Couch 204: The Refactorable Couch

That sounds nice, how do you get non dairy yoghurt, i am goingto google that

Sometimes it seems so unreal that I am struggling with so much depression. Today has been a really bad day at work, just too much pressure and too much anxiety, and too many weird things that I don't normally have to deal with, today I had to deal with them and I'm used to my comfortable routine of what I need to accomplish at work. I know that my coworkers have no idea that I struggle with depression. I show up everyday, I do my job, I sometimes can make small talk, not always, but I give it a good shot. I get my work done on time, etc. But I realized today in dealing with some stuff with the controller that I missed a few things, that normally I wouldn't have missed. Details, but still. So I'm being really hard on myself and feeling like I'm not a good employee and beating myself down, when in all actuality, I know I'm doing my best. It's not easy coming to work with suicidal thoughts. Jumping over to websites that are there to help you if you're suicidal, or texting a helpline while I'm working. I've had depression for so long that I just suck it up and deal with it. But those details I missed are really going to get to me. I know it will. I don't want my coworkers to think less of me. But I don't want to admit to them that I'm at a breaking point. So I just continue on, day after day. About the details I missed, one thing I used to tell myself when stuff like this would happen is, in ten years, is this going to matter? I can confidently say no. So it helps me to let it go and not SH or take it out on myself another way. Just now it's something I have to be aware of. Thanks for listening, couchies, ya'll are the best. HUGS kit

No i have checked it out there is courtyard but it only has a fire escape door that only opens from the inside. The thought of walking in and all the drunk old men watching me walk through, ugh.

So anyone want to give me feedback on how to answer an email?


The email he refers to is when I wrote earlier this summer to tell him I'd had the two stories accepted. I think he was expecting me to say something about them being published when we went around the room to introduce ourselves Monday, and I didn't (I didn't want to seem boastful). Or maybe he expected me to send him the stories when they were out? (I assumed he'd be too busy to read them because he's promoting his novel that's coming out this fall, plus writing more.) Or maybe it was my comment on Monday night about one piece of work that he said he hadn't thought of. Whatever.

Anyway, should I reply and if so say what?

If this is how you feel, you could just thank him and say that you're glad to be in his workshop as well. Personally, I would assume he would ask to read them if he wanted to/had the time to, but maybe he's hoping you'll offer them up? What's the etiquette on asking to read someone's writing? Were these stories you worked on previously in his writing workshop that he might have already read? I don't think there's anything boastful about sending him your stories whether he's read them before or not. You should be proud!

So anyone want to give me feedback on how to answer an email?


The email he refers to is when I wrote earlier this summer to tell him I'd had the two stories accepted. I think he was expecting me to say something about them being published when we went around the room to introduce ourselves Monday, and I didn't (I didn't want to seem boastful). Or maybe he expected me to send him the stories when they were out? (I assumed he'd be too busy to read them because he's promoting his novel that's coming out this fall, plus writing more.) Or maybe it was my comment on Monday night about one piece of work that he said he hadn't thought of. Whatever.

Anyway, should I reply and if so say what?

He was born one day before my father was! Get your mind out of the gutter!

ETA: Plus, I don't think he even knows what a SIM card is.

I need to rant/vent. I know this is coming out mostly because of being nervous about flying tomorrow but dang it, why can't anyone come visit ME?! Every year (pretty much) I go back there. Since I moved away in 1998, one sister has visited exactly once (when my son was a baby, and he's about to turn 21 now), my other sister has never visited, and none of my friends has ever come out. They keep making noises about doing it, but none of them ever have despite my invitations. I have no issues with my brother only coming once, because he lives half a world away! And my Mom did come in May for son's graduation. Her and my Dad did come visit every couple years or so when my Dad was still alive too, on their RV trips with friends. But my siblings, and my friends?! Why is it always me that has to travel?! I guess I need to figure that out for myself and maybe make some changes next year... rant over, and it's now time to head over to campus for belly dancing. yeah! gotta get ridda this tension.

I need to rant/vent. I know this is coming out mostly because of being nervous about flying tomorrow but dang it, why can't anyone come visit ME?! Every year (pretty much) I go back there. Since I moved away in 1998, one sister has visited exactly once (when my son was a baby, and he's about to turn 21 now), my other sister has never visited, and none of my friends has ever come out. They keep making noises about doing it, but none of them ever have despite my invitations. I have no issues with my brother only coming once, because he lives half a world away! And my Mom did come in May for son's graduation. Her and my Dad did come visit every couple years or so when my Dad was still alive too, on their RV trips with friends. But my siblings, and my friends?! Why is it always me that has to travel?!