Couch 56...Getting Back to our roots

Don't take the last option> maybe if you visit friend for a while and do a little cleaning. Every little bit helps, at least that what I tell myself (as a i look at the layer of dust on my desk)

I will probably go visit that friend.....only thing is, she's kinda overwhelming, pushes for me to stay there longer than I really want to, and monopolizes the conversations. It would get me out of dealing with my stuff for a while though.

I could use the practice in being assertive and setting boundaries, I suppose.

That's the way MUE. I have problems in being assertive too. But I always seem to attract the kinds of people who like to exploit this.
Do you ever over-set boundaries, make boundaries so unreasonable that no reasonable person would consider them?

I watch this over and over. Am I easily amused, or what?

That is so cute Ike.

Yesterday I took my wife to Mr T and left them alone to talk about me for an hour.

Was that wise? Last time i did that my marriage ended.

I love that one, Ike!

Well...I better be getting to bed soon. Have a full day at the senior place with K tomorrow.

I hope everyone has a good night.

And I like the dog video...not many dogs want a kitten.

Yikes! You're a brave man.

BRAVE...that is the first word that came to mind. That and you must have a great relationship with your W.

My T and husband talked for almost an hour, but it was because H was blaming me for stuff and T wanted to talk to him about it privately (it was a BIG factor in my depression). They ended up hating each other. What did your W think about your T, CE?

Lola...how did your day go?

hey all . drunk and miserable. how is everyome else? i have totalt decided i am a witch with a B and this is who i am and you dont have to like me .who would right .and that is ok. i'm not so likeable .that is ok .

Yay another contribution to the island of misfit toys!

Granite - what brought on the drinking? Drink some water - just plain water. It can help with the dehydration tomorrow.

tons of water and asprin or something like that .

the drinking was brought to you be the letter f and the # 5 and maybe that i am sick of living in this skin and not being able to tell anyone about it or being able to ask for any kind of real help. but tonight it is what ever .it is what it is right.

i think it is time for me to oass out but i promice ill be the good little girl tomorrow and go hang with people and try real hard not to think about the fact that i hate them and they hate me and that i should be at home away from them. but now i am going to dive in my well medicated state and sleep, i love ya all and sorry for being what i am .

Don't know you but you sound okay to me. (what does that mean?) Get sober and have a cup of tea, all will be well for a bit. Add a nice croissant to that.

((BiP))

W mostly emphasised how far I have come and how upset I was about Madame T.

I do! She's a treasure.

She also talked about learning to cope with my Aspergers.

I'm not sure what you mean by over-set boundaries. Can you give an example?

I ended up visiting my friend and had a nice time....and yes, I ended up staying much later than I anticipated (just after 1 AM).

Goodnight!

I don't know really. Um i guess I mean that I extend friendship and would do anything for someone but deny them any part of my life. An example would be I had a friend and I went to her place and my kids played with her kids and I looked after her kids but all this happened at her place as I don't like other people into my house. If she had waited another year maybe i would have felt comfortable but she withdrew the friendship before that without me giving a chance to explain and lets face it to a normal person saying that I don't like people in my home sounds just a tad mad, don't you think? I didn't even like the in-laws being there (but they WERE hard to please)

AARRGGHH!!!! Now the lecturers at my uni are taking industrial action further and a possible ban on teaching may come into effect. FFS!! I'll be 60 before I graduate!!!

I took my courage in both hands and tried to discuss with H what we were going to do today... we have to clean the house pretty thoroughly, in preparation for a guest who arrives this afternoon, and then H is having a bunch of people over to meet this guest tonight. (Nominally, it's both of us, but it's mostly H's friends, in reality.) H got kind of annoyed with me and thought I was trying to say I wanted to call the thing off. I don't, at all, but I do feel really stressed out when I feel that things are expected of me without knowing exactly what those things are. I mean, half an hour before people arrive, H is going to get pissed off with me for not doing something that he thought was completely obvious that it needed doing, like empty the dishwasher or something, which I might have thought he was doing or that it could wait until later, or that I'd simply forgotten about. And he knows that that's what will happen, only, for him it's not a problem that it does, as long as the end result is that I do what I'm supposed to. And then H is going into town to meet our guest at the train, and people are probably going to start arriving before they return. I hinted that perhaps we could ask people to come a little later, but that really made H annoyed, so I'll just have to deal as best I can. The people who are likely to arrive first is a couple with two very active children. So much for making the house look nice for our guest. Anyway, it was good that I brought this up. At least now I know what my main areas of responsibility are for cleaning - my study and the terrace - I can handle that.

When writing this I see how difficult I must be to live with. I wonder how H can stand it, at all. I don't make this much fuss normally, though.