mother and daughter

My mother she always get to me through my dead sister. She knows she will get me this way. She knows I will have flashback and I will go back on my decision to not have anything to do with her. My mother she is hard to deal with, always have been and I guess always will be. I wish she could leave me alone but she will not. Making me feel guilty that's how she gets me everytime.

nightdream

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I wish I could take some of your hurt away.

Sweet Nightdream,

I have similar problems with my mother too. I'm so sorry your mom is that way. My therapist has been helping me to distance myself from my mother- both physically and emotionally-- it's hard work , I don't think I could do it without support from him.

If possible, maybe you could try distancing yourself? Mothers are supposed to be kind, nurturing and help their children in rough times-- it really sucks for those of us that never had that nor never will.

Please know that we are here for you and care very much.

Your friend,

Mandy

I have distanced myself physically. Emotionally she still gets to me. No I never had a mother and I don't remember my childhood. Her and one of my brother has driven a spear in my heart the day my sister died. It has never healed and probably will never healed. It is too deep, have hit target too cruelly.

I have a lot going on in my life. Too much really.

It does help a bit to write about what is going on with me here and there in different forums. I appreciate this site very much and I really do appreciate the people here.

Thank you to both of you!
Much love
nightdream

So sorry, ND. ((((((((((((((Nightdream)))))))))))))))))))

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More than likely your mother and brother are blaming you because it is THEY that are guilty and refuse to accept their own responsibility in your sister's death.

As far as I am concerned, you are a heavenly angel sent to live among us. I truly mean it! You are so sweet, so gentle, so understanding. You deserve to give yourself some of those beautiful things that are yours to begin with.

I love you so very much! God's blessings on you, dear friend!

nightdream, as i've grown to know you, through our PMs and posts, i've realized that you are one of our gentler and kinder people...your desire to live your life quietly and peacefully, has impressed me. your determination to free yourself from the negatives in your life is unbelievable.. you're going to be all right..i just know that. love, pat

First, I thank you all so very much for caring.

Second, I am speechless. I must take a moment to breath here.

Third, You must not say these beautiful things about me. I don't deserve them. I must have guided you on a wrong thinking about me. Maybe the way I write or something I said, but I do not deserve these words. Do not say that. I am such a loser and a failure like you wouldn't believe I am. I am shaking my head here. Oh dear I must have created a picture of me here that is not me. It's ok but you must erase this picture of me in your mind. These beautiful words you said do not belong to me. I'm just trying real hard.

Thank you!
nightdream

{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{{NightDream}}}}}}}}}}}}}}} It's all true, Sweety. Believe it. Take your time, but believe it.

Love you!

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Nightdream we never see our true essents (sp) it's seen by others what we see is sincereity and compassion, you are a dear friend to all of us
Angie