Couch 141: The Inversional Hexachordal Combinatorial Couch

i ended up impulsively deciding to go to my T's game night. i was a little late because it was a last minute decision. i played a game with T and 2 other people. I had fun and it was a nice break from my ****ing brain and the voices...however after about an hour and a half i guess they got mad that i was ignoring them and started chiming in extra loud. i got distracted possibly even visibly so- my T whispered my name at one point? anyway that really embarrasses me so i said i was going to go and left. ugh. i am glad i went i had fun for a short time there, so yeah. maybe next time i decide to go i can make it the whole length haha

I feel that way. Really I do. Even with my person dying - I really truly do not feel like my over all life is bad. There is really not much I would change (aside from the obvious no cancer dead person).

I can't wait 'til Season 5 of House of Cards. Not even two more days! (Yes, I had to use an exclamation point there.) So excited.

I hope to have that outlook soon

Maybe you can explain the appeal of the US version to me?

Every time I try to watch I start thinking how different Kevin Spacey and Ian Richardson are. And I really like Ian Richardson.

But feel free to say "I couldn't possibly comment."

I'm mostly happy most of the time. I think that's all you can reasonably expect.

Hmm. I have not seen the U.K. version, so maybe that is the same as "I couldn't possibly comment."

I have always liked Kevin Spacey, however.

"Kevin Spacey" is the name I call one of my students in my head. Not because of any resemblance to the actor, to be clear.

Soooo... The storm mostly passed by in the end. There were a few big rumbles, but not much. I'm awake at 3am anyway... All that anxious adrenaline...

I am in the states and we had the same thing, supposed to be a storm and only a few rumbles. I can relate to the anxiety from it, although more or less I am worried about losing power. This is the bad thing about this time of year, storms!

Yeah when Lady Diana died, i thought, well would i change places now? Would she be me if she could still be alive? At other times ive thought, would i want other peoples gifts, their challenges, their resources, if i had to give up mine? I.e., this brain, this sense of humor. I dont think i would want to go thru life as someone else. Crappy as parts of it were, i did steer a lot of it.

I love House of Cards. So can't wait till Tuesday. I'll binge watch the whole season over the weekend.
I've never seen the U.K. version so I can't comment.

Yeah we don't get them that much in the UK... I might be less terrified if we did.

I was always excited about losing power as a kid. But as an adult with a laptop to charge and fish in the fridge it's a major drag.

In this area storms don't do much damage, it's always the power companies making "routine" repairs and then dicking it up catastrophically.

Everyone should see the UK version. Every time Ian Richardson does the meme, my toes curl.

Speaking of Netflix shows, does anyone have an opinion on Riverdale?

I love that one of your thoughts on Lady Diana's death was "would she be me if she could still be alive?". You are truly unique

Of course she'd be you, anyway. She'd want that brain and that sense of humour, for sure.

I have no idea when it stops (2 and a half years into current therapy), but for me it's not constant. It's worse, of course, when there are triggers, but there also seem to be periods where I function better and am not getting into trouble with work and life situations (my go-to seems to be things that involve calling the police). I have not gotten much into dealing with memories yet, though, so who knows how it will go. I do know one thing: somewhere around two years into this therapy, a decades long depression started to lessen and now I am without it more than I have it. This is huge. Nothing--not medication, acupuncture, naturopathy, homeopathy, equine therapy--has worked like this has, and a lot of it is because my therapist works with the dissociation.

I am only afraid because its so hot/humid here and if we lose power, my old dogs suffer in the heat. It freaks me out to think that, we have 2 small battery operates fans but not sure how much that would actually help them.

I'm in North Texas. Storms are a constant this time of year, complete with hail and tornadoes. Tornado sirens go off probably once a week (and not by accident). You kind of get used to it, but on the other hand, the reality is that they are truly dangerous storms and we have to always be aware of the weather and take precautions. Pretty much every other house in our area has had the roof replaced in the last month due to the baseball sized hail and tornadoes we had at the end of March.

I woke up sad for like 3 days. No one or no event has ever affected me like that.

About the earlier discussion of people being happy with their lives. I am overall happier now than I have been in a long time. I am very challenged and frustrated at times with my h's hypochondria, he's at it again today, at our friends house... when it came time to do his fantasy baseball moves on the computer, he suddenly became hot and flushed and felt sick to his stomach and started moaning and groaning and acting like he was dying and went outside. So me and his buddy had to try to decipher his handwriting to get his moves put in, and I typed them in, so now I am paranoid that I did something wrong and they won't go through, and h will be mad at me. This is the one area in my life that I am really not happy with - that my h is a hypochondriac. And to prove my point: I finished the move a couple minutes ago and now he is in the other room laughing and talking like nothing ever happened. Maybe he just wanted me to do the computer work. I don't know what I am supposed to do. I just don't. I hate it so much because I feel helpless there is nothing I can do to make him feel better since it is all in his head.

Wow!

I was eleven years old and a bit mystified by all the hysteria. I'm absolutely a republican (in the UK sense, not a Trump voter!) now but I do understand that she was totally a good'un.

I'm a hypochondriac, Art. If you want to play "ask the hypochondriac", or something. If he's just making up to get you to do stuff, though, that's not hypochondria...

Showering is hugely important to me. I shower EVERY DAY and sometimes 2x per day in the summer. The other day I woke up super late and didn't get to shower and couldn't seem to work it into my schedule and felt miserable all Day. I probably only not shower once a year.
My heaven is definitely going to have showers and pizza and juicy oranges and marijuana.

so he's actually a manipulative narcissist... that could be too.... I don't know. it's always mysterious, undiagnosable medical conditions.