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Old Nov 01, 2017, 02:33 PM
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I spilled everything. Feelings.
I have no idea how she managed to hold the conversation for so long.
We only know for 1.5 weeks so it was weird for her to know I have feelings for her. But ironically, she supports me through my tough times for 2 hours, and she's like an antidote. She'd tell the conversation doesn't go anywhere and wondered if we should end it, or point out we have to go to sleep. She just kept staying regardless.
I know what she means to me but I don't know what I mean to her.
I asked her if she has such long conversations in general and she said yes. I asked about any men and she said she talks such long conversation with one guy she knows of.
And we know each other for a week and a half and she is willing to have a talk of 2 hours.
In the mid of the conversation she said she's already going out with someone. It was that moment that broke me and I hardly had anything to say. I even told her I'm not sure we can be friends. She said "eventually you'll have to do what is right for you". While empathetic and kind, it also says she doesn't care about me and that I don't have any value to her.

I thought my feelings would also mean feelings from the other person, and not just something personal.

I never learn. I am never willing to accept how things truly are. I treasure my feelings yet I don't know hers, apparently. Makes me feel more useless.
I am so obsessed I am thinking she may like me after all that spill-outs.

She said it's weird and unusual that I have such feelings for her after just a week and a half of knowing each other. I feel much more valueless when hearing that.

Well guys, I think my time is running out. I am officially worthless.
I'm still wondering the paradox though - she was still willing to talk to me for 2 ****ing hours. And we "only know each other for 1.5 weeks".

I am really devastated about how I ruined our new relationship that way. She is more distant with me now, and that distancing is so gentle yet I can feel it.

Guys what will I do?
I feel so sorry for burdening her with my feelings, and so sorry for having ruined our relationship like a selfish idiot
I just thought I'd go with my feelings because they felt special and very important at that moment, probably because of the tough time I'm going through, but regardless were felt strongly.
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Old Nov 01, 2017, 08:39 PM
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I have been following your posts since I saw a heartbreaking thread this morning. Please, if you need someone to talk honestly and openly, don't hesitate to message. I feel your frustration, but you should not invest that amount of confidence in other people. That thread - that I believe got deleted, did that have to do with this?
You are out of your mind to consider yourself worthless just because you got rejected by a girl. You are stronger and smarter than that, dude.
Be well. Let's talk more. Talking heals.
Thanks for this!
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Old Nov 01, 2017, 10:33 PM
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Hey, I know exactly how you feel, I am going thru the same thing...except ive known her for 7 months and over the past few weeks been cautiously telling her how i feel and stuff. of course she is with another man as well, and yea it won't matter what I say or will say, I am worthless to this girl...

I hate my life, I am depressed all day, I can't stop thinking of her...its torture
so yea its not only you going thru this type of deal. I keep hoping each day my luck will turn, thats pretty much what is keeping me going lately...
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Old Nov 01, 2017, 11:12 PM
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I have been following your posts since I saw a heartbreaking thread this morning. Please, if you need someone to talk honestly and openly, don't hesitate to message. I feel your frustration, but you should not invest that amount of confidence in other people. That thread - that I believe got deleted, did that have to do with this?
You are out of your mind to consider yourself worthless just because you got rejected by a girl. You are stronger and smarter than that, dude.
Be well. Let's talk more. Talking heals.
Now what am I gonna do? Our entire relationship is ruined and it was just not worth it. My heart is broken and angry at myself, I am such a ****ing idiot!
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Old Nov 02, 2017, 11:02 PM
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Now what am I gonna do? Our entire relationship is ruined and it was just not worth it. My heart is broken and angry at myself, I am such a ****ing idiot!

Everyone had or will have an experience like that. I had several ones. It hurts, I know, and mostly while we are depressed, it is the end of the world. However, in reality, it shouldn't be, this is part of growth, and trust me, when you reach my age you are going to laugh about it. She rejected you and I understand that you miss her friendship as well. But there are +7bi people in the world and time heals. This pain that you are feeling now eventually will go away, I promise you that. I lived that before. It's worth it waiting, it will get better. Man up and move forward! You want to be alive, you are here for a reason, no?
No happiness or sadness lasts forever.
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Old Nov 02, 2017, 11:09 PM
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CF is right, I've been there many times. First off, know that there are people here that can support you like what is going on right now. Each experience like this is a learning experience. You'll find in due time that you'll heal, be stronger, and be smarter. There are a lot of others out there.
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Old Nov 04, 2017, 08:02 AM
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I don't like the term "man up" because it means "do what needs to be done" when the only one who knows what needs to be done is me, and what needs to be done is for me to feel better.
I never thought I'd say this but I love her. I don't know if it's the "I love you" kind of love, but there's really something about her that I love. It's her treasured empathy and emotional personality. She's cute, adorable, intuitive (as much as possible). But she's also been draining and we may have drained each other with our issues. Are two empaths like two black holes?
But she's really sweet regardless. I've been hurting so much about this I started developing stomach aches.
She's so sweet... I need help going through this.

Reviewing what I wrote makes me seem enchanted. I don't think it's good for me.
But, those feelings are still there, and I ponder if they mean something about us.
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Old Nov 04, 2017, 08:42 AM
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hey man, feels weird to say it again, but I feel the same exact way as you...every time I try to get help from people they just say you have to break off all contact with the girl or you will torture yourself...I am stuck in the same situation and I don't have it in me to do this, but each day that passes I know I am just torturing myself more and more...

my life sucks. and I don't have the power to help myself. lately I have reached points where I don't even feel like living
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Old Nov 04, 2017, 10:10 AM
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Sorry you're feeling so hurt. I don't think you did anything wrong. You've just shared your feelings with her.

I'm sorry, it will take time to cope with that. In the meantime, we're here to listen
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Old Nov 04, 2017, 10:28 AM
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hey man, feels weird to say it again, but I feel the same exact way as you...every time I try to get help from people they just say you have to break off all contact with the girl or you will torture yourself...I am stuck in the same situation and I don't have it in me to do this, but each day that passes I know I am just torturing myself more and more...

my life sucks. and I don't have the power to help myself. lately I have reached points where I don't even feel like living
Actually cutting contact helps in my case.
There are still times where I wish everything would be better. But I have to take care of myself first and foremost
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Old Nov 04, 2017, 03:40 PM
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so you actually managed to cut contact with her completely now? for how long?
Maybe your case is different than mine since you only knew her for a few weeks I think you said....Ive known mine for 7 months but I only became attached during the last few months for whatever reasons I wish never happened...so I am having a hard time just letting go...
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Old Nov 04, 2017, 04:53 PM
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I ponder what is wrong with attachment.
I think an attachment is finding qualities in a partner which we desire. Perhaps qualities missing from childhood, or qualities we just love because of who we are. I prefer to see "attachment" as the latter, rather than the former.
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Old Nov 04, 2017, 08:20 PM
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There is nothing wrong with attachment when it is mutual, and I agree with your statement
the problem is when in like my case, the other person does not feel the same way...that is what sucks big time. Now you are attached to a person that does not want or have the connection to be attached.

The fatal statement that collapsed my world with this girl was when we were talking about our situation and how I wanted to see her more often and she replied with the dreaded "I do not want to get emotionally attached" speech.
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