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I really need to cut my grass.

The key event was when W was studying specific learning disabilities and read about Aspergers.

Had another big blowup with my parents

No, it didn't, because I am too screwed up and broken. I have txted T to let him know that I want to discuss termination. I can't fix myself and so I am only a waste of T's time.

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One of the downsides of psychotherapy is that by forcing the patient to accept responsibility, it makes her feel responsible for her lack of progress.

Thinks: true happiness comes from shirking responsibility. That's why babies and seniors are happy.

I'm not sure I agree completely. Shirking responsibility leads to (perfectly reasonable) guilt, which is not conducive to happiness. Not having responsibilities in the first place is maybe a happy state, and I do avoid some responsibilities (it's one of the many reasons why I have never wanted children). But having responsibilities and being capable of fulfilling them is also a positive thing. It's the state of feeling unable to meet one's responsibilities that is miserable.
I'm also not sure that kids and elderly people are all that happy....

I regret sending that txt now. I do not want to end therapy. And I know that the decision is mine to make - if I don't want to terminate, I don't have to (right now anyway). But sending that message to T can't lead to anything positive. As cream on top of the mashed potatoes (as we say in my weird mother tongue) I had to call him during his office hours today to ask a medication related question. He sounded really concerned when he heard that it was me. I wonder what he thought I wanted. I.am.such.a.loser.

I guess you could always txt him again that you've changed your mind (I know not the best idea but I think Ts might be used to client's inner conflicts). Maybe actually your txt could lead to something positive - your T now knows how much you struggle and that because of that you think that you do not deserve your T, that you don't want to waste his time etc... And probably it's good that your T knows that because then you can work on it...

I guess that when you called your T, he was just very concerned that you struggle so much, I don't think that he waited for you to say that you want to terminate, I'd rather think that he was worried... That's just my opinion of course, I hope you will feel better soon

Almost 10% of all words from my previous post was "that" Sorry, if you had to read it, I guess I have something to work on

FeralKittyMom, are you around? There was a litter of feral kittens in our barn and the mom died. We have saved 4 of the 6, but one is just not thriving. The vet said to figure out what is wrong, she would have to pull so much blood it would kill the kitten. I just wanted to kind of pick your brain and see if there is anything else I can do beyond subQ fluids and syringing wet food mixed with water (the formula kept spiking her blood sugar over 600 and crashing her).

Thanks, someone. My next session is tomorrow morning and this can wait until then. The med question couldn't wait - I forgot to take my medication last night and didn't know whether I should take it in the morning or just wait until this evening and continue as usual then.

I have been trying to formulate to myself why I sent that txt and why I think I should quit. It's all a jumbled mess inside my brain. (Possibly made worse by my forgetting the medication, as well as a slight hangover.)

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I like the cream on the mashed potatoes line;-)

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H being a jerk b/c I cancelled and rescheduled my appointment like a normal human being instead of just not showing up. Really?! Really really?!

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Sorry to hear that, Shakey. People suck, sometimes.

A few weeks ago, something I posted on Facebook led to a thread where a lot of my Swedish friends posted Swedish idioms translated literally into English. Like "No cow on the ice" (there's no hurry or danger), or "He has gnomes in the attic" (he is a bit stupid), or "I sense owls in the bog" (I suspect that there's something fishy going on). All languages have those expressions.... it can get pretty funny in translation. Hankster, you should learn a bunch of those and trot them out when you see your T ;-)

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I think most of us have sent texts, emails etc to our Ts that we have regretted. I imagine Ts are used to it.

It takes more than one bad text to make a loser.

He would probably prefer you not to go, ever.

Had my Therapy session, today and sadly there are only 2 sessions left with my current Therapist .

T in an hour. I feel sick.

Mast I'll pocket ride if its not too late.

I'll be there with you.

Hope it goes well. Thinking of you.

Hope all goes well BP

My friend is really getting on my nerves right now, he always has to have things his way.