The Couch - CXII : The Tao of Couchies

When the feels become too much, listening to Melissa almost always helps. Today is no exception.

Wanted to play this for t yesterday:

It is really hard to know (or to believe). Sometimes people do kind things that don't benefit themselves. That is a sign they care. (This is an ongoing theme for me in therapy so it is something I think about often. It is rather painful.)

I'm sure I'll have to face it eventually. I just hate feeling the pain I already repressed.

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Subliminal message from the couch? Every time I come here I see salted caramel ice cream, until I eventually began to crave it, and I bought some last night. Yummy, thanks couch!

I'm sorry there are so many friends hurting right now, I wish there was something I could do to help. Hugs for those who want them.

I felt like eating something solid yesterday, so I got some salted caramel timbits from Tim Horton's. Mmmmm!

"TIMBITS"? thats seriously what theyre called? way to lure a girl in!

hey unaluna, you'll have to ask your T if he had pickled herring on Saturday. And if he didn't, you may chide him gently from me.

I looked up salted caramel timbits and they look kinda like donut holes, is that what they are?

Yeah tim hortons gets a little carried away with the eponymous foodstuffs - canada is far far away from almost everywhere.

I should have said they also look very delicious!!

At least for those of us punnily inclined! Not mentioning any names...*cough* SD *cough*.

Eta: apparently they are not technically donut holes, they have their own cutter, according to Wikipedia.

Ahhhh!!!! I want to yell at my t!!!

Wanna talk about it?

I am so stressed. I am so fed up with everything. I'm honestly glad I'm seeing my psychologist on Friday, and yet I'm not. I don't know what I'm feeling, actually. Sometimes I feel I'm just here, or that I'm a mistake. I see no reason to be here, and yet I am still here. Anyone ever feel the same way. Life. It will honestly beat you down and laugh while it does it!!

My self esteem takes a hit these days. I'm aging and all the fun that comes with that (wrinkles and grey hair and aches) and I've gained up to my highest weight ever. Most of my work clothes no longer fit. Shopping is a real eye opener. I am a fashion terrorist anyway, but I'm lucky if I can find something that's a neutral solid color appropriate for business casual dress code in my size. Either I'm fatter than the rest of the population, or they wear clothing snugger than I'm comfortable with. I did get a few tops, no luck for bottoms, and I'm frustrated and so done with shopping!

30 mins to T I feel like I have swallowed a truckload of cement. Thak all pocketriders.

I have yelled at my T. he did not crumble or turn the anger around.

Right now I am mad because he won't email me back telling me if he has an appointment available before Friday. There are some rational explanations as to why he hasn't but I am pissed at him for other reasons.

((Forever))

Yelling at your T is permitted. Go ahead!

I'm sorry. Maybe he will get back to you soon.

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She's trying to wean me and become more self assuring but I'm not ready yet. Not ready at all. Not sure she'll listen if I tell her I'm not ready.

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Hopping in. Hope I'm not too late...

It's the way of Ts to push you before you're ready. Kind of a grow wings on the way down just so that you see you can kind of thing. Push your limits and all that...