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You actually appeared in one of my dreams recently, stopdog - I can't remember what the dream was about or what you looked like or anything, but I remember thinking "Oh, stopdog is here." (That was a positive thing, to be clear.)

Oh you lovely, dear people. Thanks for the support. I have been struggling with this for so long, that's why I haven't been around much. I am feeling a bit more confident about approaching T with this on Thurs. I really do appreciate every one of you.

On a side note if the neighbours cat doesn't t stop jumping on my window screens......

I'm off to bed now but couldn't sleep without letting you know my appreciation.

My T session today was frustrating and I felt stuck, but I think that something happened, because I have been feeling less tired and unfocused and down for the last few hours.

Tonight I'm going out with Supportive Friend - I'm looking forward to that, it's been a while since I had an evening out and could just relax and be myself. We'll probably go to a student pub where the service is generally slower but the prices much more humane than at grown-up pubs - hopefully we won't run into any of our students, though. Not that we'll get drunk or disorderly, but it could still get awkward.

Its already looking and feeling better. PTL and the dermatologist! This is my first time on prednisone. I dont know if it was the pills or my McChicken that was making me woozy sweaty and hungry last night, but today i feel pretty good. I woke up AWAKE for the first time in a long time. This stuff cures cancer if you have it. Im gonna try to take advantage of it as much as i can this week im on it.

Why do mds think it is okay to be an hour and a half late for appointments and why on earth do people stay and let them?

Serenity now...

Manage expectations...

I'm a bit worried about tomorrow. Having another assessment session and last time I had an anxiety attack and shut down due to certain things during the session. Been having quite a bit of anxiety attacks lately. Yesterday I had something like mixture of a panic attack and a sensory overload, which was horrible. Bit worried it's going to happen again tomorrow. I definitely think getting assessed is a good thing and it's really interesting but it's very draining. Wish I had someone to talk to about it between sessions.

I take it you're stuck in a waiting room. That's no fun.

In answer to your completely rhetorical question, it depends on the doctor. My guess is you are waiting for a specialist? It can take months to get an appointment with certain specialists, so once you are in the door, generally you are willing to wait as long as it takes to finally be seen. Doesn't mean we like it, but walking out puts us back at the end of the appointment calendar, and when you are talking about a serious medical condition, time is of the essence. A few hours is a small price to pay.

Sometimes it's just the nature of the job. When I go to my ob/gyn, I have to be realistic that there is a distinct possibility that some darned baby isn't going to respect my appointment time and dare to expect to be delivered right then and there. It happens. Not really something avoidable. Just have to have some patience with those kinds of things.

When my husband drives over an hour to get to his specialist and that specialist has a problem come up with the patient before him and takes longer than expected, leaving and having to reschedule is of course an option, but with a bit of waiting, he will be seen within an hour or so and not have to make that long drive twice.

When my sister had her bone marrow transplant and had to go up to the hospital every other day to see the doctors and have bloodwork done, leaving wasn't even an option; her medical care was dependent on it being done that day. Sometimes it was a long wait, but it is what it is sometimes.

Frustrating to just sit there though. Completely get that. Hope the time passes quickly. Have a good crossword puzzle to do or book to read?

I wouldn't wait anywhere near that long for a GP though. They can usually be rescheduled fairly easily, or I can find another one in a heartbeat, or they have an associate or PA who can see me instead. Totally different scenario.

So much for that. I have no capacity for sustaining any kind of human relationship.

:-( (hug) FWIW, I disagree.

Specialists but scheduled by hospital so we were seeing them within a week of discharge. Not my health so I had to stay. I do leave after 30 minutes- even with specialists if it is for me (hence I rarely bother even trying to see mds) but I agree it is the sick person's choice. I find medical practitioners disrespectful and arrogant.

Even though I offered, it did not seem as though she trusted me to remove a bunch of staples nor to administer chemotherapy. It doesn't look that hard - I am certain I could do it.(I have removed staples and stitches from me and my pets and I have removed my own casts before so it is not like I have no experience).

All done painting the deck for today now it is time to prep for my 3rd to last session with my Therapist tomorrow.

Mast...whats going on? Did your visit with supportive friend not go well?

My lying friend invited me to stay with her overnight in the middle of nowhere. I didn't want to go as it made me feel uncomfortable and scared (she doesn't know yet that I know she has been lying). So now I feel guilty that I said I can't go. I wish I could be angry with her instead

Maybe wiki could make you a faux weather-beaten shingle to hang - Stopdog's Timely Smoked Meats and Medicaments

Don't ever let your friend force you to do something that you don't want to do, a few weeks ago my friend wanted me to do something that I was uncomfortable in doing so I said no to him.

LOL. (We need a LOL button.) I had to change my sister's IV's when she was discharged from her transplant. Entirely nerve-wracking when her central line would get clogged. No thank you.

I too have been doing IV lines at home and even giving injections of a blood thinner. Flushing out the pic line is a bit unsettling. So why she won't let take out a few(30 or so) measly staples is beyond me

Thanks RT. And kudos to you for saying no.

Horrors! What a scary thought!

I'm a human and you have a sustained relationship with me.

))Stopdog((

Well done! That's the first and most important step - removing yourself from the bad situation.

CE when did you first suspect you had Aspergers? I've been reading about it and thinking maybe i may be Aspie too.