Couch 129: The Semiprime Couch

Turning 40 tomorrow...

Happy early bday LT. Forty isn't so bad

Thanks!

Oh my gosh, junkDNA, he's adorable! Keep us posted on him.

Junk - I had a cat with urinary crystal things = he had to be fed a special food but he was okay and lived to be about 21.
And cats can get stressed about changes in their environment - so new people living there could easily do it.

ATAT - the therapist has only had 3 ruptures with clients - how is that even possible unless she has only had 3 clients.

My feelings exactly when at our first session she told me she'd only had two ruptures in 15+ years of practice. Either she defines rupture differently than the rest of us or she is clueless.

Evening, couch.

I am home from CVS. Pdoc did not hospitalize me though he did ask me 5 times if I thought I needed to be, so it was probably in the back of his mind. I was probably in his office for 25 minutes as an emergency add in patient. It's good to know that even though I was a squeeze in, he still took time with me and did not rush me.

We discussed solutions to my symptoms and actions that could be taken. He said we could change my antipsychotic altogether, but all that was left were basically oral administrations and that I'd have to remember to take pills. He also said we could increase my current injection, but then I would be at the max dose. He listed some other options too and then asked which I would like to take. I asked him what his recommendation would be at this point in time. He said giving me another injection at the current dose today, then coming back in 2 weeks for an injection at the increased dose. I agreed to that.

When, I was scheduling my next appointment for 2 weeks, the receptionist caught pdoc as he was grabbing the next patients chart and reminded his my original appointment before today's was next week and if she should cancel that and make one for 2 weeks instead. Pdoc told her to keep that appointment, so he can have another check in with me to see if things are settling down. So, I get to go back just to check-in next week. then the following week for another shot.

Before leaving his office to go up to the receptionist, he told me that if this "booster" today doesn't relieve me of my symptoms, he may need to add oral Haldol for a few days to knock it down, but that on top of the Invega that could give me severe EPS, so as a prevention we'd also have to add benzotropine. Great more meds. I'm hoping todays shot will slow down my brain and level out my thoughts. Haldol is a pretty heavy hitter, I'd rather not resort to that.

Well, it is almost midnight, so I should probably start wrapping stuff up and head to bed. Hopefully I will sleep through the night tonight. Pdoc suggested taking a benedryl to help with sleep, I need to check if mine is still good or not. Hopefully it is not expired.

Night, couch.

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He is beautiful!! I hope he feels better and recovers.

I think I am going to write a memoir about my almost two years in therapy and the characters these people were.

Maybe I should wait to find No. 5 first.

I always wondered if there is someone out there reading PC boards and writing their screenplay.

I need title suggestions. Anyone?

Subtitle would be something like "two years, four/five therapists, two psychiatrists, and me."

I'll dedicate it to the Couch.

They're not supposed to, but there's plenty of material here if they did.

"The Couch".

sometimes i feel jealous to my T, because he's perfect, he has friends and family, and clients love him too... he also has a really interesting job and a life

of course i understand he's not perfect, he has problems too and his job is really hard, but i just can't stop idealizing

is it too bad?

thanks, im going to be getting some special food by Royal Canin today for him

are you on the Invega Sustenna injection? i was on that for a while.. i was at the highest dose, 234mg, but it would still run out early. i take invega pills now. i was put on the injection because i was not med compliant. that has changed though. haldol is not too bad, at least for me it wasnt... the only thing i hated was how stiff i felt

Morning couchies! Well we had another $500 worth of work done on the used car we bought, it's now running pretty darn good for a 12 year old car with 105,000 miles on it. So now including what we paid for the car, we're in it for about $3,000 and the check from the insurance company came in yesterday for $2700 (for the accident my son was in earlier this month that totaled his old truck) so that's not too bad I guess. His truck had over 200,000 miles on it. Tomorrow after work I see t again and we'll be talking about my attachment to her... not that she knows this yet.... ha!

Junk, I hope your cat is feeling better. We had an old cat goodness it's been 10 years ago now that had some problems and we fed him that Royal Canin for awhile, it did seem like it helped, and he lived to be 19 I think it was. I wish you all the best with yours.

Have a good day my coucharoonios, and sending hugs to those who want them.

The idealizing sounds like transference. I had the idealizing sort of paternal transference for my marriage counselor at first (and some erotic transference, too). Told him about this, and he's shared more of the real stuff about himself that showed he was far from perfect (like yelling at his kids till they cried, etc.). So it just became more, I guess, regular paternal transference. Which is still very difficult at times (like yesterday!) but I see him as a real, imperfect father and human being now. Which helps.

Have you told your T that his life seems perfect to you, and that's difficult for you? Assuming he's willing to disclose some stuff, maybe he could tell you ways that it's not so perfect? Or even if he won't disclose particular things, maybe just talking about your impression of his life would help, like to get those feelings out?

i never told but i think i should. thank you! of course i feel nervous but i'll tell...may be. some day. omg.

i think i have both paternal and erotic transference, but it never was a problem. one day he just became too perfect without a reason. it makes me feel even more useless and unimportant than before. i can't understand what happened.

I'm sorry you had a difficult session yesterday, are you ok?

40 is the new 20. Happy Birthday!

As of today, I started weaning myself off Klonopin and Wellbutrin. I'm expecting a quick and easy taper off Wellbutrin. I didn't take it today, but instead took 200mgs of 5HTP. I also only plan to take 2 Klonopin today instead of 4. The 2 I'm not taking will be replaced with Valerian Root Extract. The taper off Klonopin will have to be slow. You can really mess yourself up coming off a benzo too quickly. I made it through an Effexor taper a couple months ago-and that's a med not to be messed with. So if I did that taper and came out okay, I'm hoping these 2 will be okay as well.

Yes, I am on Invega Sustenna, have been for 3 years. I am/was at 156mg. Next one, pdoc wants to increase to 234mg though. I was on Invega pills before the injection, but I was not always remembering to take them, hence the injection. I still do not remember to take my other oral pills all the time, so it looks like the injection is still the best option for me.

Hopefully, the additional 156mg yesterday will knock out my thoughts until I get the 234mg in a couple weeks. If the paranoia is still there when I go back next week, that is when pdoc said we would add oral haldol for a few days because haldol would take care of it right away.

I have been on a slew of antipsychotics. I was on Risperdal (oral) for a long time, though we had to keep increasing it every so often, then I eventually began to lactate on it. Then, we went to Latuda...except, I wouldn't always eat enough with it and end up puking it up. So we went with Invega pills, I was good on those for a while, but then I started forgetting to take them, so the injection came about.

I just want to be normal, but I guess that is a wish that only a miracle could solve.