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Magnate
Member Since Feb 2017
Location: North America
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#761
Hahahahaha wiped out something fierce. Taking a moment to gather my gumption (and what’s left of my pride).
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Magnate
Member Since May 2017
Location: Earth
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#762
Yesterday we watched the episode of Mr. Rogers where he meets the Postmaster General and learns how stamps are made. Then the critters in the Neighborhood of Make Believe received copies of their annual report (wtf?). The baby wasn't very interested, but my wife and I were fascinated.
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Wise Elder
Member Since Nov 2013
Location: US
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#763
Went back to the ER last night because I was having an allergic reaction. I think it was due to one of the antibiotics they gave me. My lips are still tingling and swollen. And my abscess still hurts. I'm starting to worry because I don't want to be like my H always rushing to the ER. But I had good reasons for each visit. And it was the holiday, so I couldn't see my PCP. The doctor at the ER last night said I have to go to my clinic this week to check the wound and my allergic reaction.
L was actually able to make it to yesterday's session. It wasn't a good session. I wrote her that she didn't care. She said that hurt her. Now I feel so bad and guilty. I know she cares. Hell, she made it to our session just for me. I don't think she had anyone else. She's been so good to me. I don't know why I flipped out on her. I cried the whole session and apologized profusely. I am truly sorry. I feel like I need to be punished in some way. __________________ "Odium became your opium..." ~Epica |
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Always in This Twilight
Member Since Feb 2015
Location: US
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#764
Quote:
Hugs...If your lips are still tingling and swollen, that's concerning. If it continues or gets worse, you should consider going to the ER again, as there could be a risk of anaphylaxis. And this is definitely different from your H...plus, like you said, your PCP wasn't available. |
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Poohbah
Member Since Mar 2014
Location: PNW
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#765
This sounds awful. It sounds like you've been under a lot of pressure lately. Do you have ways of coping with stress? Do breathing exercises or that sort of thing help at all?
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jun 2018
Location: Somewhere
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#766
I found Mr. Rogers creepy when I was a kid. His soft voice, niceness, and the fact that he was a man just made me uncomfortable.
I liked Sesame Street, Arthur, and Wishbone. I used to get mad at Sesame Street, though, because I didn't like how they would keep switching between skits. It was like as soon as I got into something, they'd move on. I think I watched Lambchop when I was really young but I don't really remember. __________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold |
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Child of a lesser god
Member Since Jun 2015
Location: Tartarus
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#767
After he died several people told me my father reminded them of Mr. Rogers. I think it was mostly the way he parted his hair, it was the same color, and he wore cardigans.
ETA: I was just about to get up from the couch and go be “productive“ when new cat flopped down on my feet. Bless her little heart. |
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Always in This Twilight
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Location: US
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#768
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They seem to have changed Sesame Street so it doesn't do that anymore (I recall that as a kid, too). Each segment seems to be self-contained now. |
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Poohbah
Member Since Feb 2019
Location: NJ
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#769
I watched Mr. Rogers, Sesame Street, Punky Brewster, Small Wonder and a few others.
Right now I’m watching Mary Poppins. Guess I’m just nurturing myself this weekend. |
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Elder Harridan x-hankster
Member Since Jun 2011
Location: Milan/Michigan
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#770
Pinky Lee, Howdy Doody, Soupy Sales, Milky the Clown (our local Bozo).
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Magnate
Member Since Oct 2013
Location: CO
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#771
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Possible trigger:
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Feb 2017
Location: the upside down
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#772
I'm supposed to meet with my therapist tomorrow unless he cancels on me. I wonder if he feels that his email to me after last week's cancellation was too harsh? I'm not feeling super excited to go in there and I don't know what the path forward is going to look like because I'm sure as hell not going to share any more of my feelings about anything relationship related at this point. I know there are different camps, but from working with him, I know I need to feel attached in order to feel safe opening up.
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Magnate
Member Since Feb 2017
Location: North America
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#773
I survived skiing! My thighs are sore but I feel good otherwise--nothing broken, despite a massive wipeout halfway down an intermediate hill.
In other news, my T and I have been considering increasing session frequency from once a week to twice a week. But in one of those weird paradoxes of which my therapist is incredibly fond, T says that I have to be stable for that to happen because he doesn't want my illness to be the mediator of our relationship, doesn't want more sickness to mean more attention, etc. So now there's a part of me that's kind of afraid to tell him if I'm not doing well, because I would like to have two sessions a week. Therapy is so so weird. (Or, perhaps more accurately, my therapist is so so weird.) |
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Magnate
Member Since Oct 2013
Location: CO
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#774
I broke down and called my T and left a message for him to call me back if he has time tonight.
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Always in This Twilight
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#775
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That seems really confusing... I go twice a week, and I feel sort of the opposite, where I worry if my T thinks I'm doing well, he'll say I should decrease sessions. Though he's learned from any time he's just hinted at that to stay far away from it--once I'd said at the start of a session that I wasn't sure what to talk about, and he'd said that can be a sign it's time to reduce sessions, and I got pretty upset. And said it was more that I wasn't sure *which* thing to talk about, not that I had nothing. He's said since then (and before that) how it's up to me when to reduce sessions. That he wonders if regular therapy is what does enable me to cope with life (if I seem to be doing better). I'd discuss your concerns with your T. That you want to try twice a week but then worry you'd be reluctant to tell him if you were struggling more, for fear he'd say you had to stop that. I've found twice a week helpful, incidentally--can make more progress that way, and I worry less about a wasted session. |
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Child of a lesser god
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#776
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Props on going skiing and doing something good for yourself! |
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Magnate
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Location: North America
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#777
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Child of a lesser god
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#778
Now I want cupcakes.
*gets up to see if she has cupcake ingredients* |
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#779
Cupcakes for everyone!
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Grand Magnate
Member Since Jun 2018
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#780
It seems like he wants to make sure he's not incentivizing being sick or in crisis or staying sick or in crisis. However, he's taking it to the next level in a way that makes no sense. I understand that he has concerns related to the diagnosis you don't like to name. However, he's just ended up incentivizing being dishonest that you feel bad. Honestly, I think when therapists control session frequency, it always creates an incentive for a client to be dishonest.
In any case, he must not think you actually feel bad and that your expressions of feeling bad are "acting out." This is a thing that people believe about people with a certain diagnosis, and it can be true sometimes. He might conceptualize you feeling bad as purely longing for connection with him. Following this line of thought, he is offering you a reward for not acting out. It would make sense if your problems could be solved purely by modifying your behavior. I'm not a fan of the way your therapist approaches anything. __________________ Life is hard. Then you die. Then they throw dirt in your face. -David Gerrold |
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