Dear T: I need to tell you something, but I don't know how Part VI

likelife · May 28, 2013, 06:49 PM

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Originally Posted by MdngtRain

I'm afraid I have pushed your limits. I'm sorry I am a bother. Do you see what I mean about my mom? I don't know if I'm ready for change, because I feel like I need more support through it, but I don't feel like I can ask you for it... please hate me? It would make this all much easier. Please yell at me and be everything I fear/expect so I can affirm all the fears in my head... I really am that broken.

I'm sorry you feel like this. I could have written your post. It's okay to ask for help. The answer might sometimes be no (but people tell me that's not a catastrophic thing). Hugs.

0w6c379 · May 28, 2013, 08:51 PM

Things are not good between us but thank you for calming me down tonight. I think I'll be able to sleep now. I'm so tired.

pbutton · May 28, 2013, 09:01 PM

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Originally Posted by pbutton

Dear T,

I am sorry I emailed you. I am also sorry I ever told you anything. No, you didn't do anything WRONG, I just prefer not to share things with people. It's the best way I know to keep myself from feeling annoying, overbearing, and clingy.

Not sure why I sent today's email after feeling pretty stupid about the email last week. I won't continue to compound the error by sending any more emails. I promise I am done. You shouldn't have to deal with that.

Please forget anything I've ever said. I don't want to talk to you or pdoc anymore. I'm happier on my own. Thanks.

Dear T,

Not quite sure how you picked up on this Dear T letter when we did not discuss it AT ALL. But thanks for telling me to email right as I left today. You crazy mind-reading perfect T from hell.

tooski · May 28, 2013, 09:26 PM

Surrender is so sweet. I never knew.

ThisWayOut · May 28, 2013, 09:53 PM

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Originally Posted by pbutton

Dear T,

I am sorry I emailed you. I am also sorry I ever told you anything. No, you didn't do anything WRONG, I just prefer not to share things with people. It's the best way I know to keep myself from feeling annoying, overbearing, and clingy.

Not sure why I sent today's email after feeling pretty stupid about the email last week. I won't continue to compound the error by sending any more emails. I promise I am done. You shouldn't have to deal with that.

Please forget anything I've ever said. I don't want to talk to you or pdoc anymore. I'm happier on my own. Thanks.

I could have written that. I'm glad your T figured you out... I wish mine would figure me out...

mixedup_emotions · May 28, 2013, 09:55 PM

F-U, T.

That is all.

refika · May 28, 2013, 10:00 PM

Dear T,

Get the F out of my F'ing Head!!! If I wanted you in there, I would invite you in...

May 29, 2013, 12:21 AM

Today I AM going to tell you about the cloud thing, if I don't chicken out.

tigerlily84 · May 29, 2013, 01:52 AM

Dear T,

I was so mad at you, but I'm glad that you listened to my concerns and my fears. Thank you for that. I'm glad that I made you proud of me for reaching out for help when I needed it.

Willowleaf · May 29, 2013, 03:03 AM

Dear t
Please help me learn to cope with these feelings of complete despair. We both know it is only my children that keep me going. As you once said maybe I had them for a reason. Is it too much to want more out of life. I keep trying to get out more to make my real life better but it just seems like I am going through the motions. Seeing friends is just another chore to tick off list. I want you to be able to help me but I don't see how you can

HealingTimes · May 29, 2013, 03:11 AM

Dear T.
Thanks for the extra session today, i am glad you could fit me in. Sometimes your patience and empathy for me makes me angry and annoys me. I don't know why, maybe we can work it out together?
I feel like i don't deserve your niceness, and that it's wasted on me, and i wan't you to collude with the beliefs i have about myself, that i am a horrible nasty person. When you don't collude with those beliefs, it makes me feel uncomfortable.

I think i am going to write this out and take it to our session this afternoon.

likelife · May 29, 2013, 06:12 AM

But you frowned like thunder and you went away.

precious things · May 29, 2013, 06:37 AM

You are the most supportive therapist I've ever had. I may not always feel this way towards you, but I know that you are just a decent human being all around. Thank you for not giving up on me.

tinyrabbit · May 29, 2013, 06:55 AM

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Originally Posted by HealingTimes

Dear T.
Thanks for the extra session today, i am glad you could fit me in. Sometimes your patience and empathy for me makes me angry and annoys me. I don't know why, maybe we can work it out together?
I feel like i don't deserve your niceness, and that it's wasted on me, and i wan't you to collude with the beliefs i have about myself, that i am a horrible nasty person. When you don't collude with those beliefs, it makes me feel uncomfortable.

I think i am going to write this out and take it to our session this afternoon.

I have this exact problem. My T says I don't have anywhere to put him caring for me. Sounds like it's the same for you.

I identify with so much of what you say...

HealingTimes · May 29, 2013, 10:57 AM

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Originally Posted by tinyrabbit

I have this exact problem. My T says I don't have anywhere to put him caring for me. Sounds like it's the same for you.

I identify with so much of what you say...

Thanks Tiny

It's nice that someone else 'gets it', although i would not wish that upon you.
Just had a FAB session (will be posting a thread about it)!
HT.

jkbob · May 29, 2013, 11:22 AM

Please don't think I'm crazy or overly needy because I left you 3 messages. I needed to get all of that out and I kept getting cut off and I know my thoughts weren't all neatly packaged and easy to understand and the fact that they were then in 3 separate voicemails probably made me sound even more like a lunatic. Sorry. But I feel better now that I told you

herethennow · May 29, 2013, 11:44 AM

dear T,

we had an okay session today though i guess it was scary telling you those things. that i still struggle with trust due to that event. i'm sorry T, i'm still trying to trust you. i hope you would understand that sometimes i would hold back on things.. hope you'll really understand that.

- htn

healingme4me · May 29, 2013, 01:56 PM

Dear T:

Why on Earth didn't you mention Melatonin?! Huh?!! If my med is for short term use, AM I really, is my life, really in danger?! OMG...Am I at risk?!

slow....growl.....

Me.

likelife · May 29, 2013, 02:14 PM

No, it's ok, you can ignore me. I'll respond to your stupid emails, but you don't need to respond to mine.

~EnlightenMe~ · May 29, 2013, 04:25 PM

I started to email you, but I can't. I feel alone, completely alone.

likelife · May 29, 2013, 05:13 PM

Ah hell, I need to stop.

May 29, 2013, 05:14 PM

Dear T please don't leave me

Freewilled · May 29, 2013, 08:20 PM

Dear T,

I'm anxious about our upcoming session and I'm starting to distance myself again...I think what it comes down to is I'm really vulnerable and easy to break. I need someone who has the patience of a saint, which I guess makes me not very fun to be around. Maybe that's why I don't have any real friends /:

T? I hope you don't hate being around me. Lets face it: I know you have some sort of opinion of me. You're only human, after all.

tigerlily84 · May 29, 2013, 09:59 PM

dear T,

I'm glad that I was able to talk about that event that happened all those years ago. But now I feel exposed and vulnerable... I just want to hide.

confused and dazed · May 29, 2013, 11:51 PM

Dear T,
Why must you remember EVERTHING we have talked about in the last 5 yrs? Could you please forget some of it?

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