Couch 172: Couch me if you can

I’ll come along, jd. Hugs.

I think I'm late but I hope it went well.

Hope it went well as well!

I am sitting in my T's waiting room feeling like I'm in the principal's office. I feel on the verge of a panic attack.

it went well. thanks for the support

fille_folle, I hope it goes well with your T!
DNA, I'm glad that things did go well with your T.

I'm wondering if my job likes to mess with me for fun. I'm trying to remind myself that they're piling stuff on me because I'm capable of doing it, but now I'm starting to feel overwhelmed.

Hugs fille and jdna

On the 8th of August I got something scary going on and there will be three people in the car, including me.


I really do not cope with the number three. Can I have pocket riders on the 8th so I can trick my brain into thinking there's more than three in the car?

Had my follow up mammogram today, and then an ultrasound. I received the news that I am the proud owner of a cyst. So...good news on that front. Now I can get to back to my regularly scheduled health crises before being rudely interrupted by the breast situation.

Yay, glad everything is OK! And that you were able to find out immediately instead of having to wait.


I need to schedule my second mammogram (had first one lasts year) and dreading the fear that comes with waiting for results...

Sure, I'll ride along. This may seem silly, but could it help to bring along a stuffed animal or even a doll to make it feel like there's another being in the car?

Congrats!!!! I also have to get a follow-up ultrasound. I'm so glad it went well for you. It is a rude interruption, good way to put it!!

I'm in

RR - I am glad it was not cancer.

Therapy is such a futile bag of shite for me. Thinking about ghosting next week. I know it's probably not a good idea.

I said to T "it feels like you're saying it was intrusive and pathetic"
He said "I don't think it was intrusive"
😐

I'm sorry, echos. Therapy is so hard.

Oh, dont give him so much credit. He wasnt being snide about the pathetic part, in fact he was patting himself on the back for paying attention enough to remember "intrusive", then that was the end of his attention span. Bet you dollars to donuts.

On the therapy is so hard note, while I'm excited about going back for 3 months, I'm kinda mildly terrified in a way too. We've arrived at some deep, core "stuff" I believe w this co-dependency thing. And it honestly scares the daylights outta me. But I do trust her more than anybody to 'go there' with me. I hope I still feel that way tomorrow when I'm there. I've come to realize all the building of the relationship was necessary so I could be ready for this. I feel on the verge of some big work and wonder if 3 months is even long enough. Or if I'm brave enough.

I said "Just pathetic then?" and he said "I feel like you are trying to make me criticise you".

Yes, this, therapy can be so draining.

If I wasn't in love with her before, I am now.

Melissa Etheridge

I'm pretty sure she didn't write it. But I love it sooooo much!!

i should be swimming.

Eta: I went for a short swim so nice.

My therapist printed out this article and asked me to read it before we meet next.

Attachment to Your Therapist | Psychology Today

What is he trying to tell me with this? It feels like this is more of the "I can only do so much" talk that's he's been giving me over the last two weeks. I was mostly at peace with my feelings of neediness, but I'm starting to feel ashamed of them.

Uhhh...weird. THat would throw me. What did you guys discuss in your last session?