Couch 144: The contact-miked cactus couch

I knowwwww. I have major health anxiety, but it also just hits me hard bc this is 100% my fault bc I've known for months and months is that I am treating my body awfully, and now i am paying the price. One would think as an adult,that means I should get with it, start exercising again...eat some fruit and veggies, you know...be effing normal!

Ugh. I am not normal.

Evening couch.

Well last night, pharm manager asked when I wanted to take my vacation time. I said whenever would be convienent for him. He said the 3rd week in July, so I put the request into the store manager who authorizes those things.

I get to work today and pharm manager says he is really struggling with the schedule he is currently making (2nd week of July) and asks if I would take my vacation that week instead or only work 7 hours that week. I said sure change my vacation week because I was flexible. Then before I left, U thought that since he originally said the 3rd week that he would have very few hours to allocate again and I have 60 hours of vacation to use before the end of the year, so I asked if he wanted me to go on vacation both weeks. He asked if I had enough hours to do that. I confirmed I did. He then told me I was employee of the month for offering that because it would help tremendously. So now I am going to be bored for 2 weeks straight with no CVS, but still get paid for sitting at home. I won't know what to do with my time. Lol.

I get to be back at CVS tomorrow at 7am for inventory stuff. I was supposed to be off at 8pm tonight, but a coworker wanted to leave early, so I covered her last 2 hours and worked till 10pm. Hey I'll take the hours. It was just pharm manager and me from 8-10, but we survived.

I work a split tomorrow, man am I too flexible and agreeable. I go in from 7-9 for inventory prep stuff. Then go back 4-6 for the actual inventory tasks. I am nuts... in a quirky way.

Well, off to bed for me...it is almost midnight and I have to leave for CVS in just over 6 hours. Night couch.

It's Pink Flamingo Day
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He doesn't have allergies, he's just a freak

I hope those Couchies with attire suitable for celebrating flamingos did so.

My mother just woke me up to give me the weather forecast.

V - post hoc isn't propter hoc. Meaning, just because something happens after something else, doesn't mean that the earlier event causes the latter.

I seriously doubt that 5-6 months of no exercise and poor diet might have brought on prediabetes.

And fault? Forget it. The human body is an incredibly fragile organism. Something is wrong with each of us, whether we know it or not. We don't blame people for getting cancer, why blame them for other conditions? Some of us are predisposed towards diabetes, or cardiac disease, or high blood pressure. That's just doctor-shaming, and it's totally unhelpful.

Lately ie very recently - now that i am almost 65 and a half - its like i HAVE to exercise first thing in the morning or else i am the Tin Man in body, the Scarecrow in mind, and the Cowardly Lion in mood. I told t that now i understand why he exercises in the morning, and that from now on i will be saying i "love" doing it too, emphasizing the air quotes. Its like its not even a choice anymore, its a matter of being alive or doing a living death thing. It sucks. But maybe its good that the choice is gone.

Eta - fortunately, its not a TON of exercise, just break a sweat. Thats what matthew mcconaughey does

Thanks! I pm'd it to you.

Just got back from my swim. The water felt divine tonight!! I swam laps for a bit and then sat in the hot tub for a bit, and did some good thinking, came home and wrote out what I was thinking about, and now I'm feeling relaxed and warm and happy. No more tears for now anyway.

I did not know this! I won a pink flamingo drinking cup at work not long ago, for having the best quality last month or something. I would have used it today if I'd known. haha

Oh, it isnt doctor-shaming at all. She seriously is the best. But it IS my fault, because i have been terrible at my eating and non-exercising. What else could explain it?

I'm not talking about your doctor specifically, but doctors in general. Making the patient feel that a health problem is their fault is pretty standard in my experience.

What else could explain it? Genetic predisposition to high cholesterol, high blood pressure, diabetes? Stressors in your life? Just for starters.

I just do not see the point of assigning fault. I mean, you could take away from this you need to exercise more, OK. But why the self-pummeling?

Curse my mother. I cannot get back to sleep.

I should go to bed. Need to get up early and get started on my last assignment so I can take the final tomorrow too. Seems like I just started this online class and it's ending already! Maybe if I get up early enough I can get a chunk of it done before h wakes up and wants to go to breakfast - tomorrow already feels like an IHOP kind of day!

Night couchies. I feel like I'm home again so will probably be sticking around for awhile iffn y'all will have me!

Oh, I know...but I am SO GOOD at self-pummeling!!!

Just the stress on your body from the kidney treatment? All the literature i have on diabetes (which i kind of have - my numbers go up and down) say that when you are stressed, or get too hot, or have a cold or other illness, that it will mess up your blood sugar. But yeah, its a metabolic thing - your liver is probably not too happy right now either. Water, water, water! So easy to say, so hard to do - except when i have pain. Then i do enough to alleviate the pain, then my self-flagellation starts up again. Fml.

Finally made a century on the Google cricket widget.

I'll never let you see
The way my broken heart is hurting me
I've got my pride and I know how to hide
All the sorrow and pain
I'll do my crying in the pool

If I wait for sunny skies
You won't know the pool from the tears in my eyes
You'll never know that I still love you
So though the heartaches remain
I'll do my crying in the pool

My roommate was dx as pre diabetic aka metabolic syndrome but it turned out it wasn't true so yeah... You never known anymore lol

We will have you

I need to get in the shower and head to work. I got 6 hrs of sleep mehhhh

I have a terrible migraine again. Slept for fifteen hours. Want to keep sleeping. So miserable. Help

I'm going to pretend to be your mom, OK?
Now you know that technology devices won't help. Make sure you're staying hydrated. Now back to bed, with you, Luco.

((Daisy)) you sweetheart.

*Shuffles off back to bed*

Did you fast completely for the right amount of time before the blood glucose test? If not, that could affect it (apparently you can't even have, say, black coffee or tea.) And if it was a nonfasting test, then it's probably just because of what you happened to eat before it.

For the blood pressure, I think it's the top number that's the "white coat" number, that is affected by anxiety. So if that one was much higher and the bottom one was about the same as before, likely just anxiety/stress.

Do you know what your family history is for blood pressure? H is in pretty good shape, exercises regularly, but is right at the borderline for high BP because of his family history--pretty much everyone in his family has to go on BP medication (H has avoided it so far, but barely). So it could be genetics.