couch 63 the fall line

((( Healed )))

I haven't been very active on the couch lately - just popping in here and there, trying to keep up but feeling lost at times since I haven't been very involved. Life has been so hectic lately - and I don't have internet access in the family room where I am with the kittens lots of times.

I totally get, though, the feeling invisible and also not asking for what I need. I find it eye opening at times when I have a reaction to not getting a need met - yet not knowing what I needed until I didn't get it. Frustrating. It's something I've been trying to work on.

As far as the writing goes, I would just start out by jotting down the words that are coming to you....don't try to make sense of it all or even make full sentences that connect...just a brain and emotion dump...and then try to sort it out later.

((( critter )))

I hope you can get to the bottom of what's causing you to feel the way you have the last couple weeks. It's frustrating not to know, because it leaves you not knowing how to go about making progress on it.

((( RTS )))

That does sound lonely...and sad. I wish things were better for you.

Sorry just too much.

A friend of mine who has a son that goes to my daughter's school called me in a panic as I was waiting for the bus to drop my daughter off. The school was on lockdown due to a threat - and the cops were swarming the school. SCARY. Luckily, everything was ok - apparently it had to do with a threat that was written on the wall in one of the bathrooms. My daughter is nervous about returning to the school. It's scary to think that you never know who is in a bad enough state to do harm in a school. Makes me want to hug my daughter and never let her leave the house.

I made progress with the animal situation. I picked up the dewormer med for my cat. I also took the kittens to the shelter, gave up my rights to them and signed up to foster them. They were checked out by a vet, got their first set of injections and were given the dewormer. I was sent home with their next dose of dewormer. Unfortunately, the vet said they are too young to be treated for fleas - so I'm going to have to try bathing them in Dawn soap and picking out the fleas.

I updated my niece and told her that I expected her to make a financial contribution. She understood. So, I'm relieved about that. She also said she would try to come over tomorrow to help me with bathing the kitties.

I also had lunch with my fav aunt - and we had some really meaningful discussions. She vented a lot, and I tried to provide her with some non-judgmental feedback and ideas. At the end, she said she was really happy we did this and that it helped...and that I had some good ideas that she's going to try to implement. I'm glad we got together too.

All in all, a productive day.

Murray - hopefully he'll become somebody else's problem. I've been in your shoes, sort of. I changed my birth control so my ex-h at least had to wake me up. Why do they think this is funny.

((( Murray )))

I can very much relate to your situation - with my ex-H and my former friend who tried to run me over. It's such a difficult dilemma to be in. I didn't believe I was unsafe - yet my T and others were scared for me. I was seeing it through a different lens. And I totally understand the idea of not wanting to 'rock the boat' when nothing is occurring at the moment. Such a difficult dilemma.

Thanks so much Hankster and Mue.

Thanks for that Wiki....its a sad time, it was my cousin. We have buried his Mum & Dad in the last 2 years, now it is his turn.

Sorry I dont have time to reply to everyone... but

Healed... I understand how you feel, I'm new here and often feel overlooked. I just try to tell myself, not everyone has something to comment about my posts. And that is ok. Pretty sure its not personal

I run and art & craft market locally so was up at the crack of dawn setting up. I am a jewellery maker so had a good day of sales and lovely comments.....despite it being stormy with rain & hail coming sideways outside which kept people away. Glad it is a hobby for me and not my main source of incme as it is for some at market.

It is better to write and delete than not to write at all.

Well its just me and younger son again today. We are going to a fall festival at his school. Its a shame its sort of rainy today.... But there was a chance I was going to have to work today so I'm thankful just to not be at work.

I'm actually looking forward to cleaning the house as well. So I need to hop in shower and get the day started.

This is week 2 of marching band contests for my son's band. Last week they won and swept all captions (visual, general effect, percussion, color guard, music). This week is a much heftier contest and two of the bands that are their biggest competition in Texas will also be there. It will be interesting. Dropped son off to march at 6:45 this morning. They march in preliminary competition at 12:15. Good luck band!

Hearing about marching band brings back fond memories. We were a small school during down economic times but we had a lot of dragon pride!

My son is in a large band -- they march 300. It has been the Texas state champion band since 2006. Excellent music program and a hard working bunch of kids with excellent teachers.

good luck to your son and the band chris

Wow, Chris, that sounds exciting! Hope they do well in the competition!

((( Jane )))

I'm so sorry for your loss.

I'm glad you were able to get out though. Join the club of crafters here! Granite is awesome at making a bunch of different crafts. I stick to jewelry making and sometimes painting...but I haven't done either in a while. I'm actually going to be teaching a jewelry making class for a small group of people next weekend.

They should do well. May not win everything this week; much tougher competition. We'll see.

Cool show about snake charming. All classical music. Wish we could be there, but this particular competition is muy expensive and it is supposed to rain on and off. Sat through rain and cold last weekend. Not really up for that again this week. Going to follow the events through live blog update.

Morning, couch peeps.

I'm trying to think of some ideas of what I could make that's different to bring to the get-together I'm going to tonight. I want to avoid having to run to the store, but I get the feeling that I'm going to have to. I have everything I need to make a spinach dip, so that's one thing out of the way. I also have some Tastefully Simple stuff that I could use up, if I had other ingredients to use with them.

I was also thinking of making some sort of pinwheels with flour tortillas since I have them on hand. But I doubt I have any of the other ingredients to fill them with. I've tried a bunch of different things in the past that were always a hit....eh. I just might have to go to the store.

First things first, though. Gotta feed the kitties and let them have some play time. And deal with this migraine.

Hope everyone has a great Saturday!

Morning all. Ready, hope you and S have fun at the festival! Chris, good luck to your S!

I had a really rough evening yesterday with H doing absolutely nothing I had asked him to do during the day. It just three things, and two of them were for our son, and would have only taken about 20 minutes put together, and the other thing was something he has been PROMISING to do for a month, and none of them were things I could do because I was at my class. He did NONE, and then was sulky and acted hurt and mad at me about it.

Then we went to D's therapy appointment, almost wrecked on the way due to another driver's fault (it was REALLY close and involved me swerving hard to avoid the collision), but D yelled at me in a really angry way. Then her new T showed once again (from my perspective) that she is not a great T, but D still really likes her. New T was second-guessing the diagnosis from the Children's hospital and the three specialists who have seen her. She had clearly not looked up the diagnosis D has, because her questions showed her total ignorance of the diagnosis, which she had stated she would research to be ready to treat D, the very first time I called. When we first met with her, she had not had a chance to research the illness, but said again she would and I signed releases for her to speak to the doctors in the treatment program. It has been seven weeks since that first call, and six weeks since the last time she saw D and she remains completely ignorant. Started suggesting medications. I pointed out that she just spent FIVE WEEKS at the hospital, and saw a therapist there for FIVE WEEKS EVERY DAY, and they did not suggest medications. I asked if she had spoken to the doctors at the hospital, and she was all -- oh yeah! I should do that.

Anyway, D was in a horrible mood and was feeling sick later in the night and then was mad at me and things were just not fun. I am thinking she is going to refuse to go on the camping trip we had planned this afternoon.

MKAC....

I'm sorry things were so rough last night....

Did H forget to do these things or did they involve conflict and he avoided or did his day just get busy at work?

For teenagers its all about them and their issues... The near accident might have scared her so she got mad at you cause its easier than admitting so much of life is out of our control

Hope you have a better day.....

Ready - hope you and S have a blast.
Healed - sorry if I don't respond much, I am usually at a loss of what to say, especially if it's about T because I am not in T. You have not offended me at all, and I am sorry that you've felt ignored.
MKAC - I really don't like that T either...sheesh. She needs to get with the program. I hope your D gets over it.

I am missing my D a ton...she's been staying with her BF because his dad was dx'd with pancreatic cancer a few weeks ago. She's trying to help his mom with stuff. I know she's grown and moving on, but I miss her so much when she's not here.

I see you Lola.
((((LOLA))))

Hey Wiki, Im here and alive. Im at W house and I will not be going to the funeral. I am still sick and debating on a doctor visit today. Physically I am falling apart, too much "not caring for myself" latley. I am bloated and congested and coughing... 3 more weeks and this will all be over. Hugs to all the couch peeps who are having a rough time. I have not had much presence here lately but I think of you all often.

((( Lola )))

I hope you feel better soon.