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The thing today is that he recognized how some issues I've dealt with regarding him and our relationship have helped me with my outside life (like, I have similar concerns in my relationship with him that I do regarding friends and family). But he said he'd rather I leave him out of it if possible, to just skip that step in talking to him if I have a realization about something.

And in a way, I get that, but if talking about the step in between (involving him) helps me, then I don't see what's so bad, aside from his personal discomfort, about mentioning it in the process of talking about things. Do I really need to protect/take care of the therapist that much? Isn't that part of the point of paying them? For them to take care of their own stuff? Otherwise, how is it that much different from a friendship, except that I'm also paying for it?

I was just on a group text with my mom and 2 sisters and my one sister said something that totally triggered something in me and i snapped back "i will just shut up then" and turned off my phone. now i feel like an idiot. what the hell is wrong with me?!

I didnt realize you had 2 sisters. I would not have survived that!

@@ - thats why ts wanna see you (ie me) several times a week, to speed that up. Im not sure who the slow one is, tho.

I'm watching an old episode of the x-files. man, mulder and scully look like college kids!

@@ - thats why ts wanna see you (ie me) several times a week, to speed that up. Im not sure who the slow one is, tho.

I am fairly loose on cleaning stuff. I don't usually wash my cast iron even with water (there are a few rare exceptions) - I scrub with salt and reheat with oil. But every time cleaning cast iron comes up on some of my cooking forums - it is the biggest xxxx show. I am most amused by the hyper clean people who insist on soap - the soap insisters get all unhinged at everyone else - even though they are not eating from those skillets.

I am looking over my student evaluations from last term. Is it good to have an online course compared to a Netflix docuseries? (I don't watch them so I have no idea what they're like.)

At least they didn't compare it to a mockumentary.

Yes - and they are twins! They are 5 years younger than me.

Another painting.

What’s the ratio of therapy years to real-life years? Like I feel it’s only now after 3 1/2 years that Info is becoming regularly useful. And I’d know that a lot faster in real life. So I posit 1 year in therapy = 1 month of real life.

Just got back from the ER with my youngest, who has a kidney infection. I have to work tomorrow, but I won't be able to go the whole day on 3.5 hours sleep. My boss would tell me not to come in, but I was out unexpectedly all day with my oldest at the dentist. Boss had to cover one of my reports, which is a very un-boss-like thing to do and I feel terrible about it.

Good thoughts from the couch are welcome and much appreciated.

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I measured therapy time like I would a work week - 40 hours = 1 week so that it would take almost a year to equal the amount of time one would spend near regular strangers at a job (the therapy hour being only 50 min from the two I hired - so they don't get credit for a full hour each week even). That is why I was always incredulous over the woman's statements that she knew me. She spent at most 7 weeks with me total over the 6 yrs I hired her. And that grifter thought she knew me? Those people are egotistical lunatics

Getting my IUD replaced this morning. When I got it inserted I passed out and threw up :/

Here’s hoping this round is less exciting...

Ugh, hope it goes better this time!

Weren't you also previously alternating weeks with another T too? Have you asked info about going more then once a week or is she not able to fit you into her schedule?

You know what therapists really shouldn't say if you opt to cancel your session? "There is a good chance that your slot will be filled by another client, so if you change your mind please let me know sooner rather than later." Which, yes, may be the truth, but feels very much like "You can easily be replaced." I asked if he could hold it open until 1 pm today, which would be 24 hours notice, and he agreed to do so.

Info and I have been having problems with next week's appointment. Last week I had to cancel the original one because an essential work meeting was set at that time. She offered an alternative which I also couldn't do. Until yesterday, when I suddenly could do it. Wrote and asked if the alternative was still free, and got a short, direct reply that it wasn't. I admit it felt like a slap in the face (mainly because I don't usually ask things like that), but she's not responsible for my feelings, I am. Thinking about it that way restored my equilibrium.