Couch 241: Twin primes!

A, i thought the default was blue, not pee.

2, how do you use that page? Why not just hit "My Profile" and get a list of what forums you subscribe to that you havent read yet? Then pick a forum.

So cornfused!

Cuz you cant tell where you pee in a desert

i'm watching the church service online at my home church back in MO; right now the Pastor is giving his sermon and it's alllll football analogies. haha he must be wishing he was at home watching football right now haha

Ugh, now it's not even listing the names of threads if I've read them!

I kept yawning during our family zoom call cuz I'm tired. I know they mean well but my family just saying "Be happy about your overtime money" feels so invalidating. Yes, okay, the money is good but damn it, I wish somebody would send me a care package or something!! I always send care packages when any of them are having a rough go. I mean it's as simple as a couple of clicks on amazon.com for pete's sake lol. Or even a simple, "aww, you do look tired" would have felt better. I'm tired getting up so early and having to take calls, do my normal job, do live chat (depending on the day, and sometimes doing more than one job in the same day). I think next week I'll skip the zoom call and catch a little nap instead during my lunch break. Hopefully the mandatory overtime will be done with on 1/31. I know last year the overtime continued into March or April, but I think if I remember right it wasn't mandatory that entire time. I don't remember how long it stayed mandatory for my team. I'm waiting for more work to be sent to me right now so have a tiny break.

Rant over as the work I requested just popped in.

I should mention after my rant - that was solely about my family. I so very much appreciate the support here! You guys are awesome.

I'm scared about Tuesday's session. I've written everything out. I've never ever told anyone these details or said these words. L reassures me that it will be okay and this subject doesn't affect her. Still, I'm scared. And ready. I don't know why my brain decides to just rip the bandaid off. But L says to trust my wise-mind, that it's always been right.

Little Luna is doing good. Not quite potty trained. She has found her voice and has a lot to say...lol. But overall, she's such a good puppy. We've started letting her roam around the house on her own. She loves the freedom. Oh! And she's sleeping through the night. She let's us know when she needs to wake up and go potty. This is her on our way to L last Friday.

Awww Scarlet she looks so precious!!

Also, wishing you the very best for your session on Tuesday.

3 hours down, 6 more to go today on the stupid phones... it was snowing here this morning briefly and very lightly. Yuck all the way around. Artie's attitude is in the toilet rn.

Just made myself a yummy salad with spinach, avocado, tomatoes & red bell pepper to try to turn my mood around today. It's delish.

4 more hours... 4 more hours...

You can do it Artie! I know it sucks. Sometimes it's just like gotta get through something to come out the other side! 4 more hours!

Doing okay. Kind of wish I was talking to my T tonight instead of tomorrow night because I have an OBGYN appointment tonight and I think I'm going to leave there upset. But whatever. I'm sure whatever I have to say can wait until tomorrow.

HUGS, Kit.

Can you make some notes after your appointment and take them to your session tomorrow?
If nothing else, it's a starting point.

Good suggestion, Lost!!

I can also text or email T tonight...

My god, I wish this flu would go away. I'm crying right now because I want a grilled cheese sandwich.

HUGS NP_Complete. I hope you feel better soon.

Hugs, NP, sorry you're still feeling sick. Is there anywhere that you could DoorDash a grilled cheese from? Though I imagine they don't travel well...

Hugs, Kit, I hope your appointment goes well tonight and is not too distressing. It's good you can text or email your T.

I'm scared

Thursday morning Mum has a hospital appointment so I got to drop her off there, then come home, catch Willow, take her to the vet, then either come home and drop Willow off then go pick Mum up, or go pick Mum up first then bring Mum and Willow back home (Mum lives near me)

somethings going to go wrong i'm sure of it, either Mum will have something serious wrong or Willow will go into the vets and die there

idk if i'm over reactioning cause Willow's losing furs from her back legs and i not sure if she's allergic again or if something else is wrong

HUGS willowtigger

hugs NP, willow, Kit, and anyone else who needs/wants...

i'm on my afternoon break for another few minutes, then 2 more hours of phones. People have been mean today.

Kit is a wonderful person

Artie doesnt deserve mean things

Saw Dr. T today after he'd been on vacation last week. I said how I felt bad about sending him such a long email early in his vacation, and he was like, "How long did you think it was? It was pretty short compared to what you're capable of producing! It only took me a few minutes to read." So that was reassuring, that he wasn't bothered by it.

He clearly felt bad that I didn't click with the backup backup/third-string T. I said I was concerned he'd think that he went through all this trouble to find someone for me (as R was away), and then I was being ungrateful saying how she didn't help. He said he didn't think that at all, how finding her was part of his duty to me. How it was more that he was concerned our second session would also go poorly, that it might have been better if I hadn't had a backup at all. I did say how I thought that (and some other stuff, like bothering him with email) that I was concerned about him thinking was probably my own voice in my head, my own judgment of myself.

I said how this vacation had felt more difficult for me than any in recent memory and wondered if it was partly because we were just at the tail end of working through a rupture. That I was just starting to feel more connected when he went away. He said, "And the cement hadn't set yet." I said, "Yes, exactly, not knowing whether it would stick. Whether your going away would affect it." So he seemed to get it.

I did joke that he and R need to coordinate their vacations, to not be away at the same time. He said, "I get priority though!"

It all felt connected, which is what I needed.