The Couch Get's 86'd (it's now under the end zone at Giant's stadium)

I do not imagine I would do well in a group sort of thing.

SD, I think you would do well running a group!
(But I can't imagine you would like that role)

Ha, I can't either.

I would pay anything to see you smack down those special snowflakes that tend to take over most groups!

Oh, I do hope there aren't any of those in the group! I'm kind of looking forward to group though. I should wait until after I've met everyone to make a true call.

TWF I hope it goes well for you. It is good that your T knows those already there, so I doubt T would put you in a crummy dysfunctional group. The T running group can make the difference between a healing environment and a drama llama petting zoo.

lol! Yeah, I think you're right - my t will have chosen compatible people for the group. And I'm sooo glad she's taking it. Thanks, growly!

Thanks... They did work. Too bad I'm up feeding now. Good news is I'm so tired I should fall asleep quickly.

lol. Not sure, but I like it.

I would shut down in a sense. My social anxiety would take over. I would be spending the whole time thinking about what the most socially acceptable thing to say would be and I would say that, rather than what came to me first.

Oh dear.... This llama does look a tad askew.

I would get so frustrated and overstimulated by the situation that my head would explode. And once I get like that I am more likely to have less of a filter...which would be dangerous under those conditions.

If my filter disappears, look out, I've finally lost my mind.

Ok... Here's hoping I go back to sleep and baby doesn't wake until 7. Toddler too...

Good luck! I'm looking after a friend's baby tomorrow - I do every Friday. We shall have fun playing and, because he loves hearing people sing, singing!

TWF, I hope you'll have a good experience. I know that many people are helped by group, so I'm absolutely not saying that it is useless (that would be rather silly of me, given the evidence that it's been very useful to lots of people here). It would make me get worse, but that's just me.

Don't worry, growly, I'll just have to see how it goes. I'm pretty shy and an introvert, so not sure stressful I'll find it. But I think that's part of it, to get me used to being comfortable in the company of others who share a similar history. We'll see ...

I'm feeling absolutely furious with my T after my session. I don't really know what to do with that. It doesn't matter whether my feelings are ok/valid/appropriate or not - I know that feelings are what they are - I simply have to find a way to get rid of the feelings without expressing them and without harming myself. Maybe I should write a page or two about it and perhaps give that to T when I see him next week (or perhaps not).

Sorry. Ignore me. I'm just babbling.

Mast...I think you should write it all out... Then scream Ito or punch a pillow...that helps me let the anger out... I'd wait a few days before sending letter or giving OT to T.

You want to talk about it...I don't think you've ever said furious in regards to T before.

blah....

Mast, I think writing it all out is a good idea too. It's really hard for me when I'm mad at my t, and writing about it does help for me. Sometimes I even type my anger out in a HUGE font on a word doc and then looking at the humongus letters makes me laugh and I start to feel a little better about the situation.

Ugh. I need to talk to t about my marriage. I know what she'll say, too. She'll say it's about time I'm seeing what she's suspected for awhile. Even though she says she doesn't know the dynamics of my marriage, she'll ask me questions sometimes about my relationship with h that clearly indicate she has more than a clue what is going on. It's so dumb because a lot of the time we're going along fine and there's.... no.... um... wait.... eureka moment... when I'm feeling lousy about myself everything is great for him, he's 'the man'; but he feels threatened or something doesn't he, when I am filled with my own power and feeling strong and I have been lately, so last night when I mentioned that stuff about work, he felt compelled to show me that I was wrong so he could feel better about himself or something. Ugh.

I make it a rule not to watch any program dealing with vampires, zombies and/or cheerleaders.

Today is one of those days where I wish I could just stay in bed all day.

you had me until BACON. lol
I have a stupid, over-the-top fear of the dead (or undead) that has gotten worse and worse. Crazy, right?

glad I missed the T's in leather topic...that's just wrong on so many levels.

Shipping off to Boston in a bit...trying to get there early enough to shop/grab lunch while I'm there.

It never ceases to amaze me where my dog hides her cookies. She was staring at an end table barking and whining, and when I looked there was a cookie in the drawer slots. It also amazes me that she remembers all of these hiding places. I keep telling her that Lexi isn't here anymore to swipe her cookies...