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no your right....a man is easier and my sex drive has been huge i side effect of stopping meds and smoking.. what about friends with benefits.. thats all i want, touch human touch male or female

OOOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHH. I get it. Yea, that would be bad.
Ok.
What other ways can you chill out? Can you go fishing tomorrow?

LC - you are focussing on the wrong thing here. Weed/fake week is not the big deal problem or solution.

Never eat the tortilla chips from Xmass Tree Shoppes. They are stale. Ick.

Worried about you Lola..

NO you are right its a problem but not the problem.... its my yearning for something i'm missing... and I'm ready to grow into my teens... no more mothering from my partner. She cant handle that as the kids ave moved off and has been riding my ***... i lite up and haven't stopped since.... 9 days of 24/7 hi.... 400 bucks... crazy I am... I need to stop its starting to make me sick and i've lost weight.. like 10 lbs in 3 weeks...

For those of you keeping track....
in 3 weeks...

spent well over 600$$ On fake weed.
sleep on average 3 hours a night
am nauseous a bunch

so yeah its got me

Lola...listen to the lawyer. You are in a very dangerous place.

So maybe trying to seduce T and getting and getting angry and leaving when that didn't work was a way of avoiding facing what you need to do now...?
I'm worried about you and am afraid that you are harming your health and also risking your job right now....can T, or a different T, help you with this stuff?

not sure tired, took an ativan, had a few drinks and smoking.. no food today

I will not harm myself...on purpose i promise.... and I mean it... Im sorry to any I have hurt..and if you have me blocked well then that sucks... i apologized

I think you know that mixing all of that and not eating is really not good for you....
the idea of you going fishing or something tomorrow sounds like a really great thought.
You don't have to let yourself keep spiraling downhill. As hard as it is, you can choose to survive this rough patch and stop trying to destroy yourself.

I need to take a minnie vacation... but alas no invites

You can come join me in Houston for a mini vacation in the next week or two....can't believe I am thinking of visiting my family...and that I am referring to it as a "vacation"

I wanna fly somewhere tomorrow and then casper on Tuesday or wednesday

My interwebs died. Had to jump on my phone.

(((Lola))) you haven't hurt anyone here or said anything horrific. We care about you.
Please find a t that can help you.

And...I hate meds and went off them AMA...but you are in crisis, not a good time to quit meds. Just saying.

Dude - seriously, you can stop doing this to yourself. But you are the only one who can. We can encourage you, the therapist could support you if you let him, but you have to decide you are worth taking care of. This acting out is just likely to lead to more shame and guilt and unhappiness for you. Not whomever you are doing it at.

And (in reference to your other post) sometimes an apology does not fix everything. I know that sounds harsh, but acting out and apologizing and acting out and apologizing eventually will not cut it. This does not make you a bad person, but there are consequences to actions.

Can you possibly just see if you can stop trying to destroy yourself for little periods of time - like not smoke fake weed or drink for the next 30 minutes, and that you will eat something - crackers, toast, a banana. And if you make it, see if you can do another 30 minutes or 10 minutes. If not, then try again.

Im thinking Michigan or the NE

Loopy from loopy, so I'm calling it a night. Lola, please find a t that can help you.

Good night couch peeps...catch ya on the flip side.

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Lola

So I've never been a drinker but all this talk about flavored vodka is making me rethink my position...seriously, fruit loop, caramel, whipped cream flavored....mmmmm a girl could be tempted.

It's all good in the hood wiki wiki wiki, love ya sister

((( Lola )))

I get where you are at the moment. Stuck in a spiraling pattern and not caring or knowing how to get out from where you're headed.

I hope this wave passes quickly for you. ((( HUGS )))

me toooooooooo lol

I've been staying up late watching episodes of "In Treatment". I love that show. Can't wait to get to the library tomorrow to pick up the next set of dvds.

I had a hard time when I started getting close to the end of the series. It was such a great way for me to relax. I didn't want it to end.