Couch 48 - All are Welcome - really!

going to get some herbs to plant in my new raised beds .

wiki what is your fav herb????

so i am going to a all day scrapbooking thing tomorrow so i have to decide what i am bringing to work on and print out pic today. it should be fun.

strange thing happened yesterday. i was talking to the person i know who works at my favorite scrapbooking store. she is the one who runs all the classes i go to . anyway i was at a class yesterday and we were talking about stamps and stuff. i said i was going to this stamp show that is going on next saturday. she said she wanted to go also and said that we should meet up and go together .. i know this sounds so childish and all but I'm scared. i don't do going out and about with others well as you all know. i guess you could say that i am OK and we are kind of friends with in the boundaries of the store and the classes i take and the gatherings i attend at the store like the one tomorrow.i am confident in my crafting and am terrified she will see me as very different in the world outside of the store. with just the two of us hanging out. i don't do friends well at all. i have had the same few friends for a long time. most new friends i tend to just push away after a while. i don't want to have this happen with this person. i enjoy the time i spend with her in the classes she runs and at the functions we attend at the store.i am also in this group of her friends that get together once a month to trade artist trading cards and we have a great time. but it is all in the confines of the store and crafting. i don't do friends well and am scared ill destroy the friendship as it is if she gets to know me better . stupid i know.and i need to grow up.it sounds all kinds of high schoolish but I'm scared.

Sage.

Thanks chickie, and MUE.

Just hurts worse than ever today. I picked up a few books at the library earlier this weeks, maybe I will crack one open and try to disappear into it.

sounds like a good idea wiki,if it is a nice day can you hang out at your lake and read some untill you family returns home. just wondering do you journal? if so maybe you could write down some of this stuff to get it out of your head.

sage is definately on the list. so that will be wiki's herb plant

((( granite )))

That's not stupid or childish at all. I totally understand how risking taking the relationship out of the safety of its current boundaries is scary. I can see myself thinking - it's good just the way it is, why risk ruining it? But then again, there's the other side of the equation - perhaps I can get more enjoyment and rewards from developing this relationship further.

It IS scary. It may very well be worth the risk, but you won't know unless you try.

The all day event sounds awesome! Hope you have a great time!

Not that you asked, granite, but I love me some cilantro! Just started growing a cilantro plant recently - and strangely enough, it's survived my cat who is known for digging in soil and knocking plants over. Maybe it's because I've barricaded the plant so that he can't get to it. It's only a matter of time before he gets to it. He won't let no stinkin barricade stop him!

(((granite)))

She's not asking for your hand in marriage! lol. It's just a show. You can get busy looking at your stuff. Try to keep your boundaries, and light conversation. Try not to guess what she's thinking or saying (because you know we're usually wrong when we do that). Maybe you'll have a good time?

sage is so incredibly good for you! You can make a tea/infusion from it too. Yummy.

We've had something getting into our trash barrels the last few week. Thought it was a raccoon of some sort. Last night it was really loud, so I flipped on the lights and there was a HUGE coyote out there, with a pack of 4 smaller ones. He was much bigger than my dogs, I have never seen a coyote that large in these parts. Scary, he could take Sadie or Lex easily, and Lex is NOT a small dog.

lol wiki i love this .i am kind of taking it to the extreme ain't i....you know if i can be reminded of this and to not try to guess what she is thinking (she hates me,I'm acting stupid,etc...) maybe it will be a fun day. light conversation !!!! you mean i should talk to her ? now that is a game changer. OK maybe ill not recommend lunch at my BFF"S husbands restaurant would be a bad idea.sitting across someone trying to eat and talk could be a horror show. it's hot dogs as we walk around lol

Holy moly, Wiki!!

My first thought was - aww, Twilight right in Wiki's yard. Then, YIKES!

We had some foxes in our yard before, and I was told that they are generally afraid of people - even small children and dogs. But the experiences were kinda mixed, so I would definitely be scared too! I'd also find it fascinating and would want to capture some pictures.

Granite, did I do something to offend you?

i am big into the why risk it if it feels comfortable the way it is . i have known this woman for quite a few years .at least 8 and this is how long it has taken me to be willing to accept her as a friend on this level. it is kind of funny .i never spoke to her for a long time but i loved the crafts that she does and one day i decided to take a class and i enjoyed it and so on. but wiki is right i need to normalize this .it is only a show .people do things together . it doesn't have to be a big thing ,i might have fun going with someone else instead of just alone.

wow scarey . did you contact someone to let them know these guys are getting a bit close to homes and stuff. maybe they could relocate them .that is a bit close for comfort.

I like that line of thinking. I'm kinda at the place where taking risks is too scary, especially after how often I've developed such unhealthy relationships. Someday, I hope that will change.

Alright, couch peeps, I'm heading out to meet up with a friend for the day. Not really feeling up to it, but I'm going.

Happy Birthday Wiki!!!

hi ready hows things today?
did the husband survive the night with his attitude?

thanks ready. I am shopping for jewelry while posting here. I won't actually buy anything...just looking. Trying to avoid the eventual: Going back to bed, taking a bunch of pills, sleeping until I am no longer on the verge of tears.

well maybe I'll buy something. I found a dealers sight....I can get boxes of beaded jewelry for like $30 all made. They are nice too. I can turn those over at the county fair and make some cash.

go wiki, go wiki, it's your birthday

so buy yourself some jewlrey.

no making cash purchases when you feel like swine poop.

Off to bed. I need to somehow get thru the day.

Laters.

Wiki....you still here... i do the bed thing too... (minus the pills)...maybe since no one is home you could just actually cry...

Wikid - happy birthday.

It is raining here and seems like it has been for days and days. I may start my ark. The dogs are quite crabby and never seem to really dry out. We walked in the drizzle last night - not their favorite thing to do, but they were driving me crazy.

Wikid, I admire you so much. You face your fears and keep pushing yourself. That is amazing but I worry that you push yourself too hard sometimes. Please take care and know that many people love you and care about you very much. Happy Birthday!!