Couch 43 ... 1 year !! Thanks for the memories

wiki: I"m glad I didn't see it either. Sometime I think I'm a curse to the Couch. I don't know why. I have feelings. I'm crying. I have DBT now and I'm late. Thanks for your apology.

They exposed us to violence in history in school, but not to looooove as a motivation for stuff. I'm just catching up on it now, with the Tudors, and the Elizabeth movie. And ONJ...

ETA: just wanted to say, I'm kinda mad about it now! The violence was gross, like the ear, whrreas the rest of history doesn't make sense without the love! But I'm not sure how you would teach it to little kids either. But to older kids, maybe they could be more honest.

why are you crying if you didnt even see what was written and you had already said you were glad you didn't see it .i do believe wiki feels bad and it does not need to be hounded. please

on a nicer note thank you for caring rain and now that i know who adel is it is ok i guess. i have read her post and will consiter what she has said

i am glad you and you T are getting along so well

I don't know why I was crying. I cry a lot lately. I think because I'm more in touch with my emotions. That's a GOOD thing. I was NOT hounding wiki. Did it really come across that way? I was stating my feelings at the moment. I was wondering what is wrong with me that turns people off.

I don't want to hurt anyone on PC. We're here for support!

Nothing came across as hounding in my opinion.

Tensions are high; emotions are hot; people are reacting. It feels a lot like reading Lord of the Flies. Lines are drawn

i have a list of 4 T that i am thinking about. but i am terrified to contact them . all of them have an e-mail option so i don't have to call first . i am terrified .i know i wont call tonight but maybe tomorrow

For what it's worth, my life is sucking right now too. No one here or anywhere gives a damn though. T has thrown some major truth in my face.

I won't ever have people love me if I don't take a risk and love them, but nothing/no one has ever given me an indication that vulnerability will be worth it in the end. Today just proves it.

I'm sorry, fixated. What happened today? Do YOU care about yourself? I know that's the key but I haven't quite accomplished it yet. I understand about being vulnerable but there are always people in RL who will care and understand. And plenty of people on PC care. I care.

For some reason, emotions are high today. I don't know if it's the moon or the tides, or what. I noticed I was crying yesterday and this morning and unable to control myself the way I usually do. My daughter was crazy angry at me and crying today and she and I rarely fight. My husband was even weeping yesterday.

I hope everyone is able to collect themselves and know that we all care about each other. I know I really appreciate the support last night and the people who helped me take a moment and get myself together so I didn't kick my husband while he slept.

It's almost friday, it's almost friday!!!

Thanks.

No, I don't care about myself. I hate myself.

My pdoc session today was just ****. She let me know that she wasn't going to be around any longer because of her pregnancy. She also said I need to start looking for a pdoc in community cuz my university only allows like 6 sessions.

I knew she would go on leave due to pregnancy. Wasn't informed of the session limit before today. So she's just giving me all this information about referrals, and I'm just feeling abandoned and alone.

I've only known the woman for 4 session. I am not attached, but it was all I could do not to cry.

fix i care .i really do hun. i know how it feels to think no one cares or gives a crap .but know i for one do

I'm sorry, Fixated. I imagine it feels a bit overwhelming to have to start over with someone new.

Tough session today. We talked about Steubenville case and the flashbacks it provoked.

wiki might be right we need to start a T finding thread so we can all share out T hunting stories it seems a bunch of us are going to be looking

Hola couchies.... I too may be in the market for a new T...

I wish my T had a web site.

Mkac what's clickin?

kiddos are stressing me out, H is stressing me out, some of the parents at school are stressing me out.. I need a good stress buster!

MKAC: Just wondering why you wish your T had a website. I like my T's website but she hasn't updated it since I've been seeing her! It doesn't say that she does SE at all, and it has her old fee of $125. It does have some photos she took, and her outlook on T. It's kind of comforting and at least when I go there, I know I'm not crossing a boundary!

Hey, everyone. Do your T's have websites?

My t's office has a pretty good webiste, complete with pics and bios of most of the Ts in his office. My T in general has a pretty big online presence, both his practice and himself personally.

yeah, what rainbow said. I'm having a rough few days and do not want to cyber stalk him, and was thinking that it would be nice to look at his web site if he had one. I know he's on facebook, but I also know that boundaries are a big deal to me and I will feel worse if I look him up on facebook. At one point my MIL showed me some flyer that one of her NCJW groups had, with his photo on it, because he was one of the speakers. Feeling like a giant needy baby that I wish I'd kept it now.

Now I want to punch myself in the face for admitting that. sigh.

Have you ever met people who are just impossible to please? Like, you do something that they say is alright and then complain about it later? Or think their kids is the only kid in the world that exisits and they could never do any wrong, or omg.. could actually lie or dramatize things? Seriously, they are some of the most exhausting people. And we have them as parents in our class this year. I really wish that they would just pull their kid! Which is too bad, because I LOVE her daugther, she is such a sweetie pie. However, her parent's are pains in the asses!!!!

I think admitting our secrets (at least some of them) and vulnerabilities with others makes us feel closer, and is somewhat healing. I agree about FB. Once you look up your T, it becomes an addiction. Mine never had anything but one photo, and now she doesn't have an account. Her H: that's another story. Thinking about his, and her kids' websites is triggering. I've been good, and haven't gone there again since I told T I wouldn't. It's not worth the guilt and anguish.

Is there a picture of your T on PschologyToday or one of those sites? I know my T's photo is there, and that's not crossing boundaries either.

My T has basically ZERO web presence. He is booked solid just from referrals by clients. Sucks in some ways that he is that good at what he does. LOL.