Welcome to couch number 23!

I can't draw a straight line either, but there are no straight lines in nature so I don't worry ;P

https://www.dropbox.com/s/dij2at7omw...0art%20fin.png

Drew this last week and finished coloring it a couple days ago. T loved it and said it was wonderful. Big me comforting little me...since I never have before. Always pushed her aside and ignored her needs.

If it was a good session why would you want to cancel the next session? Write down where you ended today and then journal this week. You can do this and then, pick up where you left off next week.... I like to continue on the same train of thought from session to session too.

i like it

Artemis Im gonna have write a haiku now.

Sila that is beautiful, good job....what medium is it?

Hankster, you kiss your T?

SD Top of the morning to ya!

Sconnie, Bravo on the letter....

Chopin....get to work!

Granite, I will so pocket ride tomorrow.

Happy 100 birthday Lucille Ball (RIP)

It's mixed. I originally sketched it in my sketchbook, but I scanned it and then did the rest digitally. I use a tablet on the computer.

I like to draw on the ipad

Different kind of tablet Lola. x3 This is what I use, hooked up to the computer so I can draw stuff in photoshop n stuff. x3

I'm oddly fascinated by the background drums of this song. Wow, that was odd. XD

I've written and erased half a dozen posts. It was not a bad appointment, it was good and constructive and led somewhere, but something happened when there was about five minutes left that sent me spinning off into the void. I managed to get a grip and finished the appointment in a constructive way and all that, but I'm really frightened about what will happen next week. And the longer I wait the more worried I'll get, cos I am like that. (I know I'm not the only one.)

In conclusion: Gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

You can share here if you like or PM me if you need to talk or are looking for a second opinion on your response to the "something" that happened.... We are here for you

Thanks, Lola. I have to leave in 15 minutes for dinner, and must change my clothes and get some more work done before then. I'll PM you later tonight.

I know how you feel Apt. I had that happen 2 weeks ago. All was good and productive until the end when I hit a flashback for the first time in years, and completely zoned out on what my T was trying to say. I regained myself and was fine, but it left me scared for the next appt. The next appt was nice though, I told her about it and she was very comforting and understanding.
I understand the fear. I understand the over analyzing, the obsessing, the worrying. I'm there, I've been there, I'm still going to be there for a while. Feel free to PM me if you need a shoulder to lean on, or an ear to rant to. You've helped me, I'd be more than happy to try and help you as well if I could.

Sitting in T's waiting room. She is never on time.

I prefer to call it fashionably late, as to make a statement as I am SO NOT PUNCTUAL.

Ugh panic panic panic. Dr appt in an hour. Ipod not charged. Totally not ready. Must remember 'My dr is nice, no need to worry' but can't calm down. ugh. -scurries around to get stuff ready and charges ipod in the meantime-

Sorry I haven't been lounging on the couch, my friends....

I've been feverishly working on rehearsing for my show....Forgot to mention that last night, I ended up having a panic attack, hyperventilating in class while waiting for my turn to be called up. Talk about embarrassing. I tried to get through it without being noticed (I sit towards the back of the class)...but my teacher noticed.

He ended up taking an intermission before calling me up and asked me - in front of the class - what was wrong. I was honest with the class but was mortified that I was put on the spot.

He kept telling me to get rid of the fear...and to have fun with it...and gave me some tips on how to practice. Yeah, that helped. Not. LOL.

I know that I need to keep practicing so that I can perfect my routine....AND I need to practice in front of an audience so I can work on my fear....I have less than 4 days. I am going to succeed, dammit....

((( Sila )))

Hope your appointment goes well. I totally understand the concept of panicking and trying to convince myself not to panic. My T tells me that he doesn't think anyone decides to panic...but it's something we can control. Easier said than done.

Last time I had a panic attack in his office, we concentrated on breathing through my nose....noticing the colder air while inhaling through my nose, and the warmer air while exhaling through my nose....and how it ultimately slows down the heart, etc.

It's difficult to do when you're overwhelmed with anxiety....(( HUGS ))

My t has suggested that to me as well. It's hard to settle the mind when there's a bunch of thigns going on. Possibly ultrasound results back...checking for pcos essentially. wish i had my ipod fully charged, bf forgot to charge it. I have nothing to read or listen to now.

So not punctual either. Made it to work by 11:45. Got stuck in traffic because there was a wreck near the bridge I have to traverse to get to work. Now that I'm here, everyone is about to lose their collective minds. We had a client choke last night and he's going to have an emergency dilation in a couple of hours. A staff (who is sending text messages to management staff talking about herself in the 3rd person) jumped away from the client when he choked. Another staff had to run around the table to get to him to do the Heimlich maneuver.

I could possibly scream and/or tear my hair out right now. Frustration has set in with the pouring rain.

whats up chopin

i also had strange dreams last night. i was back in that residential place but i had not been there because i ran away .but i showed up one day and my Foster mother who was my councilor before that was there but she was horribly angry at me and would not speak to me it made me feel so bad

Off to T....

((( Chopin )))

((( granite )))

Jersey, Lola - Hope your T appts. go well.

granite: Your former T sounds interesting. Why do you think you're thinking about her now? You had an excellent session last week. Try not to be scared.

I have about an hour before I see T. My stomach is getting jumpy.