Couch 74

Good Morning Granite. Are you working on any special projects lately in the craft room?

SD: I am sorry that you and your friend are going through this. Please let me know if there is anything you need from me support wise. Your friend is really lucky to have you at her side through all of this. I hope hospice helps. Devastated is not an overstatement.

I hope everyone's holiday was not too tragic. Mine was fine, in spite of dealing with my mom and brother. I yelled at my mom at one point. Well, yelled is too strong a word, I was quite firm with her.

Boston strong

Good Morning Wiki...

If being firm is the most that happened... sounds like a success and healthy..

I am at work today but lots of people still are on vacation.

Morning all.
Granite, I hope you feel better quickly.
Stopdog, thinking of you.
Wikid, GOOD FOR YOU on being firm with your mother. How is the ankle coming?

My day yesterday was good, but last night was not. My MIL was in a MOOD. She was lecturing about fifty million things. Nothing my family is doing is right. My D should get a job (despite being ill and not able to go to school for a week recently). My son needs to get a summer job IMMEDIATELY (despite having had a really tense first year at college AND having enrolled in a CNA course that starts right after he gets back for the summer AND having lined up 'shadowing' times with doctors at local hospitals). I need to call my brother in law about this gluten free diet we're going to try despite the fact that I have researched it already AND I have two friends locally who have had to be gluten free for year AND I have a freaking doctorate and know how to read AND I actually do have a genius level IQ and can ****ING figure these things out. AND we are supposed to entertain a couple of cousins who invited themselves to come and stay with her even though I don't particularly like them and they are condescending to me. I'm not sure if this irritation with everything having to do with us is a reflection of her anger that we don't like her significant other and won't be around him or what.

She has also been paying for therapy for me and for D out of the family's big trust fund. She told me last night that she doesn't want to write anymore checks to my T (saying his name in an angry way with a kind of sarcastic "doctor" in front of his name). She used to see him also and stopped seeing him when he told her how unhealthy he thought her relationship with her significant other is. So. I really appreciate her generosity in including me in with the family medical bills up to this point. I just would have liked a bit more warning that I need to stop seeing him or figure out a way to pay for it myself. I really don't think there is any way I can afford it. My H hasn't said anything yet, but I don't think he realized what she was saying. I am internally in quite a bit of distress and really stressed out. I know I am doing that thing where I show no emotion so my H is absolutely clueless at this point about what is going on with me. All he can read right now is mild irritation with how my MIL was treating us last night.

Stop, I hope I don't irritate you by whining. I know what you are going through makes my distress over potentially not seeing my T so incredibly petty. I am sorry.

MKAC- I am not comparing distresses. None of it is fun. Sorry to hear about your mil.

Our time frame has been put back a bit.

I've been lurking but I send my love to you all
((((((Everyone on the couch)))))))

I know you are not. I just feel petty. Those time frames are so much guesswork. My father in law had cancer surgery when my son was two and a half and was given a horrible prognosis. Then later, when my son was in seventh grade, my FIL was again was told he a very short time to live. He died when my son was a senior in high school. You just never know. My heart goes out to you.

wow MKAC that sux so bad . I hate when family holds finances and things involving money over my head .I have cut almost all ties with my family financially. except my farther gave me this house. all I ever heard from all of them is if you don't do things my way you will never see a penny . no thanks I will not sell my sole to the devil.
I hope you will figure out a way to keep seeing him

are you resting and keeping off that foot wiki?????

hey y'all.
My foot is fine. A bit painful, but fine. Of course I'm not staying off of it. lol.

MKAC, I am sorry your MIL is acting up.

I have been making earrings. Tons and tons of earrings. More earrings than any one woman can wear. I have been selling my jewelry on etsy for decent cash. Makes up for the whole not-working thing.

Hello to all couch peeps. Back to 'normal' tomorrow - work & school. Hope everyone had a good Easter.... I'm hoping I will feel better to get back to routine. Haven't had a good break at all. But hey, it could be worse. Love and hugs to everyone. Xx

glad things will be getting back to a normal routine for you alone

I knew when I missed my anon meeting last week because i didnt have a babysitter that i probably wouldnt go back....sitting here at war with myself

and why I'm at it I'm considering quitting T too...

Trying to mow the lawn but I'm having problems with my lawn mower.

((RTS))

It's probably not a good idea to cut yourself off from the people who are trying to help you. Do you have a good support network otherwise?

I sat next to my brother at Easter dinner like he never abused me....like nothing ever happened.... I mean really I felt nothing...not anger...not sadness.... Not ackwardness... Nothing like it never happened...

I've been in a horrible place since then.... Lower than ever.... Related?

sometimes i feel guilty for being here...there are so many people (atleast 3 just related to PC) who would love to be here for much longer time than they probably have.... They are much better people than me and deserve much better...

Struggling with life again. It's like I think I can just will power my way through. I try so hard to but I can't deal with stress.

Yeah related. Why were you elected to sit next to him? Whose sick idea of a joke was that? I think you felt a lot. A better coping skill would be... not sitting next to him?

I offered to have him sit next to me....

No one in my family knows what he did.... Or acknowledges it.

((RTS))

Each of us plays the hand she is dealt. Life is about making each card count.

How are you getting on with W?