Couch 238: Appreciating Small Progress Couch

Thanks Divine and LT for the insightful comments i really appreciate them and have stored them for future reference. the situation has passed and he has obsessive thoughts but his therapist is on holidays (arent they always) and he is sending his dog back to me and he will work on the skills he needs to cope, the dog is just such a full on dog.

I wish i didnt have this aversion to asking people questions. I always think people will think i am being too nosy. I really want to know more about my adult children but i have always believed people will tell me what i need to know. I feel like i suck as a parent its not that i dont care i just dont know what to say.

You don't suck as a parent! My mom asks *too* many questions, and that's more of a negative to me. Now I just don't share that much.


Could you maybe say (or email/text) to your children that you want to know more about their lives, but don't know what to ask and don't want to pry? Sort of an opening for them to tell you?

Thanks LT i will do it that way i appreciate your time to reply.

Tiktok permanently banned my account for breaching community guidelines. i did nothing but watch and like a few. The only thing i can think of is my username which was Funkemtwoddle. Funk as in the music and twoddle as i speak a lot rubbish i dont know why they think this is offensive i actually think i clivked through the notice for an appeal because i dont tend to read things on social media sites.

Don’t worry, I got you.

Caledonia was the Roman name for northern Britain. Easy to create North Caledonia from that.

I continue to stink at Worldle. And today’s answer...well, my family’s apartment in Athens is across the street from their consulate. Really no excuse.

Tiktok is a waste of time and computer memory anyways

It came pre installed on the phone i bought about a mnth or two ago, i was just starting to explore it. There was some interesting things i found, not the usual brainless stuff i thought Tiktok was.

Back from camping. I made the perfect s'more. The marshmallow was golden, the chocolate was melty, the graham cracker...well, it was a graham cracker. Now I am glad to be back where there are showers and refrigerators.

A YouTuber made a video of interesting one pot meals he saw on TikTok, and I felt like he sifted through a lot of underwhelming dishes to find the gems.

Oooh, do you have a link?

I'm scared today. It's my last appointment with my pdoc and first appointment with the new NP. I made a list of topics with L, but I don't know if I can cover it all. I wish it was in-person. Would be nice to see what this NP looks like. I hope she doesn't try to change my meds. Ugh! I didn't like my pdoc per se, but we did trust eachother.

Here's it!

I hope it goes well, Scarlet!

Beautiful pictures, WarmFuzzySocks

I feel like being nasty. I already manufactured an argument with my partner (twice) this evening, but I can't fully let loose nasty with her because she has such a soft little face. And grey hair. Who can break the heart of a woman with grey hair, for heaven's sake?! I hate being like this. The desire to be nasty is such a strong impulse, it feels animalistic. I guess this is a product of my upbringing, but God I want to feel that emotional surge of knowing that I have hurt whilst remaining detached myself, detached momentarily at least.

I hope both appointments go well for you.

Well, the appointment was different than planned. It wasn't a joint phone call. My pdoc decided during the appointment to change me to a different NP, one closer to me. We said goodbye and it felt like nothing. Anticlimactic. I'm not sad even though I feel the loss. Loss of someone I trusted. And then the NP called and I had to break it to her that she wasn't going to be the NP I would see. That was awkward.

I guess I feel numb? Maybe? I don't know. It sucks because I don't want to get to know or trust someone else. But I didn't really like my pdoc anyways. She was too happy...to the point of idiocy. But she knew her meds, so I trusted her. I hope this new NP doesn't change my meds. If she does, I'll have a fit!

I despise At&t

New kitten has been here for just over a month. He's doing really well. But now I'm getting ready for another cross-country move and the thought of dragging two cats with me for a two day drive is exhausting.

Also, I swept my apartment today and got kitten's toys out from under the furniture. He continues to drag the door mat around and when older cat tries to play with his toys he gets upset - which is hilarious because he doesn't play with them much except when she tries to use them.

Read an A for the ampersand first time around. And thought, “what did I do now?”

Hi Couchies,

My T texted me at 4:13 AM this morning and said she had to cancel my Zoom appointment tonight because she is going back to Las Vegas and can she reschedule it for next week on Tuesday at 6 PM?

Humph.

I'm disappointed. And a little hurt. I haven't responded yet. I don't know what to say!

I faxed my pdoc last week with the symptoms I have been having that my T says is psychosis.

So he sent me a message in the portal telling me he would put me back on Olanzapine and he wants to up my Latuda to 120 MG. I have an appointment with him on Thursday but I guess he is going to do this now.

Yikes, Kit.

I'm sorry your T subjected you to that. A 4:00am text from anybody is usually a sign that something's seriously wrong, not that they've decided on the spur of the moment to go on holiday.

HUGS,

Lost

Thanks Lost for the hugs.

I haven't responded to T's text yet because I don't want to respond out of a hurt place. In a couple of hours I will probably be able to respond out of a rational place. But right now I'm still kind of hurt. I hate day of cancellations but I know they aren't always possible to not happen. She was just in Las Vegas on a vacation before she got Covid, and then last week she had Covid and then this week she is going back to Las Vegas. Kind of strange. She even sent me a text message picture last time of her in Las Vegas in what looked like to be some sort of bar with someone who I assume was her daughter. Kind of strange. So I don't think she is going for some emergency or anything like that, which would make a missed appointment not feel so hurtful. I do see Pdoc this week so maybe that would help. I don't know.

HUGS to you as well my dear--Kit