Couch 65...Where all the fun is!

Morning Lola; morning couch. For hours, I was lying in bed stressed out of my mind. Finally gave up and got up. Are you guys still juicing or does anyone want to join me in a cup of coffee?

omg I am sorry to have worried you all .I just kind of fell asleep on my couch at the computer .

no I did not e-mail my T although I tried but couldn't spell or anything it was not easy I just needed to sleep.no more tequila for a long long time I promice

((((granite))))
Thank you for checking in. I'm very glad you're ok.

I'll have coffee with you, mkac... I'm a citizen of the second most coffee-drinking country in the world!

In half an hour I have a meeting with my choir conductor. (I contacted him and asked if he had time to see me, briefly, today.) Help!

((((Granite)))) glad your okay.

MKAC-please pass the coffee.

Hello Lola ready, Granite, MKAC. mast, Janc

im sorry . stupid me.

Done juicing , severly depressed and going to lay in bed all day, already called in....
Glad your ok Granite and good luck with Choir conductor Mast, know that it's ok ... hope you stay, if you really want to and like it.
Morning Jersey

mkac ill have some tea with you

lola whats going on do you know why you are so depressed???

Lola - it's ok to spend a day in bed (and I know you don't need my validation but you have it anyway, fwiw.) Do you have the energy and will to do anything at all? watch funny clips on YouTube? I find that doing something that forces me to laugh, because it's too funny for me to resist laughing, can crowd out the depressive mindset for a while.

morning jersey,and mast

Very very tired and perhaps the travel got to me.... Feeling lost and alone , sleep is the answer so no coffee for me.

sleepy time tea lola

Lola, I don't know if this link will work, but you could try watching this: https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v...type=2&theater

Maybe rest is part of what you need Lola.

Good morning! Trying to get the motivation needed to get off my butt and get at least the living room cleaned up before I have to leave and run errands then get to school for the first basketball practice.

Mast- hope you meeting goes well.
Lola - I hope resting today makes you feel better! Hope everyone else has a great day!

T texted me yesterday morning asking if I could move my appointment an hour earlier than scheduled for this week. No problem for me. Then, I got to thinking that I know t rescheduled/cancelled somebody who was in the spot he changed my appointment to. And I felt sooo guilty about that. Then, I felt so damn needy.. B/c I am pretty sure the reason t didn't outright cancel on me is because I won't see him next week.. And he knows that I do we'll with the continuity of those weekly appointments and have two weeks off unexpectedly might worry me a bit. Which, is sooo silly.. B/c really when it comes to where I am mentally I am doing ok, not in crisis mode, not anxiety ridden so two week appointments would be fine.. So, I go back to feeling needy. But then- I feel cared for as t was watching out for me! But that feels kind of weird to. Seriously.. One hour time change in my appointments has my mind spinning! So stinking silly!!

Healed, that's not silly.

There are many occasions where my T has actually told me she will move somebody else to get me in and I told her not to that because it's not fair to them, makes me feel guilty and I wouldn't want it done to me. So while I feel loved and a priority, it makes me feel needy.

Question for the couch: Does anyone else have their parents on FB and they act like they are so loving, so involved and care so much?

I hate that.

im of to start my day. get some sleep lola, good luck with the meeting mast ,mkac have a good day .hi to all I missed thismorning

I have filled the rest of the week with things to keep me busy .today card classes,tomorrow scrapbooking at a friends house , sat scrapbooking all day at a store, sunday scrapbooking and going out with hubby in the evening .Monday doc appointment for me and then the kitty . oh and freaking about T lol.anyway I am running with scissors and no time to be worried or anything . that's the plan

Morning, couch peeps.

Jersey - I do have some people who are loving and accepting on FB and then are totally different outside of FB....not parents though. My dad passed away and my mom doesn't know how to use FB very well, although she's on it.

Hope to get caught up on the couch soon.

I was proud of myself last night, kinda. I was sooooo exhausted and decided to get to bed super early. It was probably 10 PM and I didn't have to wake up til 8 AM this morning....my daughter was at my moms. My phone rang while I was asleep - my manager wanting me to do an emergency assignment. I did not put myself on the on-call list....didn't answer it, even though she called twice and texted once. I have assignments today spanning from 9:30 AM until 9 PM tonight - there was NO way I was going to be able to miss a night's sleep and then work til 9 PM tonight. Can't do it. Go me. Now, the next step would be to answer the phone and hold firm on my position while they try to beg and coerce me to give in. Not ready for that yet.

Although I woke up off and on throughout the night....and woke up in pain and groggy this morning, I actually slept! Woot woot. Hopefully, once I get a shower and head out the door, I will feel refreshed.

Seeing T today. ACK. After last week, I'm kinda horrified about seeing him.

Yep.....

MUE you will be ok at T I know how horrible it feels but remember he is not the enemy ok let us know how it goes

I'm back from my meeting.... I was there for almost an hour! My conductor is a great guy. He has really good people skills - he listened to what I said and wasn't trying to comfort me or coddle my ego or anything like that, but he made it perfectly, perfectly clear that he thinks that each and every person in the choir is important to the choir, including me. He didn't praise my singing, which would have been insincere, but he pointed out ways in which it is obvious to him that I am not a poor singer. And then he talked about how all singers have lots of doubts, and how music brings out emotion, and I feel really good about things now and not at all stupid.
I'm so lucky.

((((Mast)))) that's awesome. What are you going to do going forward? Stay with it or take a break?