The Couch 145 : I Stubbed My Toe On the Sofa.... COUCH!

You look great, Art!

Is it too late to contact Cs parent?

Okay, broke down and sent pdoc an email about this. We'll see what he has to say.

She is out of town in Canada and he is staying at a neighbor's house for the nights. and has the caretakers during the day.

I heard from my mom a few days ago that my grandfather is going into hospice care.



He has very advanced dementia to the point that he cannot say two related sentences. I don't think he'd get anything out of a visit from me beyond a break in the monotony. I don't know if I would get anything out of a visit to him. I saw him in the hospital most recently two years ago. Only for a few minutes, with my whole family. We had to leave because my dad got angry with the nonsensical conversation and started yelling at him. He kept asking when he could go home to his wife and my dad kept shouting, "this is your home now and your wife is dead!"

Maybe he can call in something to settle me down and bring me back to this world to hold me over till Wednesday.

Anais, that sounds like a miserable dream.

I'd honor your feelings about going to see him or not. I would hope you don't let other people influence what you feel is best for you.

I actually don't even know where he is. At some hospital near Philly, I guess.

More crazy sht at Walmart. Feels like I'm just constantly being harrassed. Mostly by men. A man asked me if I have a boyfriend. Another man said I was trying to kill him because I handed him a "moldy dime and mold will kill you".he wouldn't shut up or leave. I just started totally ignoring him

I stopped by game nite. T seemed surprised to see me. He asked during our session if i would stop by. That was before it got all intense

He asked how I am and how is work going. I hung out for half an hour and I wrote a note to T. I gave it to him and left. I felt weird about it immediately after and like I shouldn't have done that. Mostly because of the way he said ok when I gave it to him

But about a minute after I left he texted me thanking me for stopping by and for my kind note. And that he is not upset at me at all. And that it is an important part of the recovery process

I don't know what he meant by "it". I might venture to guess the disillusionment of the relationship

I am still panicking about t. He stirred up all the parts or maybe they were activated already.

Wait how did he got from a goatee to a beard in such a short time?

I know he isn't my father, i know this, but I don't really understand...

I only see him once a fortnight and I thought last fortnight he facial hair was more
He is also a very hirsute man.

Nothing from pdoc yet. He is probably in bed like a normal person and already checked his email for the night when he responded to the email from yesterday.

JD. I worked at a Walmart in high school (before they were "super Walmarts"). I had creepy male customers too. I was 16 and this one guy came though my line once and asked what time I got off and if I wanted to meet him for a drink. He was in his 40's. I told him I was too young for him and only 16 and he told me he knew I was at least 20. He came thought my line every day for a week asking me out for a drink. Then he didn;t come by for a few days. Then he came by with his kids (elementary aged) and told them I was going to be their new mom in front of me. I then refused to ring him up and flashed my light for the CSM and told her he was harrassing me. Walmart patrons are weird and creepy.

Holy carp. We're gonna need a separate forum just for walmarts! J/k! The Couch loves walmarts! We buy our multicultural Oreos there!

oh god yea... i know that feeling of dread when you see a customer you recognize that has given you a hard time. it feels like there is no escape. i need to stand up for myself more. i mostly just take their abuse. i dont want to get in trouble for being unfriendly though. because that has happened before, too

victims of walmart

Freaking out that pdoc is going to react negatively to my last email. Wish I would not have sent it, though he probably does need to know. Hoping he will agree to prescribing something that will knock this crap out of my system.

im approaching 13,000 posts

una's got me beat though , 24,000

To quote Fried Green Tomatoes -

Thats cuz im older, and i got better insurance!

2 more days off. I am starting to get bored.

I have a love/hate relationship with Walmart. Love their low prices, hate everything else.

Also, art, appreciate you mentioning your time off. I was freaking out about how I couldn't sleep but then I remembered that there is no summer school tomorrow.

Still up...tried to go to sleep but couldn't. Maybe I should just give up trying and stay up all night.

I just want to be normal. Why must I be cursed?!? Why must my mom downplay it all and tell me it is normal?!? Ummmm... these thoughts are not normal. I don't want them, normal people don't have them, I just want to be normal.