Couch 48 - All are Welcome - really!

What i need, is a voicepiece that will say what the other person wants to hear, in a way that I can stand to say it. I think I either just a) became a politician and or 2. Sold my soul to the twilight zone.

I vote twilight zone Hank! Im bored and have entirly too many choices.

Hey peeps....back from the game....my niece's team won a very intense game against a team they've never beaten before. Woot woot!

RTS - My T says that it's a subconscious decision, and that by bringing it into our conscious/awareness, we then have the ability to work through it and perhaps change direction. With my self-loathing, T is trying to understand why I am doing this to myself. I didn't think it was a decision I purposely made. It just is. So frustrating.

My daughter ended up going with my sister's family and will be spending the night. So, I am kid free! Of course, I need to make chocolate pretzels for the bake sale tomorrow and do some cleaning/laundry and make some jewelry to fill orders....but I'm hoping to be able to figure out something fun to do for ME too. I ALMOST contacted the agency to tell them that I could now be on-call for today (I originally told them I wasn't available) - BUT since I wouldn't be able to keep any of the money anyway due to unemployment, what's the sense.

My paranormal group is at an event this weekend. I could drive up there, but that wouldn't give me the time I need to get to the other things I need to do today. The pretzels take for-frikken-ever because I don't have a ton of refrigerator space.

Gotta get started...

Wow, I am gone for a few days and the couch gets over 40 pages longer. No way I can catch up on that.

Well, I decided I can't take anymore of the bus driver's crap, so I am trying to see if I can stop riding the bus for the rest of the year and use my sick time (so I still get paid) for the 12 days I would miss. It's only 1.5 hours a day, so that is only 18 hours. I have 152 hours of sick time I can use, so I would be willing to use it for the bus, if I can.

The question is, if I can do this...who do I get to ride the bus? The woman he "hates" just to pss him off? Or the other assistant who is also not on a bus, but lives 45 minutes away from the school? It would be harder for her to get there early to ride the bus. The woman he hates lives 2 blocks away from the school, so she wouldn't have to leave all that much earlier. He'd kill me, but he wouldn't see me again this year, and I can make sure I ride a bus with a different driver next year.

Hopefully, I can use that much sick time for the bus because I need a break from him.

Hey squirrel.....I can certainly understand wanting to take sick time and to get that woman that he hates to ride the bus just to get back at him. I can hear my T saying to me to use this as an opportunity to be direct and assertive by talking to him about his behavior and setting limits on how I expect to be treated.

Yes, my T tells me that I need to be more assertive all the time. It's something I am working on. I'm just not sure it would go well. He's a pretty "agressive" man, reminds me of my father. If I was assertive...he might be agressive (verbally, not physcially) back and then I would fly off the handle bars and become aggressive too. It would not be pretty. Either that, or I would break into tears and sob uncontrolably.

Yes, I'm sure my T would have a lot to say about this. Maybe I should email her before she goes out of town again, since it's a while until my next session due to her being out of town and me not being able to go into work late during exam week. Maybe she can give me ideas on how to be assertive and not be agressive if I am met with agression.

email to T sent...now to wait for a response

Wife is packinh house as we speak...TY for warm weather and a woman cave

Turns out I can probably live anywhere, anyone needs a hot mess of a roomate?

You're still using chemical photography?!

Actually, Ts are never allowed to say that. Confidentiality.

How/why is a Rabbi an expert in all that?

"Build Better Boundaries with God"?

I'm impressed. I didn't think she had the "follow through".

It actually had very little religion in it....way more psychology...

Lola... Do you get any say at all? Or are you just going along with whatever she wants?

Well I got a welcome mat and poison ivy spray and gloves....too windy to spray today...I may have to paint it on leaves when it's close to liliac bush.

Never been around it before...my h got it in his face 2 years ago and blew up like a balloon...had to get prednisone ...I hope I'm not allergic

Hanging out at sam's club... Supposed to head over to Walmart but I might save that trip for tomorrow... I am tired out!!

On the edge of tears today...

MUE wish RL was as easy as PC with friendships....

Healed what's up? Lonely?

Omg commune in Colorado?

I have 2 single women friends who live with 4dogs in Colorado Springs.

They r straight I think and Christians but maybe they need a 3rd to start a commune

One is finishing degree to be a therapist.

LOL...that might be more like a convent then a commune

I'm up for the commune. Already have a dumpster and am cleaning out my house now, so I'll be ready to put down new roots very soon if needed.

Just got back from Iron Man 3 and I enjoyed it very much.

Feeling emotions, t and talked about the rape some more yesterday. Made a life choice, I happy with the decision sad about some stuff I don't get to experience. I will probably write more later when I am home and on my laptop.

Healed you are an inspiration....feeling feelings... I hate that