The Couch! #21

NO kitty! That's a Bad Kitty! (ala Cartman)
Kitty hauled the ribs off the stove and stuck them in her food dish.

Oh my! That is a bad kitty in deed!

Yes. But I did laugh that she put them in her food dish. Kind of like, "Now these are mine. They are in my dish."

Wow. Is the couch deserted.
Anyone... Bueller.... Bueller...

I was too busy hustling and bustling trying to straighten up before the cleaners come Wednesday. There are now 10 trash bags of giveaway stuff and 2 bags of "try to sell to Plato's Closet".

Now I am tired and my back hurts.

Every time I say my back hurts, I think of that Snickers commercial from a last year's Super Bowl with Roseanne, "My back hurts. *Boom* Now my front hurts."

I simply CANNOT handle one more email from my mother tonight. I will not do it. She can take her guilt and shove it up her a s s.

Chopin - it sounds like you accomplished a lot!
Pbutton

Now I am abandoning the couch for the night. Melatonin kicking in....

Anyone left?

Sorry I missed you Jersey (and Sconnie and Pbutton). Pbutton, I'm sorry about your mom emailing. You are right, her guilt (or shame) is hers alone to own. I know it's still hard though. Breathe, or kick something if it makes you feel better.

I got a second wind and straightened up some more. The main things left to do are to clean the birdcage (and the bird himself), finish the laundry, and remove all the curtains from the windows. At least we know tomorrow night, if we have to stay up all night to finish, we can, but I don't anticipate it. Neither of us are working Wednesday.

I have T tomorrow afternoon at 4:00, don't know exactly how that's going to go down with doing the shame exercises, but we'll see. As each "topic" comes up, certain ones are going to be really hard and embarrassing for me to talk about. I hope I can. At least I get to ease into it a bit; the first area is appearance and body image. I don't really have a problem with how I look except that I think I'm currently carrying too much weight in my stomach.

I hope everyone has a great night/day depending on what part of this wonderful world you live in.

I'm still hurting. I don't want to go to T like this.

Hi folks!

OK what a night .it's a bad one .you ever have those kind of horrible feelings that hit like a ton of bricks out of no place .it is like things coming from the past attacking me.memories and racing thoughts. times in the past when things happened but you were OK felt nothing hid in your head but then tonight it is like all the emotions are there .all the stuff your body didn't feel, terror,rage,pain all kinds of stuff hitting me like a ton of bricks.it makes it hard to breathe and sleep. i hate to feel this way and don't understand ware it comes from . it is like i will feel the crap from the past.how the heck do you stop that kind of thing from happening.these are things i don't want to feel at all.i wish i could explain better what is going on.thought process tonightgoing to bed thinking about what i should talk about in Tstart to think about some stuff T said1 about how children are not born hating people.
it goes to knowing i was and how i just wanted nothing to do with people and how i loved and also hated the mother.in a way a totally Benin subject i am aware of this and have somewhat talked to my T and know it is an issue.but then i think about how detached i was to the world..how a good feeling that was ,what a welcome feeling that was.and what was wrong with that,then i guess my thoughts moved to times this were true or something like when the mother was beating me for something or other .or when i was at school and i didn't want to talk to anyone.it wasn't the memories that bothered me.they are always there.it is like i am experiencing the feelings of being in a dissociative state.i know i am not explaining it all very well but it is completely distressing .i don't know how to stop it when these things happen

((((granite))))
You are in my thoughts.

Chopin - I have to ask, how do you clean a bird? (I know nothing about birds).
Apt and Granite

Breakfast today is yogurt with strawberries and a homemade bran muffin. Lunch is tuna salad on homemade bread, coleslaw, and an apple. (Too much mayo in that lunch.) Dinner will be a crustless swiss chard quiche and some leftover taters that will likely become hashbrowns or potato pancakes.

T has very short nails.

I sent T a text after today's session, asking about the medication he'd mentioned. Got a short and factual response, which for some reason made me feel a little better.

((Apteryx))

((granite))

rainbow, riding in your pocket for your session today.

Where has Lola been the past 2 days? Lola?

Just spray with water. Once he's wet, he will clean himself (I wish he would clean his cage too, but like a typical male, he doesn't care much about his surroundings!

Was up early helping H with dress for his interview today. I really hope he gets this promotion; I think it will help with his burnout if he does.

The owner of the cleaning service called and confirmed for tomorrow (squee!).

My snaky coworker called me and talked to me for 20 freaking minutes about work. She won't be in today because she's sick (yay). So my day will be quiet until I go to T.

Have a great day everyone!!

Keep swwing this thread and wanting ti post but was not sure of what the topic or theme is. can some one help me?

There is no theme...talk about anything you want!

There's Lola. Throwing hugs around. I see you Lola.

Hi I am here, laying low...trouble on the home front.

granite, did you post about what the mother said when she called? how's her effin arm?

it was no big deal we had a chemical bomb scare here and she was just calling to get info about it .that is all