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I guess..
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"You decide every moment of every day who you are and what you believe in. You get a second chance, every second." "You fail to recognize that it matters not what someone is born, but what they grow to be!" - J.K. Rowling. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. |
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I sleep in baby's room so my cat isn't allowed in. I just have my stuffed giraffe.
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I'm probably wrong. That's just what my husband is like with my issues. They scare him so he avoids it.
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My H just tells me I know what you should do to fix yourself so I don't know why you're paying someone to listen to you. I listen for free.... Meh.
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#730
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I don't know why this is bothering me so much tonight..
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"You decide every moment of every day who you are and what you believe in. You get a second chance, every second." "You fail to recognize that it matters not what someone is born, but what they grow to be!" - J.K. Rowling. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. |
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I've never let my husband be there for me either. In fact, up until mid November I have never once shown any sign of weakness or needing anything. I have actually never talked to him about anything that has bothered me outside of our relationship. So for him it is super new. I know we've had this discussion so I know that's how he feels. I don't know your husband's reasoning. ![]()
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Of course they also somehow take up all the room in my huge bed.
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...In the darkness I will meet my creators And they will all agree, that I’m a suffocator
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lol my tiny 9lb cat easily takes up 1/3 of our king size bed.
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Stbx used to punish me for showing neediness or weakness. Crying when he upset me was a good way to escalate the abuse I was experiencing. I learned to pretend that it didn't hurt, that I didn't care. He used to tell me that he wanted me to be strong with everyone else, but not with him. Translation: you are not allowed to need anyone or anything. He used to tell me that he would never trust anyone else and that he wanted me to be his therapist. He wanted me to take responsibility for him. I did for the longest time. I made him look good and I took on all his sh^t. I looked like the demon. I can't even explain here how terrible things were for a while. I nearly lost everything because he couldn't or wouldn't grow up and accept an adult's responsibilities.
Okay, that got way deeper than I intended. What I was trying to say is that I think most people's SOs are willing to listen and they love their spouse enough to try, to really try to work things out. Not mine. It was always my problem. He would say anything to get me to do what he wanted. It was just words. He never put any value in words, and had no notion of the concept of truth. The only truth that mattered to him was the reality he created in his own mind. Sorry, got deep again. I'll stop now. Probably. Well, for now at any rate. I'm in the wine. Can you tell? Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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#735
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JS...I am really glad you left him.
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#736
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my valentines day
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#737
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I think it's going to snow here on Tuesday. (NO NO NO NOOOOOOO.)
![]() That means my world literally shuts down. We are not equipped for this. ETA: I don't want to buy a snow shovel. Grrrrrr.
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1. admitting to a stranger that you were his patient, and 2. contacting your H without your explicit permission. The point I'm making (if there is one ![]()
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I have been binge watching Grey's Anatomy recently (fastforarding through the romance nonsense and boring sex scenes) and Cristina Yang sometimes reminds me a little of you.
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On the other hand, I do have friends who will take my side. I could name various people on this forum, for instance. So there doesn't have to be love involved, friendship can be sufficient. Last edited by Anonymous200320; Feb 15, 2015 at 05:23 AM. |
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I think that your point (if you forgive me for reinterpreting it) is rather that rigid and unflexible adherence to some of the ethic codes is a bad thing. And there we agree. (As does my T, for that matter. He has very few inflexible rules.) |
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Having one of those menopausal, sleepless nights again. Think I'll go have a cup of hot cocoa and just accept that I will need a nap this afternoon.
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can't sleep here either.I'm in a bad sleep pattern these days
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#744
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Really nice. Well done.
Cheers, Resmas |
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Okay. Gave in, got up, took a shower, drinking my cocoa. One more hour-ish and it will be time to get ready for church anyway. Guess I'll do my morning Bible study before the family gets moving. Long day at church today. We play handbells and sing in both services, and then we have handbell practice this afternoon. Hard to believe that Wednesday is Ash Wednesday already and Lent is beginning. Seems like I just took my Christmas tree down.
Will this be the year I actually get my Easter decorations down from the attic? Headline at the top of the hour. ![]() |
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My BFF and t have met because she came with t and myself when we visited the site of my trauma. So, no breech there. I knew t could contact my husband.. I have known since day one if t thinks I am in a bad spot at risk of needing IP care it is not breaking the rules for t to contact h.
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"You decide every moment of every day who you are and what you believe in. You get a second chance, every second." "You fail to recognize that it matters not what someone is born, but what they grow to be!" - J.K. Rowling. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. |
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I guess I just expected the man who lives me.. To not only see to see the depression and want to act on my behalf. Though, maybe it is a fantasy I have because it never happened after I was raped.. And I looking for ways for it to happen now? I don't know.. I just feeling hurt right now for some reason.
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"You decide every moment of every day who you are and what you believe in. You get a second chance, every second." "You fail to recognize that it matters not what someone is born, but what they grow to be!" - J.K. Rowling. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire. |
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I can't sleep either!!!! It's 5 a.m. in the morning and I didn't sleep a wink!! It's so cold outside but inside same as always. 70 degrees. Maybe I'll move it up. I have things to day but no sleep sucks.
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Maybe cause T is going on an airplane today. I'm so pathetic to worry.
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