Lost and Angry...........................

DocJohn,

The futher the progression, I've found I fly of the handle more and more. Not at the wife ,kids family just strangers. I just want to climb down their throats for NO reason.. Is there an answer to my problem, or will this continued to get worst? I want to be happy/as happy as I can.

I just can't come to grips with who I am, don't like it much. "Strange" Seems like the only thing I want to do is make it over 300 post, to become a veteran member, sad. Silly as that may seem it means so much to me, like I will have left something.

It has been a long night, the sleepness nights are starting to stack up. I'm sure my parents wish they had a more productive son, what can you do. I'm to tried to go help with the yard work, now that fall is on us they have two acres to keep clean, I don't have the strenght.

Cancer sucks in always and fashions, a day like today I will tell me, its over, no more posting just slide away. I don't feel like most of you get what I'm trying to say anyhow. HUGG,,,,,,,,

Someone smack me or wright mean a hate letter.............

Lost & Angry..............

Tucker

Tucker, am I right in understanding that you have cancer? If so, there are support groups that will help you deal with what is going on in your life at the time. Also, your parents need to understand the severity of your illness and it's treatment! You can help them understand by picking up pamphlets from your oncologist's office, reading the internet and printing out that information.

Good luck!

tucker.....i imagine that only people who have walked in your shoes truly understand how you feel.....i am so sorry for all that you are going through........i will pray daily for God to give you strength.....i'm a good listener if you ever need to talk to someone....love julia

Tks butterflylady747,

I have been going to some classes at hospice "the prepare center". Maybe has time goes on, things will start to slowly shut down. This morning I was angry, yelling out at anyone who would listen. I will send you a pm later on...

Tks Julia,

Mark

I'm sorry to hear about what you're dealing with right now... It's so easy to be angry at the world when one is faced with the kind of issues you are, you know?

One of the things we know about anger is that if we don't find a way to let it out naturally, when we feel angry, we think we have things under control by bottling it up and suppressing it. But we don't. All that happens is that we blow up at other people, for no reason. Sometimes even complete strangers.

I suggest reading the below article, which may help, and find other ways to help express you anger more as you are feeling it (and not keeping it all inside). Find an online cancer support group as well, because if you find this kind of community helpful, such a group would also likely be beneficial to you.

http://psychcentral.com/lib/2007/tak...of-your-anger/

Take care of yourself and remember that you're not alone in what you're dealing with (although it may often feel like that).

Best,
DocJohn

ok dear friend......