I might as well just tough it out. She'll probably say she was off anyway and take off at noon. That's her typical m.o. We only have two people here full time: me and her. So only one of us can be off each day. Someone has to be here in the afternoon with the volunteer who works our desk. I don't have the energy to bother trying to get her to stay.

Sorry I am such a downer lately.

Hi I'm Psychicbaby323....I'm not invisible....and now again...

I agree Sconnie, call headache and go home.

Granite - I am going to sit at my desk ( contemplating life and wishing I were busy ) until about an hour before T and then I will begin to freak out and debate on a benzo, go into panic attack mood and regret every email I have sent....then 50 minutes later I will drive there , have T and come back to my dungeon and re chain myself to my desk and try to think of why I never followed my dreams and became something other then what I am..... Then take the partner out for drinks, dinner and live music on the patio of our whole foods....

Yup, that's it..... I'm pretty sure that's how its gonna play out.

Always nice to put a face with a name....very pretty young lady and no you are not invisible.

(((hugs))) maybe try and go without the benzo. did you send bunches of e-mails this week? i get the whole why didn't i follow your dreams thing

hey, I actually went in and fell back asleep. I forced myself up because I felt guilty staying in bed. Now I am thinking. "what the hell, just stay in bed"...For many years I stayed in bed because of depression and felt guilty. I don't do that anymore, when I am depressed I mindfully get showered and dressed and leave the house as quickly as possible.

Today isn't depression, it's pain. Overwhelming pain. And I am leaving for Montpelier tonight. I need to do laundry and pack, but I can afford to stay in bed other wise. I still feel guilty though.

don't feel guilty just start your vacation early hanging in bed for a bit isn't that bad especially if you still give yourself time to pack and stuff and it will do your back good.especially if you will be sitting for a long drive tonight. the leaved are beautiful

guess i'm out for now have a good day and goodluck with your session lola and have a good weekend wiki.let yourself relax and enjoy it ok

So, I took ambien last night, as I usually do, and discovered this morning that I sleep-emailed a bunch of friends at 3:00 this morning. I have no idea what I was talking about in the email, but it was actually kind of funny. I must have been dreaming just before I did it.

I need to remove all electronic devices from my bedroom.

Granite- i didn't send a bunch of emails, they were just HONEST ones.... stuff I wouldn't have said to his face...

Wiki - Don't feel guilty, your just being kind to yourself....enjoy your vacation

Critter - I am thinking of switching to ambien from Lunesta, as Lunesta makes me talk and sit up and punch things in my sleep....so now I'm thinking Ambien would be worse, thanks for the heads up. Im glad you found humor in them...LOL

I need to flip to excited. three nights in an antique inn with a fireplace and modern bath in my room, on peak foliage weekend in a Montpelier (a vegan's dream).

Be happy Wiki...stop whining!!! Dumb *****.

Take lotsa pics, I am sooo jealous!