Couch 153: Couch slouch

Welcome to the couch, old and new! A place to hang out - sometimes you get immediate feedback, sometimes you don't.

Shouting, "Cool Whip" tends to bring others out from between the cushions if you're feeling lonely.

This is a chatty thread. All are welcome. We're kind of psychologically oriented, sometimes. We try to be supportive. At times we discuss what that means.

It’s a place to plop down on the couch when you come home from work or wherever, or wake up in the middle of the night, or check in at lunch, rant a bit or not, and be among friends.

We advise you not to drink or drug and text your therapist ("T") - we speak from experience...

Sometimes the thread moves fast and you might get overlooked; sometimes it moves slowly and all you hear are crickets. Sometimes you get hugged or thanked pages later. So if it's a bigger question, you might want to start a new thread.

Grab a cushion, a spot on the floor, or an armchair in the corner (or with us) and make yourselves comfy!

First post!

Thank you for setting up the new couch, BCM!

My alarm goes off in 30 minutes but I've woken up at least 10 times tonight. I quit.

By hook or by crook I'll be fourth on this couch.

T in 2 hours
My pocket is really comfy, please welcome...

Of course I am in.

I'll bring the pocket snacks, capt!

I'm in

I'm sad couch. Sad and empty.

I wish I could help you...
What can we do for you? What happened?

if you need to talk.....

Nothing happened, really.
It's just my brain being my most beloved enemy.

Hopping in captgut!
*offers Demunie coffee because coffee gives mood boosts sometimes*

I like the couch name,BCM!

Thanks for the new couch!

In your pocket captgut.
Demunie

Popping in to say I'm so glad it is Friday!

I'm in the waiting room...

You can do it captgut!

Ok now I hate myself. I'm so alone

Hey all,
Reeling from a news report of a local psych hospital. It's the one I was in and out of when I was at my worst from 2010-2013. It sounds like it has gone downhill BIG time(or was good at covering themselves before). The new investigation focused on anything since 2013. Not only in treatment of patients(lack of staffing) but also the way they are treating the staff that works there. It makes me SUPER angry and more so that it ALWAYS seems to take a news crew for corporations to initiate change. Luckily an employee(now former she was fired a few week after filing the report) was brave enough to report the problems to the state. So happy to be out from under psychiatry though I understand some absolutely need the help of such people. I still see a therapist but even that is minimal anymore.

Bluhhhhhhhhhh

48 hours....

That's awesome! Though sorry you're feeling bad...

Keep it up DNA your doing great

Feeling down again.

I've spent most of today feeling sick and throwing up twice. I haven't been able to eat properly either for a few days.

Today also happens to be the birthday of the last guy (M) I was in love with. His birthday is one day before mine. I will officially be 26 on saturday and I don't really know how I feel about it. Last year I wrote in my journal"that it was my birthday yet I wish I was dead" . Getting birthday messages from friends made me feel worse because they went on about how great I was. I'm sorry for being so morbid but I guess I still feel the same way. This has been one of the worst years for me. I don't feel like I've actually achieved much in this year. It's hard to run my own race and not feel so stuck. Others girls in my year are already settled down and having children. I feel the same yearning I guess, but I'm doubting what kind of parent I will be if I struggle to look after myself at the best of times. The idea of childbirth scares me but I guess I won't exactly even have to worry about that when my most significant relationship has been with a stuffed bear.

The exam that determines my fate is on monday and right now more than anything I wish I had my mother to comfort me or my baby brother. I don't want to be on my own, not when I'm in this state. I wish there wasn't miles between us. I want to cry but I don't have any tears left.

Whilst we're "friends" again I don't think I will message M. It hurts to have to forget him. What do I actually even want? To prove that I still remember without being reminded- that I actually cared. He broke my heart when he literally walked out on me just before I figured out how I felt about him. But he threw away all of what we had, because he didn't like the feeling of getting attached to someone. Someone like me I guess.

Has anyone heard from luco? There was an explosion on the subway this afternoon her time.