The Couch 145 : I Stubbed My Toe On the Sofa.... COUCH!

No one hates you, granite! Your T is retiring? When? Maybe that's why she's been pushing you lately. I am very, very sorry! I don't read this forum much but I'm sure you're misinterpreting something about people hating you!

I don't hate you. I know how painful it is to have a therapist transition away. While my T isn't retiring per se, he is changing his practice and stopping accepting new clients to retire in 1-2 more years.

Please stay safe. Please.

I don't find them intimidating at all... just going slowly nuts with all the racket they make

I was incredibly intimidated by my building manager/ all-around maintenence guy though, til the fire last year when he had to guard the property all day from looters and was bored out of his mind... we had some good conversations then. A friendly-enough dude, just very loud and blustery and old Boston-type.

Finally caved and took an Ativan for the third day in a row.

I can't wait to get out of here tomorrow.

I have had appointments with clients all week. I am not used to wearing a suit every day in the summer any more.

I don't hate you granite! I'm so sorry you're feeling this way. Sending you hugs and healing thoughts. I'm sorry things are so rough w your t too.

Looking around for more new therapists. I think I will avoid the one who says in her Psychology Today profile that she will "re-program" clients. Eep.

Re-program clients? Good god - how horrifying.

What in earth makes her think that is a "selling point"?

I am out. 😴

Granite, please be careful. I know you are really upset right now, and I understand, but you aren't hated here. PM me please if needed. I will be on and off the forums all evening.

(((granite))) please be careful and stay safe, there are a lot of people here who care about you and wish we could help take away your hurting, I am sending you healing reiki energy and lots of mental hugs. you are a beautiful soul and so worthy of love and happiness. i care about you. (((granite))) I'll be around this evening and probably a lot of tomorrow too cuz I'm off work and will just be at home cleaning my house, and checking in on here every time I get bored with cleaning. Which will be a lot. feel free to pm me too if you need an ear.

Hi guys I'm super freaking tired. My eyes are bloodshot. I feel exhausted. I just want sleep. Have 3 more hours at work tho

Granite I hope you are safe.

Sheldon in the Big Bang Theory does seem like my tv self:
"I don’t care for unconscious thoughts. My brain and I are best friends. It should tell me everything."

I admire Sheldon, because he is so unapologetically himself. Graceless sometimes perhaps, but he's always his imperfect real self.

Which I suppose is easy for a made-up character on a tv show!

But, I still admire that about him and he is the main reason I enjoy the show. Well, that and when usually soft-spoken Bernadette yells like Howard's mother hahaha

I am so sick of feeling my emotions so intensely. It's really unbearable at times. And I can't seem to get myself back down..

I was just talking about this with my T last session. I feel things so acutely and intensely that it's exhausting. If I figure out how to better manage I'll let you know.

((Granite))

Two things I really didn't want to learn (but are true):
1. Relationships don't last forever.
2. Relationships can be replaced.

You will find another T!

((Granite))

I don't hate you. I don't believe you are widely hated.

1.5 hours. Customers keep asking if I'm tired. Like YES I AM!!!

Have my first mammogram tomorrow. Freaking out a bit, not about the procedure itself, but fearful they'll find something. I was prompted to go by finding out on Facebook that someone I went to college with just got diagnosed with stage 3... (Plus I've known some other people who had it fairly young.) H was understanding about my fears, which helped. And T was really supportive about it yesterday during session. (Wish I could reach out to MC, too, but I know his wife had breast cancer like 5 years before she passed away, and although it wasn't the cause of her death, complications from the surgery contributed to her health issues. So I'm not bringing that up--well, unless it becomes something I have to bring up...)

My mom had ovarian cancer at my age (survived), and I'm going to have a sort of screening ultrasound thing for that soon, too (even though they say that there's not truly a screening test--more of a detection test, I guess.). Figure I'll make that appointment tomorrow, since it would be at same place.

I'd ask for pocket riders, though I'd appreciate if you avert your eyes while I'm topless!

Sometimes I feel like people hate me but I've found the real problem isn't that everyone else hates me, it's that I hate myself. May or may not apply to you, just my experience.

Parents bring their children in to be reprogrammed. It's a lucrative racket.

I'll be there, eyes covered when needed!

By the way, I learned these statistics when I had my questionable mammogram in January. Something like 85% of mammograms are normal, of the 15% remainder where testing is repeated, 10% or 2/3 gave abnormal results because of operator error or are something like a cyst, and of the rest, the majority of lumps found are benign.

Thanks! For the pocket riding and the stats.