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Old Oct 12, 2010, 10:35 PM
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Not sure where to put this but I've had two best friends, who claim I "ruined" their life.

The first, her name was Donna, I was friends with her from 4th to 6th grade (ages 9-11). I learned today, after hanging out with a friend of mine who I've known since 3rd grade, that she hates me because I ruined her life. She said something about me not accepting the lunches she gave me back then, and I only thought of myself.. Mentioning that once I had blamed her for all the arguments we had.

The other, her name was Rachel, she was 2 years younger than I, and I knew her online (she was my online best friend) from 7th - 9th grade (ages 12-14). She said I, too, was selfish and only thought of myself, I'm sure there are other things, but we argued a lot as well.

Rachel actually stole my boyfriend, if you'd look at my past posts you'll see how I cope with that (horribly) and the whole story behind it. She thinks I deserve it, it's payback, or revenge to her cause I "ruined her life".. and she admitted this, that's how I know.

Now I don't know how to feel about this, it makes me sound like a horrible person. I am depressed, and I was physically, sexually, and verbally abused as a child by 99% of the people around me until I was 8.. Dealing with the stress, and the memories, when I was little came out in lots of aggression until I was 12 and it turned me miserable. When I go over this in my head it sounds like I'm making up excuses, not accepting that I was a selfish, bossy, little brat until recently. But I don't see how I could have ruined their lives?

I told Rachel that if she didn't like how I was she could leave. She knew I was dealing with things, but she would always say I wasn't strong enough or she was able to survive this and that without being sad. With Donna.. well I can remember a lot of times when we had fun.. but I don't see why these grudges must be pulled out so far? I haven't spoken to Donna since I was 11.. I'm 15 now and yet she still thinks I'm selfish and admitted to my friend that she doesn't approve of us hanging out together?

I tried to distance myself as much as possible from Rachel when she first took the guy I was with (so similar to my current situation) last year in April.. but she follows me around trying to crush my spirit, trying to take all the guys I ever liked.

I don't understand why they pull it out so far. I could name a hundred things I didn't like about them, or stuff they did to me, but I don't and I don't hate them, I never played the revenge or the grudge game. I never told my friend he couldn't talk to Donna or that I didn't like the fact that he is still in contact with her. I never told my boyfriend (now ex) really that he couldn't talk to Rachel, I mean I told him I wasn't comfortable with it but he could if he wanted to.

I've grown up so much these past few years but these girls.. they're stuck in a rut and refuse to just let go? It's starting to get to me, and I don't want it to but it does. I can't see myself as being as bad as they make me seem to be. I mean I have plenty of guy friends who don't understand where these girls get it from. I wonder if it's them or if it's me. I wanna think it's them but.. thinking that way might prove I am what they say I am???
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Old Oct 12, 2010, 10:46 PM
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those girls are complete *****es, aren't they?
these are people that actually feed them selves from the suffering and weaknesses from the other. i recomend you to just let go, no one that makes you feel bad without a reason. i know it will be hard, but you just have to rely on people that loves you for you really are on the inside and not for what you show on the outside,

you are a strong young lady within, you can make it.
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Old Oct 12, 2010, 10:55 PM
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You deserve better than either of these girls have/are treating you.
Teenage years are hard.. really really hard.. everyone is jealous of each other, everyone is cruel to others.. it sucks really.

Here is a list that made me smile - pay attention to number 29 Really what others think of you doesn't matter in the long run, it is YOU that counts. I wish I could be selfish and only care about me (like what your so called friends seem to be doing - not you) but caring is just the way I am.

Written by Regina Brett, 90 years old, of the Plain Dealer, Cleveland ,
Ohio .

"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught
me. It is the most requested column I've ever written.”

My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once
more:

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and
parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their
journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God
never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one
is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no
for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie.
Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years,
will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you
did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come...
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."
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Old Oct 12, 2010, 11:12 PM
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You deserve better than either of these girls have/are treating you.
Teenage years are hard.. really really hard.. everyone is jealous of each other, everyone is cruel to others.. it sucks really.

Here is a list that made me smile - pay attention to number 29 Really what others think of you doesn't matter in the long run, it is YOU that counts. I wish I could be selfish and only care about me (like what your so called friends seem to be doing - not you) but caring is just the way I am.

Written by Regina Brett, 90 years old, of the Plain Dealer, Cleveland ,
Ohio .

"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught
me. It is the most requested column I've ever written.”

My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once
more:

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and
parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their
journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God
never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one
is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no
for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie.
Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years,
will this matter?'
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you
did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come...
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."
thanks a lot of these things on this list made me laugh. you're really good at helping people, cheering them up, I wish I was as good as you A lot of my friends have suspected it was jealousy, but I never wanted to think that it was.. it kinda makes me scared in a way to think people are jealous. i never wanted to feel that i was better than anyone else or had that power to make them have such negative feelings about me.
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Old Oct 13, 2010, 12:47 AM
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thanks a lot of these things on this list made me laugh. you're really good at helping people, cheering them up, I wish I was as good as you A lot of my friends have suspected it was jealousy, but I never wanted to think that it was.. it kinda makes me scared in a way to think people are jealous. i never wanted to feel that i was better than anyone else or had that power to make them have such negative feelings about me.
Thank you for saying that I like to make people smile and feel better - have to say that it is self serving as it takes my own mind of my emotions and issues

One thing that I have learnt (as hard as it is to act apon and accept) is that no one has the right to control others emotions or feelings. So if your so called firends feel this way then it is their issue not yours xxx Sounds to me they have a little bit of growing up to do!
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Old Oct 13, 2010, 06:38 AM
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Thank you for saying that I like to make people smile and feel better - have to say that it is self serving as it takes my own mind of my emotions and issues

One thing that I have learnt (as hard as it is to act apon and accept) is that no one has the right to control others emotions or feelings. So if your so called firends feel this way then it is their issue not yours xxx Sounds to me they have a little bit of growing up to do!
yeah, more like a lot of growing up to do. donna especially since i haven't spoken to her in 4 years. Rachel, i just wish would leave it alone.. she's only hurting herself with this. she's not making herself out to be very great, and im sure karma will get to her eventually. for me, she might hurt me by taking boyfriends, but i usually always find a way to cope, and will get over it in an amount of time i guess she's not satisfied with as she'll come back and try to do it all over again.
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Old Oct 13, 2010, 06:45 AM
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You are very mature, sensible and well balanced for your age. I think you will go far in life and there is much happiness for you to have xx
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Old Oct 13, 2010, 10:00 AM
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You are very mature, sensible and well balanced for your age. I think you will go far in life and there is much happiness for you to have xx
there is lots of happiness for you too. we just gotta find it, i think.
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Old Oct 13, 2010, 11:33 AM
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Not sure where to put this but I've had two best friends, who claim I "ruined" their life.

The first, her name was Donna, I was friends with her from 4th to 6th grade (ages 9-11). I learned today, after hanging out with a friend of mine who I've known since 3rd grade, that she hates me because I ruined her life. well truth be told no one has the power to ruin another person's life unless they choose that. so that's on her, not you. She said something about me not accepting the lunches she gave me back then, and I only thought of myself.. Mentioning that once I had blamed her for all the arguments we had. oh please. she's very immature and knows how to hold a good grudge. get a life, donna.

The other, her name was Rachel, she was 2 years younger than I, and I knew her online (she was my online best friend) from 7th - 9th grade (ages 12-14). She said I, too, was selfish and only thought of myself, I'm sure there are other things, but we argued a lot as well.

Rachel actually stole my boyfriend, if you'd look at my past posts you'll see how I cope with that (horribly) and the whole story behind it. She thinks I deserve it, it's payback, or revenge to her cause I "ruined her life".. and she admitted this, that's how I know. ditto for rachel.

Now I don't know how to feel about this, it makes me sound like a horrible person. I am depressed, and I was physically, sexually, and verbally abused as a child by 99% of the people around me until I was 8.. Dealing with the stress, and the memories, when I was little came out in lots of aggression until I was 12 and it turned me miserable. When I go over this in my head it sounds like I'm making up excuses, not accepting that I was a selfish, bossy, little brat until recently. But I don't see how I could have ruined their lives? actually you've been thru a lot for young age. so don't beat yourself up over this or give them "rent space" in your head. as for taking responsibility for traits you'd like to change, good for you!!!

I told Rachel that if she didn't like how I was she could leave. She knew I was dealing with things, but she would always say I wasn't strong enough or she was able to survive this and that without being sad. oh please give it up donna, you're just jealous! With Donna.. well I can remember a lot of times when we had fun.. but I don't see why these grudges must be pulled out so far? I haven't spoken to Donna since I was 11.. I'm 15 now and yet she still thinks I'm selfish and admitted to my friend that she doesn't approve of us hanging out together?

I tried to distance myself as much as possible from Rachel when she first took the guy I was with (so similar to my current situation) last year in April.. but she follows me around trying to crush my spirit, trying to take all the guys I ever liked.

I don't understand why they pull it out so far. I could name a hundred things I didn't like about them, or stuff they did to me, but I don't and I don't hate them, I never played the revenge or the grudge game. I never told my friend he couldn't talk to Donna or that I didn't like the fact that he is still in contact with her. I never told my boyfriend (now ex) really that he couldn't talk to Rachel, I mean I told him I wasn't comfortable with it but he could if he wanted to.

I've grown up so much these past few years but these girls.. they're stuck in a rut and refuse to just let go? they're immature. time to gain new friends, real friends, not like these two. It's starting to get to me, and I don't want it to but it does. I can't see myself as being as bad as they make me seem to be. I mean I have plenty of guy friends who don't understand where these girls get it from. I wonder if it's them or if it's me. I wanna think it's them but.. thinking that way might prove I am what they say I am??? not unless you give them the power. be true to yourself instead!
so move forward and don't look back.
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Old Oct 13, 2010, 11:39 AM
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I think being a teenager and looking at one's life is a little like being a great painter with an eye disease so all one's paintings come out weird looking to the rest of us: http://www.sciencedaily.com/releases...0410182854.htm

I'm still "best" friends with two girls I was in high school with (we graduated in 1968) and couldn't believe some of the things that one said to/about me at our 40th reunion a couple years ago! But, it was 40 years after the fact so not as "immediate" or devastating as it would have been if she'd said it when we were 16. I had/have some, similar feelings about her but didn't tell her.

Our lives are about us, not other people; no one else can ruin your life and you can't ruin theirs. I'm glad you realize you may have acted in ways you no longer do/wish to. That's what learning and growing is all about. People take longer or shorter periods of time understanding, learning and incorporating parts of their earlier life into their whole. Sounds like you are on a faster track at the moment than your friends. It's not good or bad, it just is, like being better at English than Math or better at Science than Phys Ed. Everything can change over time; when I was your age I thought I was "bad" at science and math but now I have been taking those courses and doing well. I'll never forget when I had probability as a freshman in college and flunked and then had statistics as a junior and probability was the only part I got right. It took me a couple years to catch up to myself.

Maybe your friends will catch up to you and maybe not. But keep pushing forward as you are and seeing what's "next". When you were 10 you were selfish and bossy; you aren't as much now. That's "progress". You can't "fix" what was going on when you were 10 or how you appeared to others (ever as they have their own reference point we can't ever know), you can only keep discovering yourself and learning about what works for you. Sounds like you're on the right road to me.
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Old Oct 13, 2010, 08:07 PM
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it's good to know im not alone thinking that it's silly for them to hold onto it for so long. these past few months as rachel kept trying to hurt me i stopped denying who i was, and started accepting that maybe i wasn't the best. i had apologized to her before, said i was sorry for way back when I didn't appreciate our friendship. that's all that can be expected of me, but it's not satisfying to her, which is why she continues what she does. my good friend reminded me about her and her jealousy and it makes sense but as i said before it's hard for me to come to terms with it.

how do you make someone not jealous? or at least leave you alone? it seems impossible.
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Old Oct 13, 2010, 08:56 PM
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If they want to be jealous of you then they will be... they think that yor life etc must be better than theirs... They haven't come to the realisation yet that no ones life is perfect and wonderful... just seems so on the outside.

I would have as limited contact as possible - steer clear of places and situations that may cause resentment on their part.
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Old Oct 13, 2010, 09:27 PM
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First off, screw them! It dsounds like they are the selfish ones, projecting onto you. Second- I hope you are doing better and congratulations on being able to get through all that horrible stuff you lived through growing up! That is some tough stuff! I don't hve experience there myself, but I can only imagine how tough that must be. Third, rememeber, you all were young, they were most likely imatture at the time and didn't understand your situation and thought you needed to be there more for them (i.e., they're the selfish ones). Especially the fact that this Rachel girl stole your boyfriend and now says you 'deserved' it? That's so upesetting, I have a former friend named rachel who was very mean to me, so perhaps this resonates a bit too much with me, =) Forget about them, there's plenty of better, caring, nice people out there you can be friends with, Plus, don't worry about them saying bad stuff about you, most people know there's always two sides to a story. I hope you feel better.

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Not sure where to put this but I've had two best friends, who claim I "ruined" their life.

The first, her name was Donna, I was friends with her from 4th to 6th grade (ages 9-11). I learned today, after hanging out with a friend of mine who I've known since 3rd grade, that she hates me because I ruined her life. She said something about me not accepting the lunches she gave me back then, and I only thought of myself.. Mentioning that once I had blamed her for all the arguments we had.

The other, her name was Rachel, she was 2 years younger than I, and I knew her online (she was my online best friend) from 7th - 9th grade (ages 12-14). She said I, too, was selfish and only thought of myself, I'm sure there are other things, but we argued a lot as well.

Rachel actually stole my boyfriend, if you'd look at my past posts you'll see how I cope with that (horribly) and the whole story behind it. She thinks I deserve it, it's payback, or revenge to her cause I "ruined her life".. and she admitted this, that's how I know.

Now I don't know how to feel about this, it makes me sound like a horrible person. I am depressed, and I was physically, sexually, and verbally abused as a child by 99% of the people around me until I was 8.. Dealing with the stress, and the memories, when I was little came out in lots of aggression until I was 12 and it turned me miserable. When I go over this in my head it sounds like I'm making up excuses, not accepting that I was a selfish, bossy, little brat until recently. But I don't see how I could have ruined their lives?

I told Rachel that if she didn't like how I was she could leave. She knew I was dealing with things, but she would always say I wasn't strong enough or she was able to survive this and that without being sad. With Donna.. well I can remember a lot of times when we had fun.. but I don't see why these grudges must be pulled out so far? I haven't spoken to Donna since I was 11.. I'm 15 now and yet she still thinks I'm selfish and admitted to my friend that she doesn't approve of us hanging out together?

I tried to distance myself as much as possible from Rachel when she first took the guy I was with (so similar to my current situation) last year in April.. but she follows me around trying to crush my spirit, trying to take all the guys I ever liked.

I don't understand why they pull it out so far. I could name a hundred things I didn't like about them, or stuff they did to me, but I don't and I don't hate them, I never played the revenge or the grudge game. I never told my friend he couldn't talk to Donna or that I didn't like the fact that he is still in contact with her. I never told my boyfriend (now ex) really that he couldn't talk to Rachel, I mean I told him I wasn't comfortable with it but he could if he wanted to.

I've grown up so much these past few years but these girls.. they're stuck in a rut and refuse to just let go? It's starting to get to me, and I don't want it to but it does. I can't see myself as being as bad as they make me seem to be. I mean I have plenty of guy friends who don't understand where these girls get it from. I wonder if it's them or if it's me. I wanna think it's them but.. thinking that way might prove I am what they say I am???
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Old Oct 13, 2010, 09:35 PM
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Offering my support and friendship littleforgetmenot, I don't think you ruin lives. At her age to be thinking the way she does the problems were there well before she met you and everyone is her enemy. Exherting power over others is her tonic and by stealing your boyfriend she has shown her hand with you, there is nothing hidden with her any longer and now you are the one with the power because you know how she behaves. The only further power is why she behaves the way she does. To her sexuality is power, influence is power and at that age it indicates that things have happened to her which have taken her own power away so she has learned to behave this way so that she has the illusion of power. Power is nothing if she ends up alone,

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Old Oct 14, 2010, 07:22 AM
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So last night I found out that Rachel and my ex like to talk **** about me everyday all the time with each other. It's like their favourite pass time. My ex told his friend from real (who has been talking to me, apparently on my side in the whole game) that he should be careful around me because I might try to "brainwash" him. Every day it seems he asks this friend if he's talking to me, as if he cares, and if the friend says yes, apparently he'll go off into a rant of how much I suck.

As much as it angered me, eventually I calmed down and it's funny how obsessed they are. They say they hate me and all that but they just CAN'T stop talking about me. So in some ways I guess I regain control, because as much as they hate me I'm still on their mind as they refuse to let go for some reason, and as much as they hate me their friends don't agree and they think these two are really immature. If anything this obsession is making them loose the power they think they have.

I don't know if it's the resentment talking now anymore, as I've noted when I talk about them I get more aggressive than usual, and I don't know how long it'll last, but I know I'm better off.
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True friends will stick beside you no matter what.I have had spits at friends, and them with me-but if we were meant to last that friendship-we did. I didnt survive all, but I did survive a lot. Sounds like these girls really are just jealous. And that's okay- People get jealous of me and I just remind them-I dont always have rainbows n butterfies in my life-no need to be jealous. Teenagers are cruel-my daughter will have to deal with this in about 4 yrs and it scares me cuz I waas picked on A LOT. But i aways try to remember that every1 thinks differently and for that-they may see something we do not. So maybe u are a little selfish-we all can be this way-especially if you're a teenager-BUT- try to realize why they say that?! Who was really being selfish?! A good friend of mine just called me selfish a few weeks ago-I havent spoken to him since-I look back at the incident and think that i was a little selfish-but on that hand I was merely sticking up for him and he backstabbed me very badly by telling me this. I was only speaking for him-not me!He knew this but was trying to impress some other people who dont much care for me. I look at it this way-I wasted my breathe on u once-I will NOT do this again for you! You are not a true friend by talking to me like that or treating me like that. I wish the best for you and want you to remember something-when someone knows they have your emotions-they tare u up. However, when u walk by ur ex-friend and ex-bf-smiling will get them to think! Keep up this response of smiling and laughing to urself bout the situation and evrything WILL get better! After all, laughter is the best medicine and those who hurt you will feel as tho they failed-which will make them hurt moer than u! Good Luck!!!!!!
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I can't say I was never selfish.. But I was in the position where a lot in my life was going on and I just needed someone to rant to, someone to talk to, but they would think that they could save me, they could make my life better, give advice. I never wanted to be saved or made better, and I never wanted advice. I just wanted someone to get it.. but they didn't. This made coping harder and my emotions would get bottled up, until eventually I would burst and we would argue.

Around a few months ago, since Rachel had messed with me a lot, I was very hostile around my boyfriend.. and I had good reason to be. Inside I trusted him, but I would always resist that and when he would do something suspicious, or Rachel would get on his accounts and write that she loved him using a nickname, I would put up those walls and yell from behind them that he better not mess with me. When he'd give an excuse I'd call him out on his bs and he would deny and deny and deny until I gave in.

What really gets to me though, was that the day he started cheating on me August 14th (yes two months to this day) I had called him out on his strange behaviour. I asked him if he wanted to be with her and I said I didn't care and I just told him that he could, cause I suspected. All I wanted from him was the truth and for him to stay in touch with me no matter what. But he denied, regardless of my open invitation to come clean and leave, and kept up the relationship until October 2nd, when I found out. If I hadn't found out I would probably still have been being mislead.

Going through my old messages with him I can admit I was a bit of a downer however.. but he kind of enabled me. He said he always wanted me to tell him, or else he wouldn't think anything was wrong and he said he wanted to know and understand. So.. I don't really understand why he of all people could think I'm in the wrong and I deserve all of this and all that, when he told me to be how I was. Why would you teach your child to colour on the walls and then get mad at them when they do?

I don't know what's going on but frankly, I'm starting not to care anymore. It's such a waste of life to care about them now. I had apologized to Rachel for not appreciating her and I even apologized to my ex for the same. But at the time they all jumped up and down saying that an apology wouldn't make us be friends again and didn't get it when I explained that wasn't the point.

I just feel like this movie I'm in keeps skipping back to the same scene, over and over and over and no matter how many times I try to go to the next scene it jumps back to this one. I feel like it's time to take out the DVD and put in a new one. Time to watch another movie, open up a new book, for that one is just defiantly not going to get any better.
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I just feel like this movie I'm in keeps skipping back to the same scene, over and over and over and no matter how many times I try to go to the next scene it jumps back to this one. I feel like it's time to take out the DVD and put in a new one. Time to watch another movie, open up a new book, for that one is just defiantly not going to get any better.
So well put.. I have to do the same thing I think
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Glad you can relate
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