Couch 204: The Refactorable Couch

Congrats on being done with 4th year exams and passing with an A!
I'm out of the loop, but what are you studying towards?

That's what scares and worries me is that last time it didn't keep me safe the entire time. It did when I had constant supervision as a 24 hour sitter, but left to my own mind, just being there wasn't enough to keep me safe from myself.

H is out driving right now, and I'm sure I'll be sleeping by the time he comes home. He asked me who called earlier and I told him it was my T, but that's all I could discuss before he left. He said I was freaking out because of the full moon and Friday the 13th.

Finished all my discussion replies for this week so now I just have the brochure and reflection to finish before the 19th. And finished my discussion posts for week 5 too besides replies. Told my T that's what I'm going to try to distract myself this weekend with as much as I can.

The downside to my new "I'll see you when I see you" policy is that whilst I feel more in control, it's led to me asking if I can still have the SAME session time I said I didn't want earlier on in the week but now not knowing if it has been filled until he gets the time to say if it's full or not

Thank you.

Just medicine. I'm on a 6 year course instead of the normal 5 in the UK like my brother. So after this I'm nearly done!!!



Now I have some free time I actually want to study maths and french.But I was looking at counselling courses yesterday.

There's a few free ones online for anyone else interested:

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after I spend the whole day in bed watching you've got mail.

I didn't even notice that!

Do you think there's something in particular that's triggered you so much right now? Can you ask extended family to help you right now with the babies, so you can get some time to yourself. I used to SH a lot so I can understand it. Can you give whatever you normally use to someone you trust?

Maybe longer sessions with T could help?

It feels like a combination of daily life that has me feeling overwhelmed on top of the SA. My 2nd oldest is struggling really bad lately at school and home which isn't typical of him and triggering me. He's only 10, and it hurts me to see him so irritable and unhappy. I think he might be depressed but the school therapist hasn't been much help. I emailed 2 child therapists yesterday to see about getting him more help at my Ts advice.
Because my oldest has ADHD, my family and my Hs family never wants to help. Even if I'm in the hospital my mom says she's too old to deal with a bunch of kids running around.
It's lonely and isolating. The only person I really trust outside my immediate family lives 1000 miles away from me. I did put the stuff I use up and hidden after last night. I know where they're at, but it would take longer to get them so it's a little bit of a barrier.

I am having really distressing thoughts but they are strangely comforting. I hate being mentally ill sometimes.

Congrats to Lemoncake. I am thankful all the doctors and doctors to be on here you cope with your mental health while doing one of the most stressful jobs around.
In fact congrats to all who struggle with their mental health just for making through the day and still being around.

Went to bed with a headache. Woke up with a headache. I'm getting a bit tired of this. Had a 48 hour headache earlier this week. Ibuprofen doesn't seem to help.

This is the email my therapist composed for me. Do you think I should leave out the bolded bit?

It depends.... do you want to share that with her (and is it true), or not? If not, it's fine to leave it out, if you want to share, that's fine too. And it's also fine to not elaborate further and just say that part, without going into detail about it if she asks.

This psychotherapy thread could be at least 10 individual threads, or is that just me and my short attention span?

I think the Couch is intended more as a hangout, although it can be more serious sometimes.

Its just one of many coffeeshop-type threads on PC.

Annnnnnnnnnd welcome to the couch.

Hi

Can I get your order?

My husband Niles recommends the Chai latte or you could try our special gingerbread latte .

Awww fanx.



But in honesty I haven't really started working fully yet. I mainly just observe under someone else.

You're doing your best.Just try to remember that.

Do you have anything like flexi-schooling programs, or maybe changing schools would help. .

This might be the last thing on your mind, but are their any local ADHD mum meet ups near you or forums you could join?

Would hiring a child minder or nanny be an option for an hour or two?

Donut Friday at work today. Mmm. Free food. I went to see Downton Abbey last night with my parents. It was a special preview screening. It was good. I liked it. They still managed to fit in some story arcs. I'm super depressed today. I'm sure that's shocking to everyone on the couch. I was really tempted to call into work, but I had commissions to calculate and I had an ACH payment that needed to be made and I just couldn't see myself not coming in to do those things. I'm having a hard time not SH-ing. Not sure I'm going to make it through. So not looking forward to my cousin's wedding tomorrow. I don't want to come out of it feeling even worse about myself, but I already told her I would go so I'm stuck going. I would really rather just stay home in bed. But that's a bad thing, I know.

I'm sorry you're struggling so much.

Are you still seeing T2?

How was the drumming class?

I would recommend seeing your primary doctor. They could give you a prescription for something stronger. It might seem like I'm over reacting but at my hospital patients with headaches were also seen by the neurologists just to rule anything else out.

If you're comfortable showing P the bold stuff I don't think it needs to be skipped.

I decided to take the plunge and send it to her and hope she didn't take my complicated feelings as negative (even though there are some negative feelings there), but it seems that's the only thing she saw in the email. I have no idea how to respond to her now. I sent P her response. I don't know how my life has gotten so messed up that I can't even communicate with my mother.

So I’m currently behind my uncharacteristically closed office door because someone with a sword is present in my building.

I’m sure it’s just some kid who does Tai Chi or for some reason put a costume on.

Wow that's scary @@! Be safe.

Are you safe now @@, did they get the person with the sword? It's crazy but when I was at the movies last night, I kept thinking like, what if there were an active shooter here (yeah, in Downton Abbey preview movie) that it's uncomfortable to be out in the general public now because there are so many acts of violence.