Couch 75

The last couple of weeks haven't been good for me at all.

I think my lips are finally starting to feel better. I guess i wont be asking stopdog to do a pig or monkey or pastrami lip transplant replacement after all. Darn i was really looking forward to her unstapling me

Good to hear

Ya gotta speak up. Not in a nasty way. Just say no. Like i did when my gf wanted to sneak into the 2nd movie - what are we, 16 or 60?!

You would not feel a thing- my hands are magical. Glad it is starting to heal.

I have done that a few times before, I think that right now he just expects me to be available all the time for him.

BTW you may be 60, I'm only 30

Todays session was an anti-climax. We just had general catch-up session. I'll try next session.

Yeah that happens sometimes.

Its amazing how things can so quickly go back to the old comfortable ways...like the last 3 years never happened....

More medical stuff today.

SD.. its becoming increasingly difficult not to hug you Just know I am thinking about you and you friend!

Didn't get much sleep last night but I have so much to do today

I hope everything will go well, stopdog.
Sorry to hear you didn't sleep, rt. Good luck with everything you need to do.
rts - is that a good or a bad reversal to old ways?
bpa, some sessions really don't pan out like you'd planned them to. At least it wasn't a bad session I hope?

Well I have big news about my "potential" new Therapist and will try to start a Thread on it when I have a chance.

EDIT: Never-mind I was able to take care of it.

Hi all!

I hate unexpected crazy mornings! Especially ones that start at 630AM.

So now of course my anxiety is sky high, yuck!

Hi Melissa, yeah I feel for you on the anxiety. Personally even though I did end up getting about 4 hours of light sleep last night sometimes I think I feel a little better when I don't sleep at all vs. only sleeping a few hours.

1. How'd the session go, Mastodon?

2. Exam tomorrow. Can't wait for it to be over (if I pass it I've passed all exams, with pretty good grades, this year).

I am so frustrated with the whole medical establishment that I am double checking all of my methods arranged to make sure I avoid them. I even ordered an extra copy of Final Exit in case something happens to my first copy. I cannot imagine being so cowed by them that I put up with how they treat sick people. But my personal sick person had decided to endure them and so I watch with disbelief at their cavalier attitude towards others. It almost makes me want to go back into practicing med map plaintiff's work full time just to sue them over and over and over because it seems to be the only thing they really pay attention to.

So SD, in the event you end up with a major medical condition that requires intensive medical care, and the odds are that you will at some point in your life, are you just going to avoid medical care when it is necessary? I, of course, realize you certainly can, but I wouldn't call that particularly the best choice in the world; yours to make though I suppose.

You realize your plan to sue and sue doctors is the reason so much in the medical establishment is run the way it is, right? It won't fix things. It will just perpetuate what is already happening.

What makes you believe your friend is "cowed" by the medical community? Maybe it's just a sort of acceptance. What should he/she do differently? Just walk away without treatment? Just say, you aren't treating me the way I like, so I'll just go ahead and go without treatment because I don't like your attitude?

Yes, many medical professionals have huge egos. Yes, sometimes they treat patients badly because of those egos. But ironically, sometimes those physicians with those huge egos are remarkably gifted at treated the medical problems in their speciality. My husband has run into some horribly egotistical specialists (usually surgeons) over the years who completely infuriated us both with their attitudes, but they were truly gifted experts in their fields, and as a patient, walking away from that expertise isn't always an option. We'd rather have an excellent surgeon with a crappy bedside manner than a mediocre surgeon who is all sweetness and rainbows any day.

Yes, we all wish to find a combination of both expertise and attitude in a perfect world, but when you are seriously ill, you need the treatment and sometimes you just deal with the jerky attitude knowing its the treatment and recovery that is your goal; you aren't looking to take that doctor home with you anyway, so sometimes you can just deal.

I've met some lawyers that way too. (Just kidding . . . well, not exactly.)

I have always avoided mds and now, watching her go through this just confirms my belief that I would rather be dead than in their clutches. I realize others do not feel that way and they (like she) are free to participate in their imprisonment. I am not trying to talk her out of treatment - although I do also tell her it is an option when she muses over stopping the tortuous treatments.
My body and my life and I am not turning either over to them - dead is going to happen either on my terms or otherwise - I want it to be on my terms not theirs. I would walk away. I have walked away from them even after they tried their scare tactics on me. I do not tell her to walk away - but I most certainly would.

My not going back to med mal practice will not solve things either - I do still write appeals on it - and of course my dealings with psychiatrists in court always brings me a sort of pleasure to at least cross examine them and expose them even when I lose because it pisses them off so. They are not used to not being treated like they are special. Representing plaintiffs against doctors and hospitals has nothing to do with fixing the problem - it would just make me happy to piss them off/annoy them/inconvenience them and put them a ball park they do not run.

))))))StopDog((((((

Just because a person acts like a butt and a bully, doesnt mean they know wtf they are doing. That kind of behavior just sets off my bs detector. The doctors ive met recently with the best attitudes have been the most competent.

neutrino - good luck in your exam. I'm sure it will go well. I understand wanting it to be over, though...

My session went well, thanks. I'm debating whether to write about it or not - I would like to process it a bit but on the other hand this is a completely open and exposed forum, so I think I'd better not. I do have a very good T, though, who does not avoid the difficult issues. I'm not quitting any time soon.

Hooray! I take it you are feeling a bit better?

Mast - glad it went okay.