The Couch 145 : I Stubbed My Toe On the Sofa.... COUCH!

Yep. They offer it when our service levels are too good - that way they don't have to lay anyone off during slower times.

Oof I had a big day of being responsible and having responsibilities and now I get to kick back and be dumb in the privacy of my own home.

Previous thought: i don't like being the one tasked with telling my artistic director that budgets are real things and our umbrella organization is broke AF and he can't take our guest artists out for breakfast or rent $3,000 worth of gongs anymore

Current thought: sure I am out of underwear, don't want to do laundry, ok that's established. Do I really need to bother turning it inside out to recycle it? What's one more day?

i have not moved all day xanax and alcohol is keeping the pain away. usband just got home to make food and no way will i eat at all .

I'm visiting my mother in law in the hospital sans husband. It's not that I don't like her, but interacting with her is emotionally exhausting.

Thanks for explaining VTO.

Having a meltdown at work. Spent the past hour crying at my register in front of customers. I couldnt stop. How embarrassing. String of overwhelming bad events. I'll write details later. 3 more hours

Hugs JDNA and everyone.

there are some people that take full 8 hour days of it - i don't know how they can live with cutting that much out of their paychecks!! I took a total of 10 hours in a 2 week pay period (which I NEVER do! I don't know what possessed me) and that to me was a severe cut in my paycheck. A couple of my coworkers routinely take 20 or more hours of it.

Hugs, JD...

Granite-not eating won't make you feel better. Take care of yourself

Hugs to everyone who wants.

Hugs to DNA and anyone else who wants them...

Ok saw T today.. We talked about the not responding to my text message, and the email to him about last week.

So, he asked if I was ready to talk about it which I appreciated, because I had a hell of a time getting to my appointment because my son had a major freaking melt down right before.. and it was just a mess and I was still not settled down by the time that I got to his office. After we talked about that we dove in. He asked me to talk about the circumstances leading up to the text message and how I was feeling about it now. So, when I told him what happened and what I was doing when I texted him he said that he didn't get that urgency in my text message and just felt like I was just having a rough time, and not as bad as I was. But- really want he emphasized is limitations..He can't always be available. Which, I understand and agree with him on, BUT in this circumstance that text warranted some kind of response. So he asked me if it would have been better if he just responded, busy in office today, or with family please contact crisis line or go to hospital if bad. I said, that I am sure it probably would have pissed me off, but not made me feel as bad as him just ignoring my text completely. He admitted that he let me down, and understood that I felt abandoned by him.

He said in that circumstance since it was still during office hours, I could have called his cell phone, or called the office as well. And tell him I need to talk to him. My text was, something like not in a good place, husband said some hurtful things to me, just not in a good place. He said I should of asked him to call or something. I kind of rolled my eyes at him because he knows I only text when I am THAT BAD. He told me I can still text him, I can call his cell phone, if he doesn't answer leave a message. I can call office and tell them I need to talk to my Therapist and if he isn't available I can ask for my son's T because she knows me and my background.. or really any of the other Ts. Same for after hours, if his answering service can't get a hold of him, that I she feel comfortable talking with the other T's they can get a hold of.. and there immediate answer will not be go to the hospital.

He was good with it, and I think he was surprised that I was as bad as I was and I could tell that he felt bad about just brushing me off. But he just kept on talking about limitations. I was honest with him, and told him I truly understand that there are limitations to this job and our relationship, but I can't promise that I can reach out to him anymore. Which he said he could understand why I felt that way. Which means, we need to really think up a new safety plan if that is the case.

I just can't get his voice out of my head when he said, he let me down. He said you felt let down, and that's what I did was let you down.. and it ok to feel that way, and be angry about that. Ugh.. that was a sobering moment in my t relationship. I am not sure that we are done talking about it because I still have a whole lot of feelings surrounding, but it was a good start. We did talk about my invite to his son's graduation party.. which I will talk about in a another post because this got way long.

A man just said "suck my ****"and I said goodbye and he said "I'll see you later"

THIS IS WHY I HAVE PARANOIA.

This is why I could never bring myself to work at Walmart. My heart really does go out to you.

I am so sorry you have to deal with people like that.

So, as for the whole invite to T's son's graduation party. He told me that his wife ran it by him before she invited me (remember a couple of years ago when it was clear T's wife and I were forming a bit of a friendship, I asked T to tell his wife that I am a client). So, anyways, he told her that he did not mind at all.

So, he just said whatever I feel comfortable doing is fine, I asked him if there would be his co-workers there, and he said yes. I said that is the part that makes me feel uncomfortable. He did say that many of them know that I know his wife and the kids and they wouldn't bat an eye at seeing me there. Though, I keep saying I feel like it is weird, like other Ts will be like why is she there. And T was like, Healed.. we aren't doing anything wrong. LOL I know that... but I know that other ts do thing this type of dual relationship is wrong.

Anyways.. I am still on the fence about it.

So earlier I got put on the tobacco register. I had no twenties.. No ten... And like 3 fives. And ones.

We request money they "action codes" on the register so I did that. No biggie.

30.min go by and nothing so I set my register light on blink. The front end manager walked by and asked what I needed. I told him I have very little money. He said okay and walked off

Nothing happened

A man came up and wanted $100 cash back. I explained the situation to him. More people came up to stand in line. 2 more men. They asked me what the deal is. I told them. They started *****ed amongst themselves. We all stood there for about 10 minutes not even joking.

One of them asked if he should go up to the desk and tell them I need help. I said ok. So he did that.

About 5 min later the front end manager comes up. He asks me what I need. I told him again that I need money and this man wants cash back. He said ok like he was going to go do that. He never came back.

Finally after telling like 2 other coworkers I need money a csm came up and handed me 5 20s. I gave it to the man who was waiting. He got so mad and yelled across the top of the cig shelf at the front end manager walking by. Then he marched over to him and yelled.

Like the front end manager didn't even go get any ****ing money. At all. And I STILL didn't have any money.

I started tearing up. The other 2 men from before went somewhere else. Another guy walked up and said smile it's not that bad. I started crying and he was like saying it's ok and it doesn't matter etc. I said I'm sorry. Rang up about 7 more. People. I guess 1 lady went and said something because the csm came over and said yes? I cried to her and she told me to go on lunch.

I considered not going back but I did. The csm apologized to me. Later on I saw her in the parking lot.. She apologized again and said that the front end manager felt bad. She said he is new and doesn't know how to work the money machine in the cash office. I told her well I wish he would have come and told me. She said she understood blah blah blah

And then after all that a Hispanic man told me to suck his d!! K.

Wow, what a hard shift JD. I hate when you have no money in the register and people want cash back. I also hate it when their prescription costs 80 cents and they pay you with a 100 dollar bill. Like really you don't have something smaller?!? Luckily at CVS the most cash back you can get is $40, so that is usually manageable, except when 4 people in a row want it back. The joys of register running.

Stores are not cash machines or change machines. People need to learn that.

I also get idiots asking if they can buy a roll of quarters from me because they need to go across the street and do laundry. Ummm, no...I need those to give change if I run out of the ones not in a roll. Go to a bank and ask...what is that banks are closed...plan ahead.

Evening couch. I am home and caught up on the couch. CVS went pretty well tonight, no overly idiotic or mean people...except for one who demanded to speak to the pharmacist when there were 3 cars behind her because I was too "stupid" to understand what she needed. No maam, I am telling you what the pharmacist said...it's too soon to fill your script...okay, you want to talk to him...he will tell you the same thing. Pharmacist comes over and says it is too soon and insurance will not pay until 7/2. Lady argues that she wants to pay cash then. Pharmacist says let me look into it (he already had before he came over)...maam, you seem to be dr and pharmacy shopping. Based on the script you paid cash for at Walgreen's 3 days ago, I will not fill your script until July 21st. You are welcome to come inside the store and talk to the store manager, but he can't make me fill it...the pharmacist on duty has the final say. She argued some more and speeds away and hits the pole at the corner of the building. Hah!

KARMA

Wow!! Yeah. And it wouldn't surprise me at all if that was a person who called and screamed at me yesterday because I couldn't fill it early through mail service either! It takes all kinds, I guess. I don't know how y'all in retail deal with people face to face. I couldn't do it. It's bad enough over the phone.... we have some awesome folks on our escalation team who, when member gets mad and says "give me a supervisor" we transfer to them, and the really awesome ones ask how we gave the answer so they can give it exactly the same way we already have.

I may suffer from overexposure to niece-y cuteness over the next two weeks. They are especially adorable walking around clutching the beanie babies I brought them that look like my cats. They are very into cats.

And I really need to work on telling them apart before I'm left alone with them tomorrow. "Eileen has a slightly wider face than Bridget's" may work for their parents, but not me.

Is one perhaps a little taller? Or have longer or shorter hair? If not, I'd be clueless.

Nope. So far all I've got is one has a more simper-y expression than the other. But not only is that an opinion I should keep to myself, I don't know which one it is.

how old are they? maybe you could paint their nails and give them each a different color so you could tell them apart that way?