Couch 172: Couch me if you can

((Lemoncake))

I can't survive this! I'm going to be locked up soon or worse. My Pdoc had her nurse call to check up on me. I'm too honest. Now I have to go in and talk to a NP tomorrow. My H wants to go stay at the hospital again. And it's my birthday tomorrow! He bought me no gifts. And there's a seminar on infertility tomorrow night and if I go I get a $500 certificate to use for a consult! But I have a major fear of driving alone to new places. But if the NP calls the cops on me tomorrow, I don't get to go to the seminar and I don't know when they'll have one again.

I'm falling apart so bad! I need help! Maybe I should go away? But then no one will take care of my dogs. I'm so tired of life.

Any support greatly appreciated.

(((((Scarlet)))))

((Scarlet))

(((lemoncake))) (((scarletpimpernal)))

When I was a relatively new driver, I'd honestly take my sisters stuffed bear who was called Beary and strap him in the backseat so that I didn't feel like I was alone. I also listened to podcasts or songs I liked on the way.

Happy early birthday! Unless I can't meet up with someone in time I tend to give birthday presents early. He might be waiting until tomorrow-does your H normally forget or not put any effort in?

I think honesty is a good policy with T's, You need all the help you can get when you're really struggling. Perhaps you could find a pet hotel or a pet sitter?

I'm on the bus back now. Just an hour to go then another tram. Then I'm home.

When I had to print my bording pass yesterday my mother and I argued. I asked why she didn't leave my father. She said she thought of the children's future. I guess I just feel resentful.

Hugs, Scarlet...

And hugs to Lemon, too...

Just had a session. Meh. I didn't like it much.

We're here if you want to talk about it.

Nope. No present. And he did take the ambulance to the ER. I've lost count now.

I don't know if anyone would be willing to or know how to take care of our dogs. Well, one person, but that would be a lot for her. My dad is living with us, but he doesn't like our dogs. And my dogs recognize it and don't like him.

(((Lemon)))

(((Scarlet)))

(((Echos)))

does anybody else totally over-analyze emails from t? i am doing that now. i wish it was tomorrow already lol

oh and good morning couchies! sending hugs/headnods around as appropriate.

I've done this.

Oh, I totally do that.

That weird moment when you're watching a Frasier rerun and they're talking about transference and it hits a little too close to home...

thanks. i may have to delete this response from her if i can't stop obsessing over it and wondering if she's frustrated with me or glad i'm coming back or mad at my ping-ponging or..... (insert major eyeroll at self here)

(and then getting a major ah-ha that what i'm doing is like textbook co-dependent behavior omg)

Perhaps there's an alternative Artie in that she's glad to see you again.

requesting some pocket riders for my session with T in an hour.... we are going to discuss a rupture that occurred on Monday... I am nervous and don't know what to expect. it feels like a risk.

I'll hop in.

I think you mentioned last time his condition was linked to anxiety, I hope he is willing to talk to someone now.

I would buy or do something nice for myself tomorrow, but also bring it up. I would be hurt by the lack of effort.

+1

Hopping in...